The Diary
14/03/00: This is my first day in my new base. After
I finished a course of 2 months in the communication subject I came here ,
and my job isn't at all what I learned in my course. Its about computers and
maintenance. Life can be funny like this somtimes.i feel like I wasted 2 months
of my life but never mind. I pretty like it here. The people are great and
the job is interesting. I even came through a girl that I really like so I
hope something will get out of this. Lately I find my self listening to old
songs that I like (mainly 80`s, the best music out there!).Its amazing how
music can stimulate in you old feelings , some from the good times and some
from bad, and they are so intense that it feels like you are experiencing
it all over again. Just try to listen to u2`s "With Or Without You"
without thinking of all your former loves.
16/03/00: I have returned today for a weekend from the
army. Oh god... I`m exhausted but despite this I went out today with my friends
to our usual place.its called "Nafis". There was a beautiful girl
sitting in a table next to us. She was looking around innocently and it makes
her even more attractive. I wanted to get up , go to her and just start talking
to the pretty creature. But as you all guessed I didn't. I just cant go to
a total stranger and start a conversation with him (or in this case her) like
I know him . and its annoying because I see people doing it all the time and
they usually succeed. It seems like ill never have a girlfriend because I
don't have the guts to pick up with a girl and the girls I already know and
a talk with them freely and having fun with them are my friends and I`m not
in love with any of them (actually , one that I`m in love with has a boyfriend.)
It seems like I`m in an endless circle that I cant get out
of.And in this time of my life I really need a girlfriend. I am in a period
of my life that is really tough, the army and all, and usually when I come
back from the army for a weekend I don't have the power to go out to clubs
and discotheques, although its fun to hung out with my friends i really prefer
a quiet night with a women i love.