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without a doubt
we met, coming from different worlds
without a doubt
it's as weird as it seems
without a doubt
you kept me waiting
you kept me creative
you kept me sane

without a doubt
i began to fall for your charm
without a doubt
i kept it a secret
without a doubt
silence was the only way
silence kept me denying
silence kept me sane

without a doubt
i began falling
without a doubt
i sympathized with all your fears
without a doubt
i never considered condemning
i always remained fair
i always remained sane.

without a doubt
i expected nothing
without a doubt
i thanked you
without a doubt
you have shared a part of you
you learned more of you
you kept me sane

without a doubt
i felt very bothered
without a doubt
i began to stutter
without a doubt
i couldn't express my feeling
i took refuge in you without telling
i thought i wasn't sane

without a doubt
you've intrigued me
without a doubt
you made me think
without a doubt
you made me understand
i matured with each conversation
i learned i wasn't sane

i wasn't sane because i kept on denying
i wasn't sane because i couldn't tell
i wasn't sane because it kept on bugging
i wasn't sane because i liked you as well

without a doubt
i was distracted
without a doubt
i wondered how you felt
without a doubt
i was thinking about your thoughts
i was dreaming day and night
i was thisclose to insanity

without a doubt
you gave me clues
without a doubt
i was flattered
without a doubt
i played dumb and dense
to reverse your psychology
to see if you really liked me
only to discover that i loved you

i loved you so much that i cared
i loved you so much that i could take away illusion
i loved you so much to accept your past
i loved you so much but i was scared.

without a doubt
i considered telling you what i felt
without a doubt
i was playing your game
without a doubt
i loved your name
i was about to tell you
that you were my mutual flame

without a doubt
i was nervous
without a doubt
i waited for the right time
without a doubt
i finally got the courage
to tell you how i felt
to tell you that i was sane.

without a doubt
i admitted
without a doubt
it wasn't to you but ti one of my friends
without a doubt
she told me to tell you
but when i was about to
something wasn't sane.

something wasn't right
i heard that you've gone
without a doubt
i wasn't able to confess.

without a doubt
i was worried
without a doubt
i wondered where you were
without a doubt
i remembered your charm and wit
i remembered how you kept me waiting
i remembered how you made me creative
i remembered how you made me learn
i remember all the past
i remembered how i felt
i remembered how i was supposed to tell you
i remembered how i wasn't able to do so
i remembered how you kept me sane.

without a doubt
i am filled with regret
for not having been able to tell you
just how you make me feel.

without a doubt
in your silence
i always say a prayer
i always remember the feeling
when you were always there.

without a doubt
if you still ask me
just how i feel for you
i'd repeat them over and over
until old is something new.

i just cared
i just did
i don't know why
but i love you for who you
take away the game and still
i loved you and always will...
... Without a Doubt.
 

Mitzi: January 4, 2000
 

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Without a doubt, this one's for you:
to Jason Matthew Grant.