Blind
Ball Tongue
Need To
Clown
Divine
Faget
Shoots and Ladders
Predictable
Fake
Lies
Helmet in the Bush
Daddy  

 This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide, 
you don't know the chances, what if I should die?
 A place inside my brain another kind of pain; 
you don't know the chances, I'm so blind. 

 Another place I'll find, to escape this pain inside,
 you don't know the chances, what if I should die?
 A place inside my brain, another kind of pain, 
you don't know the chances, I'm so blind.   
Deeper, deeper, deeper is all I'm turning to
 living a life that seems to be,
 a lost reality, I can never find
 a way to reach my inner self esteem is low, 
how deep can I go in the ground that I lay
 if I don't find a way to 
sleep in the grave that crowd my mind,
 this time I looked to see what's between lines.  
 I can see, I can see I'm going blind.
 I'm blind!   

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B a l l  T o u n g u e   

  There you are, alone, with no hope of ever having, 
something to be proud of, something earned without begging.
 Yes, I know you're a person, a person close to me.
 Who do you think you are?  What more do you want from me? 

  Ball tongue!!  

 Why are you at home, buried in your self-pity?
 Why do you insist on making a mockery out of me? 
Yes, I know you're the person, 
the person who took time with me. 
Does it give you the right to expect your life revolves around me? 
 
 Ball tongue!!  

 You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?) 
You were my brother... (I'm not gonna give in)

   How can you fucking doubt me?  But, not again... 

  Ball tongue!!!
 You're a psycho-fuck.  

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N e e d  T o  

   I, I am confused. I hate myself for wanting to give in,
 to needing your help. Skin cold with fear, feel it when we touch. 
Outside, I know you but, inside, I'm fucked.   
Can you see in me?  Skin cold from touch.
 Each day confronted with what I have done. 
You pull me closer, I push you away. 
You tell me it's okay, I can't help but feel the pain.

   I hate you!  Why are you taken?
 I loved you!  Why do I feel so helpless?
 Why's it you?  Ripping my inside each time I'm with you.
 Why, oh why do I cry?  Why do I really need to? 

  Why?!!
 Fuck you bitch!

 Need to, need to, need to... 
Fuck... fuck... fuck... fuck...  

 I hate you!  Why are you taken?
 I loved you!  Why do I feel so helpless? 
Why's it you?  Ripping my insides each time I'm with you. 
Why, oh why do I cry?  Why do I fucking need to?

 Fuck, slut...  

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C l o w n    

 Anger inside, comes within my body.
 Why do you hit me?  What have I done? You tried to hit me! 

  Scream at me, if you like, 
throw your hate at me, with all your might. 
Hit me 'cause I'm strange, hit me.
 Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me.
 What's with you boy?  Think hard.
 A tattooed body to hide who you are. 
Scared to be honest, be yourself. 
A cowardly man. 

  I don't run around, trying to be what's gone within me. 
Look into my eyes, I am free. You're just a wanna-be! 

  Scream at me, if you like, 
throw your hate at me, with all your might. 
Hit me 'cause I'm strange, hit me. 
Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me. 
What's with you boy?  Think hard.
 A tattooed body to hide who you are. 
Scared to be honest, be yourself. 
A cowardly man.  

To come out.  

 Hit me clown because I'm not from your town.  Now hit me clown. 

  Clown you ain't shit, turn around get your face split!
 Girl you ain't shit, turn around get your face split! 
Hell you ain't shit, turn around get your face split! 
Clown you ain't shit, turn around get your face split!
 Scream at me, if you like, 
throw your hate at me, with all your might. 
Hit me 'cause I'm strange, hit me.
 Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me. 
What's with you boy?  Think hard.
 A tattooed body to hide who you are. 
Scared to be honest, be yourself. 
A cowardly man. 

I'm just a fuckin' little... 

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D i v i n e  

 I hid but only to defy you.  Take away the only love inside you.
I'll see your face through everyone, inside I'm just begun.
 You think I'm out to scare you?  I'm only out to prepare you.
 For when you stop and turn around - your body's going down. 

You're gonna waste your time. 
 Your life will soon be mine.
 You're definitely one of a kind. 
You're suffering 'cause of me. It's divine. 

  Tell me, why you never liked me?  Tell me , once that you'll fight me. 
Bold, and you wait for the perfect time, to take what's rightfully mine. 
You pave the dumb, that don't bother me.
 You say your dumb that to defy me.
 you weigh your dumb on anyone.  Oh well...   

You're gonna waste your time.  
Your life will soon be mine. 
You're definitely one of a kind. 
You're suffering 'cause of me. It's divine.  

 Fuck you!  I'm fed up with you.  
I'm not as good as you? Fuck no, I'm better than you.   

