but I know many will stumble upon it and for this I invite you in and
if interested, I invite you to read what this website is all about
and I've added a guestbook not only for my friends opinion but for
yours also.
Love to me is something I've never felt before and I don't believe
many others have felt it also. I think many people fool themselves
thinking they are in love or that they've been in love before or that
they know everything there is to know about love. I think to find love
in your life on earth is truly a gift from God. I hope that when and if
love comes to me I will be able to see and apprechiate it.
But what it is? Well, like I said I've never been in love before so I
wouldnt know how to express the feeling. What I do know though is that
true love is unconditional love and I know that once you love someone
there is no going back, love is for life or it wasnt love to begin with.
I think many people misuse the word for many misunderstand it. I don't
think you should try to change someone you love because doing so would
mean you don't love them, them as a whole being. I know and learnd
that we all have faults but thats what being human is all about and
I know thats what makes me me. I've learnt to accept my faults as I
expect my future love to do also. I've also learnt to say what I mean
and mean what I say. If I tell someone I will always be there for them,
then I will make it a point to always be there for that person till
the day my life on earth is trough. I know special people are very rare
in this world as I've only found a few myself but I believe in equal
right and will also make it a point to give everyone a chance to prove
themselves to me as I would hope people do for me but unfortunetly many
don't and even more won't. But I've convinced myself that doing this
would eventually pay off. Trying to convince me otherwise would only
show me that you do not accept me for who I am and could not love me
for me which is the love many are convinced is real but not the type
I am looking for. To settle for this type of love I do not believe in
would mean I'd be lowering my standards and setteling for less when I
know more is out there somewhere. If I am wrong than that is something
I am willing to live with as I know we make mistakes and this is to be
expected. On this jurney we call life I've also learnt to listen for I
know there is something to be learned wherever there is something or
someone to listen to. I know that not many people in my life will see
things the way I do, through my eyes but I've learnt to accept that and
be strong. I know that I will be walking on this long hard road of life
pretty much alone but I will not give in because others don't agree
with me or because they think what I believe in is wrong or because
they're not willing to accept that we are not all the same and that I
am different in many ways. And I know that not giving into these narrow
minded people will only make me stronger in the long run when
everything is said and done. I think we're almost all headed to the same
place and there are many many different roads to get to that same place
and I think its truly wrong to judge or give up on someone because
they have chosen to take a different path yet have the same destination
in mind. I am here to live the life God has given me and will use my
own mind and experience to guide me in the right direction as I am the
only one who knows which direction is the right one for me as I am the
only one who will truly know who I am. And if you want to be my friend,
please find out who I am and if you don't like me or are not willing to
accept that I am different, walk away and don't look back! I don't need
you in my life to slow me down. But if you think I am strong for not
giving up in what I believe in when so many have tried to tie me down
and keep me from getting ahead then I welcome you into my life as I
also think you are very strong for not following the majority of the
people I've met. And then I ask you to love me not for what I might be
molded into but for what I am here and not. Don't expect me to be
someone all good and giving, someone who would never dissapoint you or
someone too right to be real or too perfect to be me. I guess what Im
trying to say is that I don't feel you love me for me as I know you
don't accept the things I do and the way I am and giving into you would
defeat the purpose of what I'm trying to achieve for myself and what I
believe in. And I know that this letter will never be finished as I
learn new things about me on a daily basis. But I'll be adding a few
peoms and quotes that I feel strongly about and hope you see in them what I do.
Be yourself, no one can ever tell you you're doing it wrong.
Don't pretend to be someone you're not, strive to be more than you are.