TAI. SAO?

Vai` lo+i` cua? tac' gia?: DDo^i khi MatBiec cam? tha^y' tha^t. me^t. moi? va` ca(ng tha(ng?,nhu+ng mo^i~ la^n` nho+' lai. nhu+ng~ ca^u chuye^n. nay`, MatBiec cam? tha^y' nhu+ nhu+ng~ gi` minh` ddang phai? ddo^i' dda^u` tha^t. kho^ng the^? so sanh' ddu+o+c. vo+i' nhu+ng~ gi` ma` o^ng cu. ban' co^m', o^ng tha^y` day. nhac., va` co^ be' tan` ta^t. kia dda~ ga(p. phai?. MatBiec mong ra(ng` nhu+ng~ ca^u chuye^n. tha^t. nay` cung~ se~ khie^n' cho ban. ddoc. co' mo^t. cam? giac' tu+o+ng tu+.: Chung' ta va^n~ con` may ma(n' ho+n so vo+i' nhie^u` nguoi` khac'...va` hay~ rang' le^n ban. nhe'! Hay~ ddi he^t' con ddu+o+ng` ma` ban. ddang ddi. Hay~ nha^n. nhu+ng~ gi` ban. ddang co' lam` nie^m` hanh. phuc' cua? chinh' minh`. Hanh. phuc' vo^n' kho^ng xa vo+i`,luo^n luo^n o+? trong ta^m` tay...chi? co' ddie^u` chung' ta co' nha^n. tha^y' "no'" hay kho^ng??? Co' nhu+ng~ ca^u hoi? kho^ng co' ca^u tra? lo+i`, nhu+ng va^n~ hy vong. mo^t. ngay` nao` ddo', nhu+ng~ tha(c' ma(c' se~ ddu+o+c. giai? ddap'. Phai?, "Tai. sao?", "Tai. sao?", "Tai. sao su+. vie^c. lai. xay? ra nhu+ va^y.?" Ban. ddoc. hay~ cung` vo+i' MatBiec ddi tim` ca^u tra? lo+i`, ban. nhe'!

Thie^t. kho^ng co' ddie^u` gi` thu' vi. ba(ng` ddu+o+c. a(n qua` va(t. khi con` o+? Vie^t. Nam. No+i to^i cu+ ngu. chinh' la` no+i co' nhie^u` ganh' hang` rong hay ddi qua mo^i~ ngay`. Tie^ng' rao hang` e^ a cua? co^ ban' chao' su+o+n` mo^i~ sang' so+m', tie^ng' e^m diu. cua? co^ ban' xo^i, tie^ng' rao hang` to sang sang? cua? chu' ban' banh' mi` dda~ tro+? thanh` mo^t. thoi' quen tha^n thu+o+ng. Ne^u' kho^ng nghe tie^ng' ho. mo^i~ ngay`, to^i cam? tha^y' nhu+ thie^u' thie^u' mo^t. ddie^u` gi` ddo'. Nhu+ng co' le~ kho^ng ai khie^n' to^i nho+' va` suy nghi~ dde^n' nhie^u` nha^t' ba(ng` o^ng cu. ban' co^m'.

O^ng cu. khoang? 80 tuo^i? luc' ddo'. Dang' nguoi` ga^y` go`. Lan` da dda~ hoa' thanh` ddo^i` mo^i`, nha(n nheo theo tuo^i? tac'. Toc' o^ng dda~ bac. pho+. Bu+o+c' di cua? o^ng cha^m` cha^m., ye^u' o+t'. Luc' nao` to^i cung~ tha^y' o^ng trong chie^c' ao' ba` ba mau` dden dda~ phai mau` va` ddo^i dep' Lao` mau` xanh dda~ mon` got'. Nhu+ng co' le~ ddie^u` khie^n' to^i chu' y' nhie^u` nha^t' la` tie^ng' rao hang` cua? o^ng: ddang le^n cao ro^i` bo^ng~ ha. tha^p' mo^t. cach' ba^t' thinh` linh` "Co^m' dda^y..."

