I truly believe that something out there is out to make my life go unpredictable or make the road bumpy for me. Nowadays, I really 'pantang' say things out. It always become the opposite. There are many examples, one being today. I was just telling Gui at yesterday's dinner that I was currently assigned to a program which takes 7 days to complete and I thought it was quite a complex one. However, after spending one day and trying out some source code modifications from an existing program, I figured I could do it in less than 7 days and was pretty happy about it. I mean, if I do it fast then I'd have some time to relax right?

But today as it is, it seems like this program is put on hold till very much later. Therefore, I'm given two other new programs. What a bummer...

That's why I gotta be real flexible and open-minded these days, else I'll be so moody with so many change of events. Fortunately the other day for that Gunung Datuk Rembau trip, it did materialize thanks to Gui. I nearly had to postphone the climbing trip after so many other previous postphoned ones. I thought I must be jinxed in organizing these climbs. There's another one coming up at the end of this month and I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
On - 11/5/99

Some good samaritans
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As I was walking from KLCC to Central Market LRT station (yes, sometimes I prefer walking than taking the bus thru traffic jams) yesterday evening, I heard a dog crying out loudly. Alarmed, I looked frantically and found that a German Shepherd dog has unfortunately somehow tangled his leg on the top edge of a fence. For a moment there, I paused helplessly. It was moment I'd remember well because it actually unveiled the person in me which turned out to be frightfully unwholesome. I was actually contemplating whether to help out or to leave. It was unthinkable thing and cruel of me to even do such contemplation.

I would regret that moment forever. Anyway, the sheer pity of seeing the dog suffering was just too much, I searched for someone who could help as I wasn't sure whether I could climb over the fence. But very fortunately, a 'gwailo' (White man) heard the cries too, and he immediately went to the rescue. During his task of untangling the foot of the dog from the fence, he kept saying reassuring words to the dog and it was amazing how the dog would respond positively by remaining calmer. Another good samaritan was also on hand to help out. The gwailo held the dog up while the other person successfully released the dog from its misery.

I left feeling relieved but with a clouding thought of my previous regret...
On - 19/5/99

Cook-in
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Had a 'cook-in' yesterday evening with Gui, Lai Kuan and Chew at Chew's place. We had fried mee hoon, chicken and two vegetable dishes. Most of the time the cook was Chew herself while Lai Kuan was there for the fried mee hoon. Yours truly and Gui was on hand with the preparations.

I gave a lot of theoritical cooking know-hows because that's all I know! So far at home, I've done very well cooking chicken fillets with turnips and peas and also tried at cooking Ba Kut Teh using those instant packets. I've no problems with vegetables, so I guess I can survive in future...

The meal was eaten among us and Chew's housemates (boyfriend, younger bro and younger bro's girlfriend). It was 'boleh tahan' and we were quite satisfied.
On - 19/5/99

The dream
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Yesterday night (or should I say this morning), had the weirdest dream ever. Dreamt that I was going to get married! Oh my!

It was on the wedding day and I was with my mom. I didn't looked happy. Instead I was petrified whether I had made the right decision. Flashback... I was introduced to a guy who has the 'right' background who was a career man and well-off. In terms of physical outlook - err, non too good-looking. Anyway, I dunno why I actually agreed to getting married.

Back to the present... I suddenly felt I had made an absolutely wrong decision. The first thoughts were I was going to be committed. I would lose some of my preciously guarded freedom. At that instant, I just knew that I couldn't do it. I had to call the wedding off. Then only further I thought I wasn't even in love with this person whom I would spend the rest of my live with.

What I want to point out is that I think I'm the type of person you see in the movie or TV that just can't commit - a great reluctance to getting married. It isn't even about whether I love the other party. It's that I guard my freedom jealously. Well, I guess the next thing, you'd say being in a permanent relationship doesn't mean that you're tied. Well, for the moment, for me, it equals just that.
On - 19/5/99

The Matrix
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Seen a number of movies lately (all 3 Godfather series, Saving Private Ryan, Shakespeare in Love, Pleasantville, The Waterboy, Entrapment and Rushmore) but I just had to write a review on the coolest movie of 1999 (that is before Star War's Phantom Menace of course).

Wo... you just know they hit the jackpot with this one. It was a blend of X-Files meets Jet Li meets Alien meets MTV meets Terminator. I concluded this lethal mixture on these observations:
1) X-files : You know the part where the mechanical scorpion evolved and dived into Neo's belly button? Reminds me of an episode in X-files where the cockroaches went inside a human body. Plus those 'agents' looked like those 'agents' of X-files.
2) Jet Li : This of course, corresponds with the kung fu sequences shown what with the stunts being coordinated by the Hong Kong person who heralded the moves of Jet Li movies (methinks).
3) Alien : Oh, the sentinels? which looked liked Alien octopus flying about in space. I guess the spacecraft scene looked like some Alien shots.
4) MTV : It looked like MTV music video for the parts where Morpheus explains to Neo that whatever he wants, can be 'gotten' in that white empty space. It's as if they were ready to do a rap number with their black trenchcoats and sunglasses.
5) Terminator : The concept of man versus machines.

The projected shots on the bullet charging and bullet avoiding scenes were a spectacle to watch. There was also a message that it was man who destroyed themselves.

If you haven't watch this, just go out and shoot yourselves.

On - 19/5/99, ps - don't you think Keeanu looks absolutely fabulous!

Regards,
Li Li