by Renee

REMINDER!!!: Okay, peoples.  Let's try this ONE MORE TIME. This story is NC-17. What does that mean? Repeat with me folks: Those under 18 cannot LEGALLY read this story.  SO, because I am under age, I will go away.

If you are of legal age, by all means, continue!

--Management.

I have been in Ireland for a couple of years now. I really do like it here. I mean, granted, I miss all of the people in Sunnydale, but I needed to get away, away from all the mystical forces of the hellmouth. Most importantly, away from the ever increasing vampire population. Granted, over here there have been a couple of unexplained deaths, but nothing like Sunnydale. College is great, studies have kept me busy, but I still wonder if Buffy has returned to Sunnydale, and if Angel is with her or if he is still alive...well, alive as a vampire could be. I haven't spoken to any of the group since I left...and I intend to keep it that way, its nothing against them but I just can't do it. I made a life for myself here and I never intend on going back.

It was late one night and Keiran, Erin and I went to a local pub to Get something to eat and maybe have a couple of drinks. We walked in and everyone knew who we were, it's funny how places can be so different. In Sunnydale I was basically a nobody, but over here people actually know who I am. We retrieved our usual seats in the middle of the pub.

The pub was packed as usual. I was having a grand old time. Erin noticed someone walking into the pub. Just by the look on her face I could tell that he was gorgeous, that is how well I have come to know these two. See, Keiran is like a brother to me always looking after me. He is the only one I could tell about Sunnydale. Erin is a guy crazy; she has been my best friend for the past couple of years, but she is a blabbermouth.

We were all drinking and Erin was basically getting trashed. I looked around the bar to see if I could see the man that she was talking about but I did not see him.

"Well Erin,"I said, "where did Mr. Gorgeous go?" I asked in a sarcastic tone of voice stating my annoyance with her.

She paused and looked around the bar and said, " I don't know Willow, but whoever he was I don't think that you could ever handle him!" She started bursting out into laughter. " Well, I should be going, It's getting late and I am really tired. See you two back at the house...Ok,".

I said without even replying to Erin's comment. Keiran just nodded his head and I was on my way, but before I left the bar the bartender called me over.

"Hey Willow," he said, "come over here for a minute." I turned to see the bartender had a serious look on his face. I walked over to the bar.

" What is it Bryan," I asked, " what's the matter?" " There was some guy asking questions about you a couple of minutes ago," he said, "I just wanted to know if everything was ok."

"Everything is fine, Bryan, no need to worry," I said reassuringly, " It was probably just another student looking for a tutor for a couple of computer classes." I patted his hand and said, " No need to be worried. I have to go but thanks for telling me." With that I gave him a kiss on the cheek and walked out into the night.

While walking home, my mind began to wander. I do that a lot now ever since I came to Ireland. My thoughts usually drift to one person, Angel, I wonder if he is safe. The fact is I brought him out of hell and then left without saying goodbye. I just could not do it, facing him with the feelings that have been growing inside of me. He would read my soul like an open book, which is what I was afraid of. For him to know that I fell in love with him and just to go through the same things I went through with Xander would just tear me apart.

While I was walking I stopped in front of a pond that was right by the house that I live in. I come here every time I just want to get away from the stress of dealing with a person like Erin she is just like Cordelia only sometimes worse. I was brought out of my reverie by the feeling of someone putting their hand on my shoulder. I turned expecting it to be Keiran but it wasn't I could not believe my eyes when I saw him. <Angel>.

"Angel," I said incredulously, " what.... how did you find me?" My voice was full of doubt.

"It...umm...took awhile for me to find you when you left...I...umm...wanted to know, why did you leave. I mean you just left without saying a word to anyone, and that is not like you." His voice was full of guilt like I remembered.

I could not look into his eyes because I knew that he would find his answer. " I left because I needed to get....away," I said. I turned my back to him because I did not want him to see the tears welling from my eyes.

Angel wrapped his arms around me to try and console me. I pulled away because it felt so good just being in his arms. "Why did you come here," I asked hating the note of desperation in my voice. "Why couldn't you have just stayed in Sunnydale?

"Do you really want to know why I left," I asked almost angrily, " I left.... because of you!!!"

"Why would you leave because of me?" he asked, his eyes pleading me to explain myself.