You're gonna waste your time.
  Your life will soon be mine. 
You're definitely one of a kind. 
You're suffering 'cause of me. It's divine.  

 Did you really think 
you'd beat me at my own game? 
You tried, you see what you got, 
me ripping at your brain. 

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F a g e t 

 Here I am different in this normal world. 
Why do you tease me, make me feel absurd? 
Fucking stereotypes, feeding their heads.
 I am ugly, please just go away. 

 I can see is hard to find, this blessing in disguise. 
Why do you treat me this way?  
Make the hate stay?

 I sound like I can see no escape,
 all the laughing, all of the pain.
 If you were around me, what would you do? 
 Nothing probably, you'd just go away. 

I can see is hard to find,
 this blessing in disguise.
 Why do you treat me this way?
 Make the hate stay?

 Faget!

 Here I am different in this normal world.
 Why did you tease me, make me feel absurd?
Fucking stereotypes, feeding their heads.
 I am ugly, please just go away!

I can see is hard to find, 
this blessing in disguise.
 Why do you treat me this way?
Make the hate stay?

Faget!
Pussy...

I'm just a pretty boy, whatever you call it. 
You wouldn't know a real man if you saw it.
 It keeps going on, day after day, son. 
You fake!  You don't want none. 
 I'm sick and tired of people treating me this way everyday.
  Who gives a fuck, right now I got something to say
 to all the people that think I'm strange, 
that I should be out of here locked up in a cage.
You don't know what the hell I fuck now anyway.
You got this pretty boy feelin' like I'm enslaved
to a world that never appreciated shit. 
You can suck my dick and fucking like it!

Hear my gun but he has a body mighty any say.
 Hear my gun but he has a body mighty anyway.
 Hear my gun but he has a body mighty going to say.
 Hear my gun but he has a body mighty anyway.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty any say.
 Hear my gun but he has a body mighty going to waste.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty going to say.
 Hear my gun but he has a body mighty anyway.

I'm just a pretty boy, I'm not supposed to fuck a girl.
 I'm just a pretty boy living in this fucked up world.

All my life, who am I?
All my life!

I'm just a faget!  I'm a faget!
 I'm not a faget! (Or is it?) 
You mother fucking queers!

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S h o o t s  a n d  L a d d e r s

Ring-a-round-the-rosies. Pocket full of posies. 
Ashes, ashes, we all fall down.

 Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head.
 Into my childhood, they're spoon fed. 
Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real. 
Look at the pages that cause all this evil.

One, two - buckle my shoe.
 Three, four - shut the door. 
Five, six - pick up sticks. 
Seven, eight - lay them straight.
 London Bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down. 
London Bridge is falling down my fair lady.

Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head.
 Into my childhood, they're spoon fed.
 Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real. 
Look at the pages that cause all this evil.

   Knick-knack paddywack, give a dog a bone.
 This old man came rolling home. 

Mary had a little lamb, it's fleece was white as snow. 
{Baa Baa Black sheep have you any wool?  Yes sir, yes sir, three bags full.}

   Ring-a-round-the-rosies. Pocket full of posies.
 Ashes, ashes, we all fall down. 

  Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head.
 Into my childhood, they're spoon fed. 
Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real. 
Look at the pages that cause all this evil.

   Knick-knack paddywack, give a dog a bone! 

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P r e d i c t a b l e

I can in every way, mistake the pain I feel inside.
It comes at me, evil thoughts is creeping through my mind.
 For you to see that I can't speak what's on my mind.
 It runs away - it's so predictable.

I can in every way, feel the stress all tingled up inside.
Too blind to see, emptiness and sorrow of their lives.
You run away, to the cover of their pointless lives.
You ask me - it's so predictable. 

I'm gonna try. I'm gonna die.
 I'm gonna try.

 Another day.  Silence overwhelms my mind.
 Who's to say if I have the time or why
 should I pray for all the hate to go away? 
Another day.  I can never break free. 
You wait for me. I crawl up to you.
 Another day. I'll live forever. 

Why should I?

I'm gonna try. I'm gonna die.
 I'm gonna try.

I'm gonna try!  Should I? 
  I'm gonna try. I'm gonna die.
 I'm gonna try.
 Try.

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F a k e

I can't stand the sight of you.
I can't stand what you put me through.
Your life's a lie, that you will hide.
 Is it that terrible being you inside?
I can't stand all the thought of you.
I can't stand all the things you do.
Why do you try to justify?
You're just to scared to be you inside.

Let it all go.
 Look at you, all I see
 is a man too afraid to really be.

I can't stand what you put me through.
I can't stand even the thought of you.
Your secret lies, that you hide.
 Is it that terrible being you inside?

Let it all go.
 Look at you, all I see
 is a man too afraid to really be.

