Alive
Proud
Sean Olson
Kick The P.A.
The Christmas Song

I cannot ever find a way
to throw these darkened thoughts away
Need no place to hide
It's thrown in my face everyday,
'cause it's the price I have to pay
for what's inside my mind
I am alive
You gives 'em to me everyday
That's okay, that's how I like to play
They're not first in line
What's in my head I didn't say 
It's something that I can't run away
What's inside my mind 
I am alive
I am alive
I will never run away
Places inside
My heart screams inside with pride
Once I cry
Now I wipe away the tears
Once I die
Now I'm alive
Alive!
I cannot ever find a way
to throw these darkened thoughts away
Need no place to hide
It's thrown in my face everyday,
'cause it's the price I have to pay
for what's inside my mind
I am alive
I will never run away
Places inside
My heart screams inside with pride
Once I cry
Now I wipe away the tears
Once I die
Now I'm alive

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Must you keep looking at me
before you looked the other way.
Must you keep glaring at me
I know you look inside, and see what you made.
You took no pride in me
but now I'm your everything
it's finding out ya own(owe?) me
not all of your gloating.
Must you keep looking at me.
Now you see what I am.
Trust, I knew what it was.
I don't forget things, thinking I'm nothing.
You took no pride in me
but now I'm your everything
it's finding out ya own(owe?) me
not all of your gloating.
Pride of me No Pride
Why 
Must you keep looking at me
Before you looked the other way
Trust, I knew what it was
I don't forget things, look what you've made.
You took no pride in me
but now I'm your everything
it's finding out ya own(owe?) me
not all of your gloating.

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What's your lie?

Warm glance, a fake smile.
Eyes meet, your mind runs wild.
This game you play I like in a way.

You expect to grab a child (grab a child)
You think I'm innocent not wild.
Take me let's see how much I'm tamed.

Everybody listen while I think of all I know,
How to live for sure - body wall into my precious soul.
I'll show you fears, pleasure pain is my control.
Let your body lay in there, warm flesh to your fear.

Warm lips, a big smile.
Hatred runs through your insides.
This game you play - intimidation each day.

You think it's all a lie (all a lie)
They want to destroy your life.
Anger twisted your life into pain

I wish I could take control.
I wish I could let go.
I wish I could break this mould.
Inside I'm so fucking cold.

I'm coming, I'm coming, I'm coming on you... 

Warm glance, a fake smile.
Eyes meet, your mind runs wild.
This game you play I like in a way.

You expect to grab a child (grab a child)
You think I'm innocent not wild.
Take me - let's see how much I'm tamed.

Everybody listen while I become all I know.
How to live for sure - body wall into my precious soul.
I'll show you fears, pleasure pain is my control.
Let your body lay in there, warm flesh to your fear.

I wish I could lose control.
I wish I could let go.
I wish I could break this mould
Inside I'm so fuckin' cold.

Weapons inside so the truth unfolds.

I am done.
That was so fun.
This one's real.
How'd it feel?

What's comin', what's comin', what's comin' on you? 
I'm comin', I'm comin', I'm comin' on you... 

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You simply defy, I cannot and look through the sky.
We try it single file, dig on me here is my denial.
I cannot ever find something safe my tongue on the fly.
I cannot live this way -- floorin' me, we'll kick the P.A.

You wanna play with me?
I'm really gonna rock your world.
You want to confront me?
I'm gonna rock your world.

You say everything is fine, I cannot compete with the skies.
My sickness crossed the line, come and meet my fly through the sky.
I cannot ever find, you and me we'll make all the lines.
Oh if they could see the play, no one would wanna be me.

You wanna play with me?
I'm really gonna rock your world.
You wanna come for me?
I'm gonna rock your world.

So I fly, take me.
I cannot fly, most people hate me.
To fly away from this pain.

So I fly, take me
I cannot fly, most people hate me.
To fly away from this pain.

Please take away, please take away my P.A.

So I fly, take me.
I cannot fly, most people hate me.
To fly away from this pain, this pain.

P.A.!

Please take away, please take away my P.A.! 
Please take away, please take away my....

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Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house,
everybody was stoned, even the mouse.
Man from the whore house and me from the jail,
I just settled down to get a piece of her tail.
When all of a sudden I heard such a clatter,
I tripped on my dick and busted my bladder!
I went downstairs and what did I see?!
A fat little red faget hangin' from a tree.
He stuffed the stockings with reefers and beer,
and a big fat hairy dick for the family queer.
That's the end of my story. Funny wasn't it, ya see?

One, two, three, four, Santa can suck my dick all day!

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