I CRIED FOR A LITTLE BOY
WHO ONCE LIVED THERE
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Chapter Thirty
There Wasn't Any Question In My Mind,
I Wasn't Wanted At Home.
Shortly after
my stepfather had found the gun someone decided it would be best if I went
to Davenport, Iowa and lived with
my mother's youngest brother Ray and his family. I
am sure they were thinking the "change in environment" would be "beneficial
to me." That wasn't quite the way I was looking at it.
I knew my stepfather
wanted to get rid of me and I don't think he cared where I went, back
to the reform school would have suited him fine.
I think my uncle Howard, Ed and my mother had gotten
together and decided to send me to my uncle Ray's, who I hadn't seen since
I was eight years old. Knowing
Ed though he probably wanted to call the sheriff and have me taken back
to the training school but my mother
must have held out against him.
It was no secret
my stepfather didn't want me around. He had married my mother knowing
about me. He had married her while I was
in the juvenile home and it didn't look like I would ever be
coming home. Their apartment and life style was for two people and
there was no room for me. They
had done very few things where I was included.
Then there were those
arguments I had seen between them, I had always thought were over
me. For some reason I had always felt during
those arguments, though I couldn't hear them, Ed wanted
me out of their lives and my mother felt she was stuck with me. Not
a very nice thing to feel, or even
to think about.
My uncle Ray rented
a house on Locust Street in Davenport, just inside of the gate to the fair-
grounds. He had a wife, Joy and three small kids, a girl and two
boys.
What happened in
the few days that I was there with my uncle's family was essentially I
became their baby-sitter. It being December
and shortly before Christmas, I would take the kids downtown
at night to see all of the Christmas decorations in the store windows.
One time I took them to a movie, of
course my uncle paid for that.
I didn't have any
friends of my own age. I had no guidance, direction or interests
in life. Everyone was doing their
own thing and I was more or less left to fend for my self. Though
I didn't know it then I needed someone
to help me and there was no one there.
I went to taking
long walks by my self. At first it was just up and down Locust and
then it was back through the fairgrounds.
Usually I took my walks during the day.
On one of my walks
through the fairgrounds I passed several buildings, like warehouses.
I stopped and looked through a window
in one of the overhead garage doors. I seen the building was
full of new Fords. Seeing the cars and how
isolated they were I decided to come back that evening and
take one for a ride.
That evening it had
been dark when I arrived at the building where the cars were being kept.
After braking a window out of the garage door
with the leather punch of my knife I crawled through the
window. Going to the first car by the door I seen that the keys were
in the ignition. Then I returned
to the garage door and opened it. Returning to the car I started
it and drove it out of the building
not bothering to close the door behind me.
This car belonged
to a new care dealer, unknown to me my uncle Ray worked for that same
dealer in the parts department. My uncle's
last name was different than mine. So later when it was
found out who took the car the dealer never made
the connection between my uncle and me. My uncle
later told me that it had worried him that they might make the connection.
Something I couldn't understand, why
he would be worried if they did make the connection.
The tank was full
of gas and I wound up driving it all of the way back to Nevada, Iowa,
parking it in front of the house where my mother
and stepfather's apartment was.
Going into the house
I found my mother and stepfather in bed. I woke my mother up and
asked her for ten dollars, telling her I had a
ride to California where I could get a job. She gave me
the money and I went back out to the car.
I had driven it all of the way from Davenport without a license
plate so I took the front plate off of my mother's landlady's car, hoping
they would think they had lost it.
I had waited several
minutes before getting back in the car, waiting to see if my mother
would come out. I don't know why I waited
for sure but it was like I was waiting for her to come out
and tell me not to go. Later I was to learn she had come to the door
to their apartment and looked out into
the driveway in back of the house for me but she hadn't seen me for I was
out in front of the house
Leaving Nevada, I
headed west on old U.S. Highway 30 until I got to Omaha, then turned
south into Kansas and Oklahoma. In Oklahoma
I turned west, going through Amarillo, Texas, Albuquerque,
New Mexico, Flagstaff, Arizona and onto San Diego, California, purposely
avoiding Yuma.
I would pick up hitch-hikers
along the way and they would pay for gas. Even though I never
told them, I am sure they knew the car was stolen.
I was only sixteen years old driving a new car and
was a long ways from home.
