Hi,

I begin the year of 1999 with a heavy heart. Firstly, my head has just recovered from job dilemma whereby I sent in my resignation officially on Wednesday. Things are quite messy at the moment. My trip to the National Park has to be cancelled due to the monsoon rain. In anticipation of a very busy working schedule ahead, I had even packed my bags ready for the trip already! My resignation didn't come easy - telling colleagues that you're gonna leave them isn't easy at all especially when they've been the greatest. On top of that, one of my colleague of whom knows quite a bit on my job matters has resigned too! This makes a tough time for the others to cover for us.

I've got a whole lot of things to say about my resignation part but I don't want to go through all of it. Sometimes, it's just better to leave things as it is. I quit for a whole lot of reasons. For one, I did get a better job offer and I felt it was a time for change in life - I've been waiting for this break which I thought might not happen because I was also undecisive whether to work in Seremban only. Anyhow, I really couldn't work long in Samsung anymore because life has been stressful with unpredictable projects and deadlines. Initially, I applied to work in a factory because I thought that life would be a slam - getting to go back sharp at 5.30pm coz the work should only consist of maintaining the existing system and maybe a bit of programming. Boy, was I wrong! Samsung is forever going through changes and I don't think I can cope up anymore. The new job may give me the opportunity to explore new areas of work and most importantly it's a five days work.

I'm just sad that I'm gonna leave a buncha real nice colleagues. Don't think I could ever find people like these. You know, sometimes you hear from friends of how bad office politics can get. Well, I haven't experienced these kinda things over here. It's just a place where people work hard to get their job done. No talking behind back or back-stabbing for that matter. I had wanted to leave very much earlier last time, but decided to stay on because I enjoy working with my colleagues and end-users. Yeah, then why am I leaving then? Well, I'm actually already demotivated in work already for a long time. I just didn't like the way things were going and how the future's gonna be. I work in a module which I don't think is being utilized in the correct manner and because of that, I don't find any job satisfaction in it anymore. The future is like there'll be forever changes and changes and changes (which is good if they are done properly and whether they are effective).

I thought a lot about what I wanted to do personally and find it very difficult to achieve them because I'm always busy working at Samsung. I thought about how lazy I was becoming staying at home! I thought about my goal in living on my own during working life. I know it's gonna be sheer happiness when I'm out again - freedom! But then, I also miss my folks dearly. Ah... life at the moment isn't a garden of roses for me.

I haven't been going out on my adventures lately. I haven't been myself of late either - all moody and blues. Mmm... I think the coming Raya holidays will do me some good, I hope...

Regards,
Li Li