Banh' co^m' kho^ng phai? la` mo^t. trong nhu+ng~ mon' a(n va(t. ma` bon. tre? chung' to^i u+a thich' nha^t' cho ne^n hang` cua? o^ng ban' kho^ng ddu+o+c. chay. la(m'. To^i ddu+o+c. bie^t' ra(ng` co' nhie^u` khi o^ng ddi ca? ngay`, tu+` sang' dde^n' chie^u`, nhu+ng va^n~ kho^ng co' ai mua. Su+. so^ng' cua? ca? gia ddinh` o^ng lai. du+a. vao` nhu+ng~ chie^c' banh' co^m' nay`. Vo+. cua? o^ng bi. binh., kho^ng lam` ddu+o+c. nhie^u` vie^c. dde^? phu. o^ng va` chi? tro^ng cho+` vao` nhu+ng~ mie^ng' banh' co^m' cho^ng` minh` ban' ddu+o+c. dde^? so^ng' cho qua ngay`!

Ho^m ddo', mu+a bay la^t' pha^t'. Nhu+~ng~ hat. mu+a bong' ma^y go~ ti' tach' xuo^ng' ma(t. ddu+o+ng` tru+o+c' cu+a? nha` to^i. To^i ngo^i` thu+` trong nha`, ddu+a ma(t' nhin` ra khung cu+a? so^?, tha^m` oan' trach' o^ng tro+i` sao lai. mu+a khie^n' to^i kho^ng ddi cho+i dda^u ddu+o+c ca?. To^i bo^ng~ tha^y' o^ng cu. ban' co^m' ddi ngang qua tru+o+c' cu+a? nha`. Nhu+ng khac' ha(n? moi. ngay`, o^ng kho^ng le^n tie^ng' rao hang`. O^ng bu+o+c' la(ng. le~ ve^` phia' sa^n nha` to^i, ddu+ng' du+o+i' hie^n nha` dde^? tranh' mu+a. Ve? ma(t. me^t. moi?, ba^n` tha^n` cua? o^ng khie^n' ba` ngoai. to^i lo a^u. Ngoai. chay. ra mo+? cu+a? dde^? hoi? tha(m va` to^i cung~ to` mo` bu+o+c' theo ngoai. ra ngoai`. To^i che^t' la(ng. khi nghe o^ng ke^? o^ng dda~ kho^ng ddu+o+c. a(n cai' gi` ho+n mo^t. ngay` qua. Hang` cua? o^ng ban' qua' e^' a^m? ne^n o^ng kho^ng co' tie^n` dde^? mua gao.. O^ng lai. co^' ddi ban' hang` tu+` sang' dde^n' to^i', le^ bu+o+c' tu+` he^t' xom' nay` sang xom' khac'...khie^n' o^ng dda~ kie^t. su+c'...

Y' nghi~ oan' trach' tro+i` mu+a cua? to^i khi nay~ kho^ng con` nu+a~. Nhu+ng thay vao` ddo' la` mo^t. no^i~ buo^n` vo+i` vo+i., kho' noi' ne^n lo+i`! To^i tha^m` kinh' phuc. o^ng. Tuy o^ng da~ gia`, o^m' ye^u', nhu+ng o^ng va^n~ con` mo^t. ti' tu+. trong. trong long`, va^n~ co^' ga(ng' kie^m' tie^n` ba(ng` nhu+ng~ giot. nu+o+c' ma(t' mo^` ho^i cha^n chinh', kho^ng lu+a` bip. ngu+o+i` khac' va` cung~ kho^ng tu+. ha. minh` xuo^ng' ba(ng` cach' ddi xin tie^n` la^n~ su+. thu+o+ng hai. cua? ngu+o+i` ddo+i`. DDo^i khi to^i tu+. tha(c' ma(c' vo+i' chinh' minh`:"O^ng cu. co' nha` dde^? o+? hay kho^ng??? Ne^u' o^ng kho^ng co', trong nhu+ng~ dde^m mu+a to gio' lo+n', o^ng se~ ra sao??"

Tai. sao??? Tai. sao??? Tai. sao nhu+ng~ ngu+o+i` lu+o+ng thie^n. lai. co' mo^t. so^' pha^n. qua' bi ddat' trong khi nhu+ng~ ke? gian do^i', lu+a` bip. luc' nao` cung~ ddu+o+c. so^ng' tre^n nhung lua.???

Ho+n mu+o+i` na(m dda~ tro^i qua ke^? tu+` ngay` ho^m a^y' nhu+ng hinh` anh? cua? o^ng ban' co^m' vo+i' chie^c' bat. du` mau` xanh du+o+i' tro+i` mu+a ti' tach' va^n~ so^ng' mai~ trong long` to^i...!!! To^i dda~ xa nha` ho+n bay? na(m. Kho^ng hie^u? so^' pha^n. cua? o^ng sau nay` ddi ve^` dda^u...? O^ng con` so^ng' hay o^ng dda~ che^t'...???