At one point in Arizona
I ran low on gas, not having a hitch-hiker with me, I sold the spare
tire and wheel. Something that made me feel
worse than having taken the car. The gas station I had
sold the tire and wheel to for a tank of gas never
questioned me about the car, a car bearing a Iowa license
plate. He too must have suspected I had stolen the car.
Getting to San Diego
I drove the car out to the naval base in sight of the mockup training ship
that was know as, "The ship that never sails."
There I had ran out of gas. This had been very close to
where the sailor had let me out before. So I had known a little bit
about the area. Without money,
I couldn't get more gas so I had left the car there and walked towards
the downtown area of San Diego.
By now it was only
a few days before Christmas. It was a beautiful day. Even though
I didn't know anyone in San Diego nor
where to go, I loved everything I saw, the trees, the buildings,
everything. In some way, this time I was
happy and felt good, even though I was alone.
I no longer felt
homesick for to me I had found there was no home for me to feel homesick
about. By now I had accepted the fact I
wasn't wanted and I would have to do the best I could for myself.
After it had gotten
dark I was still walking not knowing where to go. I hadn't yet started
looking for a place to sleep. I didn't know
San Diego had a curfew for juveniles so I was walking out
in the open not worried about much of anything when a police car pulled
up along side of me.
They had asked me
who I was, where I lived and why I was out after curfew. I couldn't
give them any good answers so they
had taken me to a detention center for juveniles.
My biggest worry
was, they might connect me to the car I had stolen and had left at the
navel base. San Diego is a big
place but to me my area of San Diego was very small and that car shared
my area with me. That car was too close
to me. It seemed to me all they had to do was to put two
and two together. The car showed up at the
same time I did.
At first I wouldn't
tell them who I was or where I was from. Thinking they would call
the sheriff back home and since I had
ran away from home he would send me back to the training school.
A couple days after
they had picked me up they had told me if I told them who I was and
where I was from they would call my mother and
send me back on a bus. Which meant to me they wouldn't
call the sheriff.
My big worry had
been, they would connect me with the car and I would be sent back to the
training school, or worse, for taking the car
so far to the penitentiary. Where I had heard some nightmarish
stories as to what adult prisoners did to young boys.
I told them who I
was and where I was from, hoping they wouldn't check any further.
They had called my mother to confirm
what I had told them and to have her send money for a bus ticket.
In a matter of twenty-four hours I was put on
a bus and sent home.
Afraid the sheriff
would be waiting for me at the bus station when I got home I got off of
the bus at the west edge of town and
walked home. There wasn't anything said to me when I had gotten
home by my mother or stepfather. Of course
I didn't know it then but some other arrangements were
being made to get rid of me.
I was home for three
weeks. Staying pretty much inside of the house all of the time.
Afraid to go out for fear the sheriff
would see me and send me back to the training school.
It had been a very
confusing time for me. I knew my stepfather wanted to get rid of
me and he didn't care how. I
wanted to leave but I didn't know where to go. There didn't seem
to be any place I could go that would
want me, except the reform school.
In some way, without
my knowledge, a compromise was made between my uncle Howard
and my parents. I would be sent to a private
boys' school in Minnesota. I don't know who was paying
for all of this but it must have been my uncle. He would have been
the only one who had that kind of money.
Knowing my stepfather and uncle they probably wanted to send me back to
the training school. But knowing my mother
she probably held out against them. Though feeling she
didn't really want me (after all, I was causing a lot of problems for her)
she didn't want sending me back to
the reform school on her conscious.
It was decided I
would take a bus to the boys' school. All of the arrangements had
been made at the boys' school and my
ticket had been purchased. All of this of course had been done without
my knowledge, I hadn't been included in any
of the discussions nor even asked what I wanted.
I hadn't been to
happy about going to the boys' school for to me it sounded as though they
were sending me to a reform school, only in a different
state. (Today, I think it would have been the best thing
for me for by now I had pretty well felt no one wanted me and I might not
have ran away from the boys’ school.)
As it had turned
out, the bus wouldn't be leaving until about ten o'clock the morning after
I was told. My parents would
be at work by then so I would have to meet the bus on my own.
Though I didn't want
to go, I would have met the bus and went to the boys' school as I had
been told. But what I would have done once
I had gotten to the boys' school, I don't know, for I never
had a chance to find out.
