Just a note from Crystal

I just wanted to say a few words about the Double Door show and these pages. First of all, I wish I were more creative and could bring something more interesting to all you Finn Fans out there. Nevertheless, I will share with you what I can-- and that only with the great help of other great fans. The Double Door photos are generally not as good as the ones from the summer concert. In part because Rajiv didn't take them for me ;-) and in part because I was not right at the stage this time. I think the lighting wasn't as good either. Still, some of them are pretty good and I hope that you enjoy them. The photos of listees from our before show get-together are courtesy of Nick Tolli -- another great person I've been so lucky to meet through Finn fandom. He figured that since the Finndy City One and Two photos were here, that it made sense to include these as well.

I was very fortunate to get tapes of the Double Door concert (also from Nick) and am really pleased at how well the show holds up on tape. I'm afraid I'm ejoying it much more now than I did at the time. It was strange really. For the Summer show I'd been so filled with anticipation for weeks beforehand and floated on a cloud for weeks and weeks afterwards. This time I remember standing there watching Neil and I thought to myself that I really ought to be enjoying this, why am I not....I thought it was because I wasn't standing right at the stage (where I've always been before) or because it was so smokey....but in retrospect I realize that this was the first real sign to me of how depressed I was. (It had nothing to do with you all or the concert and everything to do with my dissertation and job -- as well as light deprivation and a natural tendency towards depression). Now, many months later I can look back at this as a true learning experience --- not being on top of the world during a Finn moment IS DEFINITELY a sign that I need to get help right away!!! :-)

Well, I was fairly much out of touch for a while (I wonder if any of you noticed?) but I have to say that things are finally really back on track. It's not the first time that Neil's music helped me through a rough spot. I want to thank all of the listees and other kind people in the internet community for their support (even if you didn't know you were giving it!). You guys and the music have really helped me through this (along with family, friends, God and therepy). So, for anyone out there whom I failed to correspond regularly with over the last year or anyone whom I was not very friendly to at the show, I'd like to apologize. For anyone who's had problems with depression yourself, know that you aren't alone-- hang in there! (I'm starting a support page on the subject) Whew! It felt good to get that off my chest!

Photos of Neil and Co. !