Hi people!

This was a harrowing/nerve-wrecking week where I became a nervous wreck. During my midst of working in the programming project at Carlsberg, I was to conduct basic ABAP/4 programming language classes to a bunch of Motorola IS staff (6 of 'em) plus 3 of our own staff. I was taking it easy as I thought that I'll just teach leisurely. However, what a big surprise I had from the expectations of these people from Motorola who were so much more experienced programmers and technically well skilled. I tell you, I had an extremely difficult time trying to answer their questions and they could see that I was very raw.

Every night, I woke up in the middle of the night to read up on the next day's topics and formulated questions that they might ask. Sometimes I know that I wasn't going to be able to answer them and all I can do is pray. There was actually once when I felt that I had a very difficult slide that I had no idea what it was about. I wanted to tear out this particular page from their books during lunch break!!! (I didn't 'coz two of them didn't go for lunch).

There was another session on another topic of programming which I knew I couldn't do too well as I hadn't done much of it. I knew I was gonna have a hell time explaining it, so it took me a lot of anxiety to finally call my boss to tell him I'm not up to the next session job. And here is another one of the reason why I've developed a kind of 'loyalty' feeling towards my current company. He listened and suggested to call up another colleague of mine to handle it. It was such a great relief to me.

During that few days, I am very thankful to Gui who would listen to my tough experience.

I shall never regret this experience (although I do curse my boss for asking me to teach when I'm not trained myself and he knows that I don't like programming).

All in all, it has a sweet side to it. My students on the last day thank me for being patient with them, tryint to understand their questions as well as trying to answer them. They told me I had the makings of a good teacher - just lack of experience.

Regards,
Li Li