"BECAUSE SOMEWHERE ALONG THE WAY I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU.... I TRIED TO DENY MY FEELINGS BUT THEY WERE JUST TO STRONG THE FEELINGS WOULD NOT GO AWAY.... SO I ESCAPED AND CAME HERE. I screamed at him and started to run from him.

I got as far as my door before he caught up to me. I was fumbling for my keys when I felt him grab me. He turned me around and slammed me against the door. The next thing he did completely threw me off guard. He kissed me roughly, at first, but then the caress became gentle. His touch set me on fire. I'd never felt anything this intense before.

All of the pain and loneliness and frustration I've repressed these past few years evaporated with his kiss. All that was left was passion, mind-numbing, body-consuming passion. He broke the kiss and I was gasping for air. He took his hand and placed it under my chin and lifted it ever so gently so he could look into my eyes.

"Invite me in Willow." Angel asked in a husky voice.

I turned and open the door and walked into my house. Not even turning back around to see if Angel was standing at the door.

"Angel, you should know where ever that I am at you are always welcome." I whispered.

I let out a sigh when I heard the door close. He came up behind me and gently turned me to face him. For the first time I looked up into those fathomless brown eyes of his and I saw something that I never though I would see....love.

I felt the tears fall from my eyes. I reach up and put my hands on his face stroking it, our lips drifted together in a simple kiss. I deepen the kiss, it was slow and passionate.

Angel pulled me against him and started to undress me. His skillful fingers unbuttoned my shirt slowly one button at a time next he undid my bra. His lips left mine and he started to trail kisses down my neck. I could feel the warmth grow. <God how I wanted this and how I wanted this man standing before me.> Angel broke me out of my reverie when I felt his lips gently curl around my nipple and start to caress the other with is his hand. I twisted my fingers into his hair snagging and pulling.

I wanted more I wanted to fell his lips all over my body. It was like he responded to my thoughts He started to drift lower, teasing...nipping..soothing, I could hear the moans escaping from my mouth. I could feel his mouth and tongue going where no man had ever gone before. In one swift moment he had my skirt off and I was standing in front of Angel nude. I looked down at him to see what he was going to do next. We just stared into each other's eyes for what it seemed like eternity. I lowered myself so I was in a kneeling position. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and kissed him with such fury it took him off guard and fell back.

"Angel please take off you jacket." I asked in a husky voice.

He obliged me; he sat up and took off his jacket. I threw it out of the way and ripped off his shirt. Angel just stared at me wide eyed most likely wondering what happened to the shy little innocent Willow he once knew. I put my full weight on him silently telling him that I wanted to be in control. I started to trail kisses down his chest until I reach the waist band of his pants.

My fingers gingerly unbuttoned his panted and I pushed them off of his body. Stroking his hard erection I could hear the whimpers and the growls escaping his throat.

Still holding on to his member I gave it a little squeeze and licked till it was throbbed. <For some reason right now I am thinking of a lollipop.> When I reached the tip I placed it into my mouth. I slowly slid my mouth down to the base and sucked as hard as I could. Angel's whole body jerked violently.

His moans of pleasure were music to my ears. In one fluid motion he flipped us both over. He loomed over me like a god. He rubbed his erection against me, teasing me the ecstasy of the feeling of him grinding his sex with mine was just about to make me come, denying me my release he slid down my body and kissed right above my soft curls. I gasped, my hips bucked and I felt his tongue touch the core of my being. He was licking and sucking, my hands were grasping the floor, trying to hold on to what little sanity that I had left.

With the use of Angel's tongue I never felt his two fingers enter my wet, me. The mixture of him teasing my clit and his fingers roaming in and out of my core I could feel an incredible tension built within my being.

I came with a scream, his name tore through my lips, as I finally found my voice. Angel worked through my orgasm making it unbelievable. I could feel my blood thunder through my vains. When the pleasure passed I could still feel his tongue working, cleaning up the wetness between my thighs.

I chuckled softly running my hands through my hair. I felt him glide up my body. He was on top of me supporting his weight on his arms. "What are you laughing at ?" He asked hovering over my lips. "Nothing" I said "its just...nothing don't worry about it." All thoughts left my mind when his lips met mine in the softest of kisses. The passion began to dwell inside of me again. I knew, basically, that he was not done with me either.

