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Amber

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Hmm I dont even know where to begin. Let me begin my describeing how we met. As you know, if you have read my Bio , that I work at a convience store. One night this beautiful blonde, drop dead gorgeous, walks into the store. My chin hits the floor... There was just something about her that made her beautiful. Whether it be that smile, or the beautiful body, its still a toss up. But she walked upto the counter and smiled. She asked me if I had seen a small change purse that she had left here ealier in the day. Of course I had seen it. My boss had left it right unde the counter with a  note on it. So I handed it to her and out the door she went. I see alot of people in a night, but for some odd reason I remembered her smile. I hadnt ever seen this girl before , and I didnt think that I ever would again. Boy was I wrong.

Two days later my boss informed me that he had hired a new cashier and that she would be coming in tonight and I was to train her. I hadnt ever trained anyone on the regsiter before. But I figured hey this is cool, I stand back show her what to do and she does my job for me all night. I answer a few questions, no big deal. Well the time for her to show up rolled around. In the door walks that blonde again. I just thought she must be new in town. She walked to the end of the counter, put her purse under the counter and introduced herself. "Hi I'm Amber". Amber... So I intorduced myslef and told her the basics of the job and what it entailed.

She had this accent that I couldnt put my hands on. So I asked her where she was from. She replied, "Minnesota." Well that explains it, a northern accent. So the rest of the night I relentlessly made fun of her accent and she took it all in stride. She was only there 3-4 hours, but it seemed not even that long. Talking to her was easy, easier than I thought it would be considering her beauty. Women that beautiful are usualy stuck up and prissy. But she was different, down to earth and nice.

So over the next couple of months we became good friends. Come to find out during this time she was pregnant with a little girl. This was cool excpet for when the baby would move across her stomach. She would always lift her shirt up so you could see her stomach and you could see the baby move inside. This just wigged me out, it was creepy. It reminded me of the movie "Alien", when the alien poped out of that guys chest. I know this was a bad thought on my part. But that is what it reminded me of. As it got  closer to her due date, she had to leave work. On december 20, 2001 Kylee Ray (spelling) Craver was bron.

I wanted to go and visit her in the hospital but I didnt know her all that well, and I didnt know her family at all. So at that point in time I didnt feel that it was my plave to be going to visit her. I didnt hear from her at all until a week or two later she started to come into the store again. We made small talk, nothing much to say to each other until one night. Nothing unusual happened that night excpet for the fact that she came in and asked me when I was going to ask her out... I stopped dead in my tracks for a minute, but it seemed like an eternity. She is asking me when I'm going to ask her out. Sweet.... This cannot be happening to me. This girl is way to high class for me, but what the hell she is basicaly asking me out lets roll with it. So I told her I needed her phone number. She looked at me and said "you already have it silly", and walked out.

I had to stop for a second, did that just really happen or was that some sort of weird and very cruel dream. But then she drove by the window and hinked at me and I waved back. Nope it isnt a dream it was reality. Man I was flyin high for the next week. But I never told anybody what had happened, I didnt say a word to anyone. I kept it all a secret for fear that she would catch wind that I was telling people and then the date would be off. So a week later I called her, asked her out and she replaied that it was a GO. We've got greenage.. Man that was a great feeling, but my heart was in my throat. Man I was worried sick about messing this whole thing up. Hell I hadnt ever been out with someone I actualy liked. Usualy my dates were with fat chicks, or women I didnt really want to be seen with.

But Amber was different I wanted to show her off like a prize. But I knew I couldnt do that. So we went out, a very simple, very traditonal date. Dinner and a shitty movie. (oooooo gee josh lets not get to creative here) Yeah okay it was a great time, it would have been better if I could have breathed some time throughout the night. But it is kinda hard to breath when your whole lower body is in your throat. Herat is about to beat out of your chest. About the only thing that didnt happen is that I didnt sweat any.

The date was over and we were on our way home. This is when I realized that I'm not any good at making small talk or conversation. But she took over all that. She said she had a good time, and that she wasnt just saying that to make me feel good. We got back to her house, I walked her to her front door and walked inside. There for the first time I saw Kylee. My god she was small. Her sister Heather was rocking her in the chair. I didnt think that a human could be that small. This frightened the shit out of me.

I didnt think we would ever go out together again. But I aksed her out a second time and she agreed. This time it was to be with a group of friends. We were going to go bowling and out to eat at Pizza Hut. Well we never made it that far. Amber had to work late so we waited around and all got ready to load up and head out. Well Amber forgot that she needed to changer her clothes before we left so I ran her to her house to get a change of clothes.

We pulled into her drive and she got out. Not even 30 seconds later her neightbor runs from her hosue and into Ambers. I see them talking and her neightbor runs back to her house and Amber runs to the jeep. She hops in and says, "Mom has Kylee at the hospital and they need permission to treat. Get me to my car fast." Hell I took of like a bat out of hell back to the store to get her to her car. I drop her off she says goodbye and leaves. I stayed behind and explained to the others what was going on.

I kinda felt that I should ahve gone but again I didnt feel it was my place. So I hung around the store for a while and waited. Finaly I couldnt take it anymore and I hopped back into my jeep and took off. I took backroads all the way to Macomb, never dropping under 70mph on the straightaway. I reached the hopsital and ran inside. I just caught a peek of Amber trunign the corner. So I walked to the counter told them who I was and asked what was going on. The nurse didnt know and told me to wait in the waiting room. So I sat down and waited. About 15mins later a lady sits down next to me and introduces herself and says she is one of Betty's (Ambers mom) friends. She begins to explain that Kylee wouold not stop crying for 3-4 straight hours. So fianly left with no other choice they brought her in.

So we both sat there and waited. About 5 ins later Heather, and Ashley (Ambers sisters) arrive and they sit down. We chat for a while laiugh a bit and then Ambers mom walks out. She said Kylee had some sort of stomach sickness. For the life of me I dont rememebr the name of it. But  Kylee would be fine and they gave  her some medication to help it. Amber walks out with Kylee soon after that and we laod up in the jeep and go back to Betty's freinds house to pick up Kylee;s stuff. I switch the carseat from Ambers mom's Saturn to my Jeep and Amber, Kylee, and I pack up and goto the bwoling alley where everyone is.

Amber bwoled a couple of games, kylee was passed around to all the girls to be held and loved on. Well they finsished bowling and we decide to go get a movie and go back to petes house and watch it. Well I didnt go inside with them to pick it out. The movie they got was "13 Ghosts". Unknown to me at the time Amber wigs out over scary movies. So we decide that its a bad idea to goto petes and watch the movie so we go back to her apt.

She put kylee down made Macaroni and cheese and we watched a movie together. I dont remember what the movie was called. It got late and I had to be to work early so I left and went home for about 2 hours and then came back town.

More coming soon.......


 

 

 
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