well here is the concept... i feel i'm going mad.

not angry , not upset , not depressed.

i feel i'm slowly but surly loosing my mind.

i have no will , and no money to get help.

i've tried the mental health hot line , but they don't really listen,

so i decided to speak to you... to all of you who are out there , who are alone , who are down , who want to listen and be heard.

let you all be my psychologists , and the world be my couch.
 
 

Me

i thought about what to say about me , who am i , where am i ... and decided not to say much.

who am i is not what matters here , it's what i say , and it's what you understand of it.
 
 

i'm in all of you.

i am you.
 
 

i live where you live , just across the street , i listen to the same noises at night , watch the same bad shows on tv , eat the same tasteless food , drink the same cold water.

i was a traveller for a while. maybe i still am , somewhere in my mind , i'm running free.

you might have taken me in your car , you might have taken me into your home.

you might have had me in your bed.

maybe i touched you once.

i hope one day i will.

i'm a man.

i'm under 30 , but i'm old , i feel really really old.

it's been a long while since i've felt young. perhaps my whole life.

english is not my mothers tongue but i'll do my best.

i've checked some part of this page with a spell checker , but decided to stop it , i'm not perfect , and i'm not trying to hide it.
 
 
 
 

what's going to happen here?

well , i'll tell you about me , my life , my problems , my pains

i think that's enough for a start , i think that's a lot for a start.

as i've said , i cam feel my self going mad

going lower and lower with each passing day.
 
 

i want you to treat me... keep me away from the edge.

start

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