Invisible Chjmes

today is thursday, 19/11.

it's not a bright sunny day, but rather a rainy evening.
still, hanging around in school, being hooked to the computer, waiting for something.
guess, i have mentioned "something" twice today.
yah, what is the "something" then?
i asked myself.

most probably, no answer still.

feel a bit drowsy........but not fainting yet.
u know, i just had a very special feeling.
i got an email from him.
suddenly, some of the memories flashed back.

he reminded of blue, a deep deep blue.
maybe because of the icy cold attitude of him.
it's just unforgetable, as i told him

hard to face myself truely.
'coz i have to face a lot of reality, a lot of memories...
i hate that.
it just makes me feel sad, everytime when i think of him.
i said, "why? it's blue colour?"
i said, "RJ."

it's getting to 6:00pm
shall i leave now?
leaving with burden of feelings, maybe i will feel satisfied by the end of tonite

maybe.

cy, wrote at 5:22pm, 18/11/1999