Those 3 beautiful ladies that I listed right above are the three that very much inspired me on my creativity that I do have left to use for postings on my site, LeiLei's designs are known for originality, I've never seen such amazing work, she has a lot of talent, and she has proven it to me and everyone else that she very much has it, Jacqueline's work has improved a lot since she first started designing I can still remember back when she hardly knew HTML and knew less of filters and what they did to images, but the hard work she has shown, the practice, and the use of her personality being projected into her layouts has inspired me a lot, Mawar has a lot of talent too, I can see what gives her, her motivation, she has such a bright personality and her site shows it. All three ladies have major talent, that's why I linked them so people can view their work and all of you can see why I was so inpired. I only know Jacqueline personally, LeiLei & Mawar are the two I don't know much about at all, but their sites tell me a lot about who they are.

cont. - but continuing on from the history of my I-NET knowns, I didn't start working with Angelfire.Com probably until 4 months ago. I only came on the internet if I was bored, and if I had some good idea to use for my site. Other than that you didn't catch me on the internet that much. I remember that when I first signed up for Angelfire.Com I noticed that my creativity kind of slowly disappeared, I started to slack on making my site. That's when my Fiance knew that my interest in computers and designing has gone away. And to tell you the truth it has, I don't know where it has gone to, but I've lost it. I don't know how to do anything on Adobe Photoshop 7.0 anymore, and it sucks. Because I remember making thousands of images that I used to make and people's comments were always like "your designs are so unique, so original, and you're very creative", too bad I've lost my touch. But hey, it's okay right? It'll come back sooner or later, so for now, stick with what I have for now okay? The creative me will surprise you. Don't worry. Part of me I guess slacks off on designing because I don't find it fun anymore? I've just changed I guess.

(II.) SUMMER

Since July 27th of 2002, I've spent my summer here in San Diego, California. Reasons for my stay here instead of Bremerton, Washington? [#1] My husband to be lives in San Diego and I barely get the chance to spend any time with him, we see each other probably once or twice every month or so by him going up there to Washington and or by me going down here to California, [#2] My family and I had our share of our issues, and spending this time away from them has made all of us feel more assure about how things are, there's just so much going on back home, [#3] Before my Senior year began I wanted to take a major break from my surroundings up in Washington, Jan's company is the most important thing to me right now, nothing else, he just makes my 02' summer the most memorable out of all. If my parents weren't so understanding about me and Jan's relationship, Jan and I would have never seen each other at all, unless his parents were agreeable to letting him come see me up in Washington at least the many times I came here to California. Him and I have both made the effort in this relationship, and him and I have gone through a lot in almost the last year since we've been together, and God has been with us all the way, it's just the matter of knowing what you want, and keeping it. With that saying Jan has always been the one, he'll always be the one, no matter what anybody has to say about long distance relationships, you just have to experience the love, the trueness from both hearts to see why our relationship works the way it does, Jan and I have our history, and every relationship has it's story, here is ours. Click?

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(III.) LIFE & GROWING UP

Well, it's my final year in Olympic High School, I'm glad right? In a way, yes I am. I guess, aging is just a scary thing for me, I can still remember back when I was in Elementary School and I was talking about "Hide-n-Seek" & "Tetherball". I remember always going to the School Librarian to ask about new "Babysitter Club Books" that just came in or not. Gosh, memories of when I was under the age of 10. I've almost reached the age of adulthood? What am I planning on doing after my Senior year? Do I plan on going to college? Moving? Getting a job? I've thought about my future a lot since I was a Junior, and also since I've been here, and I've come up with an answer for all those questions. I already have plans after High School, and the sad thing is for me, is just leaving my Mom, Brother, & Niece back home. You can say I'm the type to get homesick. But growing up is growing up, I can't let anything stop me from doing what I need to do, what I have to do. First of all, moving here to San Diego, is a sure fact. I'm moving down here to be closer to Jan. Apartment is set, college is set, job is set. I'm really trying to get my Mom to agree to move back down here in California so she could be near my Grandma and Aunties. I don't want her staying alone in Washington. She was thinking about going back to the Philippines, and I just opposed that option. As much as my mother and I fight, no matter how much I dislike my Mom's decision's sometimes it doesn't make me change my mind of being close to her. No matter how old I am I still need my "Mommy". You can say I'm a spoiled-brat, since I am the youngest and the ONLY girl. My older Brother Jayson, never went to college because my parents didn't have enough money to send him to college, but now that my parents do have the money and have been saving money to send me to college I'm not going to reject their wants in me getting my education, so of course I'm taking it, but my Brother took knowing that they're paying for my education pretty hard, he was a bit upset that my parents saved up money for me to go to college but not for him, but he understood the problems my parents had back when he was at my age, it was hard. My Brother also never had his own car when he started driving, and he had to buy his own and pay for it with his own money, while I had my car paid for and given right when I got my license in 01'. Sometimes I wish I wasn't the youngest because my Brother holds it against me, you can say he is jealous, that I have everything he didn't have when he was my age. But he has learned in the past months to just let it go, you can say he is attached to me in a way, because he doesn't want me moving down here to California. He said that he can't watch over me anymore. My Brother and my Mom just don't want to let me go, but they both know they have to sooner or later, they hold onto me to tight, and I don't blame them you know? They have to. Why? Because I am the "Baby" in the family. I'm going to be on my own after this year is over, and to tell you all the truth I'm scared, not because I'm moving away from my Family, but because for once I'm making my choices and I'm doing what I want, not what they want. There's just no asking anymore, I just have to face the fact that I am growing up, I just miss being a kid.

(IV.) JOURNAL

JULY 31, 2002

I just woke up from my sleep, gosh I'm so tired right now. I'm in California if all of you have forgotten, I'm in Diego staying @ my Fiances'. He's sleeping right now, he's a sleepy head oh goodness, what a cutie he is when he sleeps, you know what? Jan and I are going to Sea World again hehe, I love Sea World, it's so fun there! Especially @ night! You know when Jan and I went to Sea World last time the tourists that were there took our pictures for us, and they were like "Oh my gosh now that picture turned out beautiful, you two make such a cute couple". It makes me aww that people have those cute thoughts about Jan and I. Oh man, I haven't blogged about anything at all since I got here, but yeah we just did the basic stuffiez, awwww Jan's Mommy got me and Jan tacilog, ta-ci-log it's tacino, fried rice, and eggs, with vinegar, I know that sounds nasty all together but you know what? Tacilog is the woo-woo. Hehe, trust me, Diego makes it best! I love it here in California, the weather I'm still getting used to.

Hehe awww you know what else? Jan's sister Bernie, Ateh Bernie and her son RJ arrived here in National City like the day after I got here, and they both brought waterguns, and guess who got totally soaked? Hahaha. The waterfight didn't even start with me, it started with my Babeeh and Paul (Jan's brother). LoLz, then Tessie (Paul's Girlfriend) got in it too, because Paul soaked her, then when I was in the garage hiding with Jan, RJ, and Aussie (Jan's cute doggie) Tessie comes squirting ME!! Hahaha oh my gosh, I never thought that she would do that but she did, man, but yeah a memorable moment for sure. Hehe hmm what else eh? Well, Wednesday Ateh Bernie drove us to Blockbuster (Memories 92') and Jan and I rented "Serendipity", "A Walk to Remember", & "The Others". We watched "The Others" first, LoLz it was funny because we didn't know what was coming in the beginning, me and Jan screamed because we were so caught off guard, memorable! LoLz, but ahhh I have to go I'm going to lay down with my Babeeh now, keep him company hehe.