Ca^u chuye^n. xay? ra cach' dda^y 2 na(m ru+o+i~ khi to^i va^n~ con` ddang hoc. du+o+i' high school. Ngoai` gio+` hoc., to^i dung` 3 tie^ng' do^ng` ho^` mo^i~ ngay` dde^? lam` vie^c. thie^n. trong phong` ca^p' cu+u' va` phong` mo^? tai. mo^t. be^nh. vie^n. o+? ga^n` nha`.

Ho^m ddo', mo^t. cu' ddie^n. thoai. tu+` tre^n la^u` hai goi. xuo^ng'. Ho. ca^n` mo^t. ngu+o+i` volunteer dde^? ddu+a mo^t. o^ng cu. trong xe dda^y? ddi xuo^ng' xe. To^i la` ngu+o+i` ddu+o+c. cu+? ddi lam` nhie^m. vu. ddo' va` kho^ng ngo+` su+. kie^n. nay` dda~ tro+? thanh` mo^t. da^u' a^n' trong ddo+i` to^i.

Ngu+o+i` ddan` o^ng chac. co+~ 50 tuo^i?. Ve? ngu+o+i` ga^y` go` nhu+ng ddo^i ma(t' va^n~ tinh anh, la^p' lanh', chu+ng' to? o^ng la` mo^t. ngu+o+i` na(ng ddo^ng.. To^i va` o^ng ba(t' chuye^n. vo+i' nhau ra^t' de^~. To^i giup' o^ng ddi xuo^ng' la^u` mo^t. nhu+ng ddo+i. mai~ va^n~ kho^ng tha^y' ban. cua? o^ng dde^n' ddon' ne^n o^ng va` to^i tro` chuye^n. ddu+o+c. mo^t. ho^i`.

O^ng la` giao' vie^n day. a^m nhac. tai. mo^t. tru+o+ng` trung hoc. la^n ca^n.. O^ng thu+o+ng` ddu+a hoc. tro` ddi trinh` die^n~ a^m nhac. kha(p' no+i tre^n the^' gio+i'. Long` say me^ a^m nhac. va` y' muo^n' ddem a^m nhac. dde^n' nhu+ng~ mie^n` xa xo^i heo? lanh' dda~ khie^n' o^ng tu+` bo? Dallas dde^? ddi dde^n' mo^t. thanh` pho^' nho? na(m` ga^n` bie^n gio+i' cua? Mexico va` tie^u? bang Texas. Cuo^c. so^ng' tu+o+ng? chu+ng` nhu+ e^m a? tro^i cho dde^n' mo^t. ho^m o^ng bi. mo^t. nhom' tho^? da^n ddo^t. nha^p. vao` nha`. Ho. dung` ga^y. dde^? ddanh' dda^p. o^ng mo^t. ho^i` cho dde^n' khi o^ng nga^t' xiu?. Ho. tu+o+ng? o^ng dda~ che^t', vo^i. cu+o+p' ddo^`, ro^i` bo? ddi. O^ng bi. ba^t' tinh? trong vong` 3 na(m va` phai? so^ng' du+a. vao` nhu+ng~ chie^c' may' to^i' ta^n trong khu intensive care unit. Nao~ bo^. cua? o^ng bi. cha^n' ddo^ng. manh. va` hai qua? tha^n. bi. ddanh' nat'!

DDo^i luc', so^' pha^n. o^ng tu+o+ng? chu+ng` nhu+ dda~ cha^m' du+t'. Ngu+o+i` nha` o^ng kho^ng lo no^i? cho o^ng. Ho. bo? o^ng lai. mo^t. minh`. Ne^u' kho^ng nho+` mo^t. ngu+o+i` ban. va` mo^t. ngu+o+i` hoc. tro` thu+o+ng` xuye^n dde^n' be^nh. vie^n. dde^? cha(m soc' cho o^ng mo^i~ ngay`, co' le~ o^ng se~ kho^ng co' ngay` ho^m nay. Sau 3 na(m na(m` ba^t' ddo^ng. tre^n chie^c' giu+o+ng` trong be^nh. vie^n., o^ng tinh? da^y., "bo+~ ngo+~" vo+i' so^' pha^n. cua? chinh' minh`! O^ng ba(t' dda^u` luye^n. ta^p. physical therapy dde^? ho^i` phuc. da^n` da^n`. Nhu+ng tie^c' thay, vu. cu+o+p' boc' dda~ cu+o+p' ddi ddo^i cha^n cua? o^ng va` nha^t' la` nie^m` ddam me^ a^m nhac. cua? mo^t. ngu+o+i` tha^y`! DDo^i cha^n cua? o^ng bi. te^ lie^t.. O^ng chi? ddanh` nho+` vao` chie^c' xe dda^y? dde^? ddu+a o^ng ddi dda^y ddi ddo'. Tu+` mo^t. nguoi` binh` thu+o+ng`, o^ng tro+? thanh` mo^t. ngu+o+i` tan` ta^t!

