hey...psht don't know why i'm writing this but i think it's because i feel like writing and i have so much that i just need to SAY and i want everyone to see it but then i DON'T because...i'm just like that...there's actually a lot about me that most people...99.9999% on the earth...don't know. it's probably gonna stay like that but if i don't get some of this stuff down, i'll just DIE!!

i'm sooo glad erin and i are talking again...you have no idea. absolutely NO IDEA!! we talked on the fone for the first time in like, 3 months, today...god i missed that!

guys make the best pillows...

i love my friends...

it's not easy to convince yourself that you don't like a guy, but it is totally possible...i'm tellin' ya from experience. or maybe it just delays the feeling. when there's a will, there's a way...

if it's meant to be, it'll be, and i think it's just meant to be for me to have a crush on a certain guy. *sighs* he was on the "list" of approved guys (0f 6) before i found out who he liked and how much he liked her, and so then i backed off, and then we started talking and =p geez talking with him is just so easy, and so i was glad i knew a guy like him, but *sighs* i think the more we talk, the more i want to fall for him...but if i do THAT, well, it could mess up lots of stuff, like the fact that we're pretty good friends now, or *how* we talk, or how he's starting to (well, *i* think, anyways) get over this girl...i guess it would be up to him because i'm too chicken to bring it up even tho if/when he reads this i think he'll know. yeah i know, shaunna...scared w/guys? yeah...well it happens...lol.

i hate it when people ask me if they should like this guy who just HAPPENS to be my ex, HELLO, whadaya think i'm gonna say? hello?

yeah...anyways well I guess that's it...