Knowing that I needed air, Angel broke the kiss. Looking into his eyes I could see the desire reflected back to me. "Let's go upstairs...Angel." I whispered He slowly got to his feet and pulled me up with him. I took his hand to lead him upstairs we got to my room and went inside.

"Nice room it fits you." He said casually. " It fits you...Well maybe everything but the black silk sheets." Angel gave me one of his cryptic smiles.

"Oh" I said nervously " It was birthday present from Kier..."I could not finish my sentence because Angel shut me up with a very teasing kiss.

I put my arms around his shoulders, then he lifted me up and placed me onto the bed. Never breaking the kiss he towered himself on top of me. We explored each other's body's with hands, lips, and tongue. I felt his manhood press against my wetness and I arched into the pleasure.

I knew he was slick with my feminine juices. For some reason my virginal fears came rushing back to me full force. He felt my body tense. He stopped and switched his position so that he was beside me. I felt a rush of cold air hit my body and I growled at him.

"I'm sorry." I stuttered nervously "I just got.... I mean I'm still..."

"A virgin." He said completing my sentence. "Willow, its ok." He said gently. "I understand." He started to retreat from me.

"Oh no...don't you dare, Angel, I want this." I said savagely. "I want you." Cradling his face with my hands.

"Willow, are you sure about this,.... I mean really sure about this." He asked almost reverently.

"Angel I never been so sure about anything else in my life." I said this with a confidence I'd never felt before. With that I grabbed him and straddled him.

Angel switched positions again. I was the one on the bottom. I could hear him purring with anticipation < like a cat, or more accurately, a panther >. I smiled up at him. "Angel...what are you...ohh." My sentence and my thoughts were cut off by the feeling of his manhood slowly entering me. I arched to him and felt a sharp, but brief pain, which I knew it was my maidenhead. I bit my lip and thrusted upward I screamed with pain and I heard him groan. We both waited for me to adjust to his size. <He is so huge!>

After a few minutes the pain subsided and we started rocking together. The feeling of him inside me, brought me pleasure beyond my wildest dream <which mostly involve him anyway.> I arched my back clamping down on his manhood with my muscle milking him for everything he is worth. I heard him growl and thrust harder, knowing that we were both coming close to release. I turned the tables on him. With all my strength, I flipped us over. With one quick motion I thrusted down and raked my nails over his chest leaving welts. Angel growled and thrusted himself up so we were straddling each other. Angel put his hands on my shoulders and was thrusted harder.

Never braking the rhythm, Angel tilted me away from him and captured my nipple with his mouth and sucked on it like a baby. That was it. I felt the explosion. My muscles clamped down and we both climaxed, with screams and moans. Spent, we both sunk into the bed and curled into each other's arms.

"Angel" I whispered. "We have to talk about us. I mean I want to know what is going to happen after tonight?"

"Willow, I have been searching for you for the last two years." His voice became thick with an emotion close to sadness "When I found you tonight I wanted to explain what was going on before any of this happened. You have been my only friend, the only person that never threw my past up in my face, the one who searched for the restoration spell...the one that messed up on the spell and gave me a permanent soul." He chuckled gently. "Which I find funny, but back to what I was saying or what I am trying to say is that Willow, I love you. I didn't realize it until you left. When you were gone a part of me left with you. I could not function without you in my life. When Buffy returned it wasn't the same. Neither my heart nor my soul belong to her anymore and she knew that, without me saying a word to her. I guess she saw it in my eyes. She told me to go and be happy, so I left on a mission to find you."

There were tears in my eyes when he proclaimed his love for me I could not believe that he actually said that he loved me. A lump formed in my throat and I could not speak. I saw the truth in his eyes, that he really did love me. I knew in my heart that this was right.

"Angel" I whispered solemnly. " I love you too, more then you could know." My heart soared after I finally said it out loud. I uncurled myself from him and went to get up. I could see the fear in his eyes, " Don't worry, Angel, I am not running away from you any longer. I am with you for as long as you will have me." Then I smiled at him. "But first I have to get a blanket or something to cover the windows before the sun comes up."

So I went to the closet and got the thickest blanket out and put it over the window and went back to bed. Angel was waiting, he took me into his arms and pulled me against him, our lips met of their own accord, the kiss sealed our love for each other. We both felt satisfied and we fell to sleep wrapped in each other's arms.

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