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SELF-INTERVIEW
"Bellflowers". Oil and Canvas. 35 x 45 cm
-I don't know. It is up to you to choose.
-You are an artist by profession. Aren't you?
-No, I am not. I am an artist of necessity.
-So, history is your profession.
-It is my temperament.
-What about poems?
-Everyone have the faults. There are less to every wine.
-So, What are you doing for living?
-I am genius.
-When was you born?
-Unfortunately I was.
-Why so joyless?
-I have a glumly period, I am blue today,
-What would you like to take?
-I would like to give. Emotions, talent, intellect.
-So, what?
-Nobody takes it.
-And what are you doing?
-I foist myself on the world (shorter ideas, dresses).
-What is your best nightmare?
-To have feelings that I am the ablest, clever-clever in a company. No advice, no help, no friends�
-Really? And how often do you get the feelings?
-Always� In my dreams�
-What do you value most of all?
-A thing, which hasn�t value.
-Paintings and money?
-Hm� Hm� may be� But I mean another things now� clear air, old clothes, the souls (the other�s, of course).
-And what about your soul?
-My soul are already booked.
-You mean devil?
-Devil? Whose devil � yours, or mine?
-Do you have your own devil?
-Of course I have.
-Oh, please, don�t bedevil me! I am talking about your soul. Where is it?
-In me, of course. With me, to be exact. But it is very dark.
-And that�s why you like to take the sun naked?
-(eyes popped with amazement) What do you mean?�.I think I know what you mean. You mean that closes, what I like is old, soul is dark and black, so� my naked body is the best what I have�.Oh� may be�. But I merely like the sun�.
-What is your purpose?
-Knowledge.
-What kind of knowledge?
-Where is a table. Where is my place in the sun�
-Only?
-The others will come some other day�.After dearth�
-What is your life?
-Ergastul.
-So, are you a slave?
-Yes, my talent�s slave.
-Are you dreaming of your freedom?
-No, I am not. I am dreaming about another numberless slaves of my talent.
-Would you like to change the world?
-I wouldn�t. History will change, not me. I am a historian, not history.
-Are you realist?
-In ladies room � yes. As much come in, the same come out.
-Hm� Are you idealist?
-When I�m working, yes. For idea only�
-What are you driven by?
-Curiosity.
-Do you suffer from solitude?
-I don�t. I enjoy it.
-Do you like a society?
-Select society.
-Select by whom?
-By me.
-What is your entertainment?
-Indifference of the streets.
-Where are you looking for wisdom?
-In the fools.
-Who is clever, do you think?
-Who slits one�s eyes, like Lenin.
-Who is fool do you think?
-Who bore one�s eyes out, like me.
-So, are you stupid?
-I am genius.
-What do you like to play in?
-In human relations.
-What do you hate to play in?
-In the other�s game, with unknown rules.
-Do you like money?
-You like. It will serve for the moment.
-What do you love in the other people?
-Love of me.
-What is your work for you?
-Illness.
-Are you reading inscriptions on the walls?
-Certainly. And even try to answer.
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