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mummy told me once that i had sleeping disorder when i was young. it was common to see me sleep walk. i guess it happened when i was around 7 or 8, only for a short period of time. it triggered some curiousity in me about this issue. why do people sleep walk? why do we dream? do those series of linked night terrors had any indications in our lives? do recurring dreams mean something too? Omen.

false awakening dreams. freaky experience. we thought we had woken up but in actual fact, we were fooled by our own minds. it all seemed too real to be fake. you thought you were really walking down a flight of stairs, but to realise that it was only a dream when the usual sudden jerk came along soon enough to really wake you up from the illusion.

sleep walking. running around the house. screaming and wailing for help from the hold of *something* that had been after you for years. no words could describe, no one had seen it except you. no one could understand the fear in you. walking into the household kitchen (filled with instruments of self-destruction), peeled the skin off the fresh cool pear with a fruit knife, putting it back in the fridge after the job, not realising anything at all. *who's pear ah?* after seeing it lying in the fridge for days, all yellowed and dried.

lucid dreams. clear events running in my brain when i'm deep in sleep. weird happenings, unknown people, queer situations. it all seemed so real. i would record some of the vivid dreams that i had the moment i wake up. scribble the details in a notepad. 'coz i know in no time, i'll forget every single shit. i want them to be remembered. especially dreams that seemed so clear, lucid.

was that a dream long time ago? deja vu. i guess this should sound familiar to most of us. realising the familiarity of certain events or actions at the point of time. *have i seen this before?* *eh? look so familiar* were these what we had anticipated in our dreams before it actually happened? curiosity struck strongly here. haven't got an explaination for myself regarding this yet.