Ke^? tu+` sau bie^n' co^' ddo', o^ng kho^ng ddi day. nu+a~ . O^ng quay lai. Dallas va` mo^i~ tua^n` o^ng phai? dde^n' be^nh. vie^n. no+i to^i volunteer 2 la^n` 1 tua^n` de^? loc. tha^n. (kidney dialysis) va` cung~ chinh' vi` va^y. ma` to^i dda~ co' dip. ga(p. o^ng.

Tai. sao??? Tai. sao??? Tai. sao nhu+ng~ ca^u chuye^n. ddang' tiec^' lai. xay? ra cho nhu+ng~ ngu+o+i` co' ta^m ho^n`co' mo^t. tinh` cam? gio^ng' nhu+ o^ng??? To^i dda~ co^' kim` ham~ nhu+ng~ cam? xuc' cua? minh` luc' a^y' dde^? o^ng kho^ng nhin` tha^y' ddu+o+c. nhu+ng~ giot. nu+o+c' ma(t' chi? tru+c. cho+` o^ng quay ddi cho^~ khac' la` se~ ro+i u+o+t' dda^m~ bo+` mi!

Hu+m`````...Lu+o+i` qua' ddi ma^t'!!! Phai? chi co' cai' giu+o+ng` be^n canh. thi` to^i se~ la(n quay ra ngu?. Con` phai? lam` xong research paper dai` 5 trang nu+a~ chu+'! Chan' thie^t.!

Trong luc' to^i ddang than phie^n` ve^` bai` vo+? cua? minh` thi` mo^t. co^ be' dda^y? mo^t. chie^c' xe ddu+ng. dda^y` ta^p. vo+? ddi to+i'. Dang' ddi cua? co^ be' xie^u veo.. Voc' ngu+o+i` xanh xao, ga^y` go`. Canh' tay ha^u` nhu+ kho^ng co' ba(p' thit., bi. teo lai., tro^ng tha^t. ky` la.. To^i chi? tha^y' nhu+ng~ khuc' xu+o+ng ddu+o+c. bao boc. trong lo+p' da tra(ng' be^ch. To^i suy nghi~ mo^t. ho^i` ve^` ca(n binh. nay` va` cho+t. nho+' ra nhu+ng~ gi` to^i dda~ ddu+o+c. ddoc. trong quye^n? medical journal. (Te^n cua? chu+ng' binh. la` "Muscular Dystrophy". Dda^y la` mo^t. binh. di truye^n`. Nhu+ng~ ba(p' thit. cua? ngu+o+i` binh. se~ bi. tie^u huy? da^n` da^n` va` ngu+o+i` binh. se~ che^t'. Y khoa dda~ tim` ra ddu+o+c. nguye^n nha^n ga^y ra chu+ng' binh. nhu+ng va^n~ chu+a tim` ra ddu+o+c. cach' chu+a~ tri.) To^i vu+a` a(n tru+a o+? ca(n tin, vu+a` ddoc. sach', va` vu+a` quan sat' co^ be'.

