Mom
Mom...
There are so many things
that I still want to say
so many things
that I still need to tell you
Sometimes it feels
as though I will never have the time
to tell you these things
as though I won't have the guts
to say what's in my heart
to someone that means so much to me
but that's also so far away from me
These things
I want to tell you
means a lot
probably because they
are so deeply locked away in my heart
I know I have not always
been honest with you...
told you what's bugging me
or even that I admire you
You're one of the strongest people
I've ever met
I might not agree with all your decisions
but I respect and accept them
I'm sorry I carried so much hate in my
heart
not thinking how you might feel
living with your decisions every day
and feeling a pinch of regret
for some of the things we have to accept
Thank you for always being a good Mother
Thanks for understanding things
that other people could not
Thanks for all the good advice you've
given me
and still continue to give
Thanks that you care and love me still
Only now that we're closer
I know what I've missed
not having you in my life.
©
Yolande Matthews
2000