By nine o'clock on
the morning of my departure my bags were packed and I was about ready
to leave for the bus station when there was a
knock on the outside door. I went and answered the knock
not really concerned about anything. I opened the door and seen two
men were standing there. They
were in business suits, I took them to be salesmen or something like that.
To me they were just a couple of men
who came to the door. I wasn't surprised or frighten of them.
They were business
like, when they had asked, "Are you Larry Peterson?"
They didn't look
like the police or from the sheriff's office. Their question had
startled me some, a twinge of fear
had shot through me, but still, I hadn't done anything wrong. All
that was on my mind was, I was going
to catch a bus in a few minutes and go to a boys' school.
I told them I was
Larry Peterson. Then both of the men opened up what appeared to be
billfolds, showing me some sort of identification.
Holding up their identifications for me to see, I could
see a photograph on each of them. I couldn't read what was printed
on them, only three large letters,
"FBI." They told me they were from the Federal Bureau of Investigation
and they were there to arrest me for
stealing a car and taking it to California.
It had been about
three weeks since I had returned from California and I had completely
forgotten about the car. In front of me
stood two big men, either of them could have handled me easily.
The only way out was past them.
This wasn't the town
marshal, sheriff or even the state police, this was the "FBI." In
my mind, I wasn't looking at going
back to the training school for boys but to a federal prison, to be
alone with a lot of grown men. To say the
least, my heart was in my mouth. I was scared. I felt I
was in very serious trouble and there was no one
there to turn to.
A sixteen year old
boy's mind can visualize a lot of terrible things in store for him, especially
mine, based on the proceeding events in my life.
I knew without limit what people could do to me. To
say I was scared would be sort of an understatement.
They told me to turn
around so they could put the handcuffs on me. In a daze I had complied
with their command and then I was led to their
car. From there to the sheriff's office.
When I had left the
car in San Diego, I had left the license plate on it and that was registered
to the address where I lived. So by checking
with the sheriff as to who lived there they were to put it
all together and come up with the solution of the "Big crime." Which
probably made the sheriff more than
happy.
No one ever asked
me if I had taken the car. If they had I probably would have told
them I had taken it, I was pretty shaken
up at the time. Then I wasn't very smart about things like that.
I had always been told to tell the
truth which I usually did. What was a lawyer? I never knew
there were such things.
After a short visit
with the sheriff, I suppose to tell him they had caught me (That must have
made his day.) and they were taking me to Des
Moines, they had put me back in the car and drove to
some federal building in Des Moines and locked me in a cell. Since
I was only sixteen they had put me
in a cell by myself. There were no other juveniles there so I had
no one else to talk with.
A day or two later
the federal marshal, or whoever he was, got pretty upset when he found
me in my cell with my pocket knife. No one
had searched me or asked if I had anything in my pockets.
Seems like no matter where I went I got into some kind of trouble.
I didn't know I wasn't suppose to have
a knife.
A lawyer (I guess
he was a lawyer) came and seen me a few days later. He asked me how
I would like to go and live in Denver,
Colorado. All I knew about Denver, Colorado was that Colorado
was out west somewhere. After I had told him I would like to, he
told me the judge might be willing
to send me there on probation to live with my mother. I had no idea
what probation was but I was willing
to do anything to get out of the trouble I felt I was in.
A little bit later
I was taken to a room where there was a long table with chairs around it.
The lawyer sat at one end of the table,
I sat to his left and my mother sat across the table from me. The
judge sat further down the table, on the same
side of the table I was sitting on. There were a couple
of other people there I didn't know.
The judge had asked
me if I would like to go and live in Denver. I had told him I would
like to live in Denver and that I had
been told I might be able to go there and live with my mother. My
lawyer kicked me under the table. I guess
to tell me to keep my mouth shut. Maybe I wasn't suppose
to know about the considerations being made about sending me to Denver.
I can only speculate
as to why I was sent to Denver alone with my mother. There must have
been a flare-up between my stepfather and my mother
is why he didn't go. My mother must have talked
to the lawyer and told him how I had been raised in state institutions.
They must have gotten with the judge
and they thought by sending me to a different state my life would straighten
out.
Some way the judge
must have decided to give that a try, after all if it didn't work out,
the "Federal Correctional Institution
for Boys" was only about five miles from Denver. Which they
neglected to tell me. To bad for me, none
of them seen what the real problems were. For what they
had done only made
matters worse and almost cost me and possibly some others their lives and
only delayed the inevitable.
I Want To Be With You Always
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