Co^ be' khe~ cui' xuo^ng' chie^c' xe dda^y? va` la^y' cuo^n' sach' dda(t. le^n tre^n ban` mo^t. cach' kha' kho' kha(n. Ke^' tie^p', co^ be' mo+? tu+ng` trang sach'. La^n` nay`, hanh` ddo^ng. cua? co^ co' ve? kho' kha(n ho+n. Co^ be' dung` ban` tay ye^u' o+t' cua? minh` dda^y? nhe. trang gia^y' mong?. Cu+' mo^i~ la^n` co^ be' dda^y? trang gia^y' sang ddu+o+c. mo^t. be^n thi` trang gia^y' lai. ba^t' thinh` linh` quay ve^` vi. tri' cu~. Canh' tay kho^ng ba(p' thit. cua? co^ be' kho^ng co' ddu? su+c' dde^? giu+~ vu+ng~ vi. tri' cua? to+` gia^y' trong mo^t. khoanh? kha(c' nga(n'. Co^ be' lai. thu+? la^n` thu+' hai. Va^n~ kho^ng ddu+o+c.. Trang gia^y' bu+o+ng' binh? va^n~ na(m` co ro o+? cho^~ cu~. La^n`thu+' ba...thu+' tu+...thu+' na(m, va^n~ kho^ng ddu+o+c! To^i ba(t' dda^u` cam? tha^y' ay' nay' o+? trong long`, bu+o+c' khe~ to+i' be^n canh. co^ be' va` le^n tie^ng' hoi?, "Do you need my help?" Co^ be' mim? cu+o+i` ye^u' o+t' va` noi', "Thanks, but I can handle it by myself."

Sau na(m phut' co^' ga(ng' la^t. mo^t. trang gia^y', cuo^i' cung` co^ be' dda~ thanh` co^ng. Trang gia^y' bu+o+ng' binh? kia dda~ phai? chiu. khua^t' phuc. tru+o+c' y' tri' sa(c' ben' cua? co^ be'. To^i tho+? dai` nhe. nhom~ dum` cho co^ va` trong long` lai. na(ng. triu~ nhu+ng~ suy nghi~ ....

To^i kha^m phuc. co^ be' ra^t' nhie^u`. Du` bi. binh. hie^m? ngheo` va` du` co^ co' mo^t. hinh` dang' khac' la., co^ va^n~ ddi hoc., va^n~ ca(p' sach' dde^n' tru+o+ng`. To^i kho^ng bie^t' minh` co' ddu? y' chi' va` nghi. lu+c. gio^ng' nhu+ co^ be' ne^u' to^i bi. dda(t. vao` tru+o+ng` ho+p. cua? co^. Lie^u. to^i co' ddu? su+c' manh. dde^? ddi hoc. dde^n' ddai. hoc. ne^u' to^i bie^t' cuo^c. so^ng' cua? to^i se~ nga(n' ngui? va` lie^u. to^i co' kie^n nha^n~ dde^? la^t. mo^t. trang gia^y' trong 5 phut'....???

Tai. sao? Tai. sao? Tai. sao so^' pha^n. cua? con ngu+o+i` lai. ddu+o+c. an bai` mo^t. cach' kho^ng co^ng ba(ng` dde^n' nhu+ va^y.? Tai. sao nhu+ng~ ngu+o+i` ne^n ddu+o+c. so^ng' lai. kho^ng ddu+o+c. so^ng' va` nhu+ng~ ke? ddang' che^t' lai. ung dung so^ng' hoai` so^ng' mai~???

Co^ be' mim? cu+o+i` vo+i' to^i. To^i mim? cu+o+i` lai, mo^t. nu. cu+o+i` buo^n` phang? pha^t' tre^n mo^i. Sau la^n` ga(p. go+~ ddo', to^i cu+' dde^n' ca(n tin mo^i~ buo^i? chie^u` dde^? mong co' dip. lam` quen vo+i' co^ be', nhu+ng ra^t' tie^c' lai. kho^ng ddu+o+c. ga(p. Co^ be' o+i! Nho+` co^ be' ma` ngay` o^m ddo' to^i dda~ lam` xong bai` vo+? cua? minh`. To^i cam? tha^y' sung su+o+ng' va` hoan` toan` kho^ng me^t. moi?, du` to^i dda~ ca(m. cui. ngo^i` lam` bai` 12 tie^ng' ddo^ng` ho^` lie^n tie^p'!

To^i muo^n' ta(ng. cho o^ng ban' co^m', ngu+o+i` tha^y` day. nhac., va` co^ be' tan` ta^t. mo^t. bo^ng ho^ng` ddep. nha^t'. Mo^t. cach' tinh` co+` nga^u~ nhie^n, ho. dda~ dde^? lai. trong to^i nhu+ng~ da^u' a^n', nhu+ng~ cam? xuc' kho^ng phai mo+`! Ho. dda~ mo^t. pha^n` nao` khie^n' to^i tro+? thanh` "to^i" cua? ngay` ho^m qua, ho^m nay, va` mai~ mai~ ve^` sau...