You try so hard to be wanted.
 False emotions tell you fronted.
I think being a person relies on one thing,
 be yourself, let you come through.
You're too afraid to really be,
 someone who isn't false and doesn't care to be.
You're too afraid to really be.
 Be yourself, let you come through.

Fake!

Let it all go.

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L i e s

I like to search inside 
for the things that you will hide. 
What's the problem?  Can't you seem to 
loose the problems that haunt and taunt you?
 I smile while you're afraid. 
You run, while your soul pays.

 Do you ever see outside your fields?
Thinking about your life. Thinking about your inner fears.

 I like to search inside
for the things that you will hide. 
What's the problem?
Can you seem to 
open your body and let me touch you?

Do you ever see outside your fields?
Thinking about your life. Thinking about your inner fears.

 I want you to see, master of disguise.
 For all the things that hurt you, of all these useless lies.
 I want you to fear, fill you up inside.
 Once I'd took you in, I'll throw you out instead.

I try, you win.
 My life... 
Is ripping your heart and destroying my pain.

Do you ever see outside your fields?
Thinking about your life.
Thinking about your inner fears.

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H e l m e t  i n  t h e  B u s h

I keep asking, what's your lie?
 It is disturbing.  This isn't mine. {Why,}
Days keep passing. One match at a time. {me?}
 I don't feel right. 
Please God let me sleep tonight.

Everyday confronted. 
Fuck off.  It's giving in. 
I just wanna know why.

 Want to give it up, but I can't escape.

 I keep asking.  Will you please try?
 It is haunting.  This takes my mind. {Why,}
 Days keep passing. Line after line. {me?}
 I don't feel right. 
Please God don't let me die tonight.
 Die tonight.

 Everyday confronted. 
Fuck off.  It's giving in. 
I just wanna know why.

 Want to give it up, but I can't escape. 

Please God.
 Please God help me. 
Please God free me.
 Please God save me
 from my painful situation.

Please God don't let me slip in tonight.  Please God.
Oh, please God don't let me give in tonight.  Please God.
Oh, please God don't let me slip in tonight.  Don't let me die.
Please God don't let me give in tonight.  Don't let me die.

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D a d d y

Mother, please forgive.
I just had to get out all my pain and suffering.
Now that I am done, 
remember I will always love you; 
I'm your son.

Little child, looking so pretty, 
come out play, I'll be your Daddy. 
Innocent child, looking so sweet,
 I rape your mind, and now your flesh I reap. 

  You raped.  I feel dirty.
 It hurt.  As a child. 
Tied down.  "That's a good boy."
 And fuck.  Your own child.
 I scream.  No one hears me.
 It hurt.  Not a lot.
 My God.  Saw you watch. 
Mommy, why?  Your own child. 

Little child, looking so pretty,
 come out play, I'll be your Daddy.

 You raped.  I feel dirty. 
It hurt.  As a child. 
Tied down.  "That's a good boy."
 And fuck.  Your own child.
 I scream.  No one hears me. 
It hurt.  Not a lot. 
My God.  Saw you watch.
 Mommy, why?  Your own child.

 It's all right. 

You raped.  I feel dirty. 
It hurt.  As a child. 
Tied down.  "That's a good boy." 
And fuck.  Your own child.
 I scream.  No one hears me. 
It hurt.  As a child. 
Tied down. No one heard me. 
And raped your own child. 
I scream.  No one hears me.
 It hurt.  As a child. 
Tied down.  "That's a good boy." 
And fucked.  Your own child. 
I scream.  No one hears me. 
It hurt. As a child. 
Tied down.  No one hears me. 
Mommy why?  Your own child. 

"I didn't touch there." 
Mommy said she didn't care.
 "I didn't touch you there." 
That's why mommy stopped and stared. 

Innocent child, looking so sweet,
 I rape your mind, and now your flesh I reap. 

You raped.  I feel dirty. 
It hurt.  As a child. 
Tied down.  "That's a good boy." 
And fuck.  Your own child.
 I scream.  No one hears me. 
It hurt.  Not a lot. 
My God.  Saw you watch. 
Mommy, why?  Your own child.

   You raped.  I feel dirty.
 It hurt.  Not a lot.
 My God.  Saw you watch. 
Daddy why?  Your own child.
 I scream.  No one hears me.
 It hurt.  Not a lot. 
My God.  Saw you watch. 
Mommy, why?  Your own child.
   You raped.  I feel dirty. 
It hurt.  Not a lot. 
My God.  Saw you watch.
 Mommy why?  Your own child.
 I scream.  No one hears me. 
It hurt.  Not a lot. 
My God.  Saw you watch. 
Mommy, why!!!???!!!!!

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