20 Februar 1998

Left behind?

by Froukje Eibrink Jansen

I was standing, looking through a big window in front of me. The house that I was in, was built on a hill and I could look over the fields below me. It was a beautiful day.

I could not tell which time it was, but it seemed somewhere towards the end of the afternoon as the sun was already going down behind the mountains. Suddenly I saw right in front of me something coming out of space and slowly descending towards me.

When I looked closer, I saw that it was some sort of spaceship. It was huge, and as it came down I could see that something was written all over the spaceship. When it came closer I could read the words : THE NEW JERUSALEM.

The ship came to a standstil right above the house where I was and just hung there in the sky. Then I saw the doors open and out of it came quite a few huge angels, which quickly flew away in all directions. The next thing, I saw them coming back, carrying people, which they brought into the ship and then they went out again to get some more.

I wondered about this, but then I thought, "I am sure they will come for me."

As far as I knew, I was ok and ready to go "Nothing between me and my Saviour," I thought. So I just stood there and waited for the angels to come and get me.

But then, I saw suddenly how the doors were closed and the ship started to move away. They had left me behind!

I was horrified! I ran to the door, to go outside and see if I could call them. Surely this was a mistake! But when I came outside the ship was gone.

I cannot describe how I felt. It was an awful feeling! As I stood there, stunned and unbelieving, I saw other people coming up the hill. Some of them were carrying bags as if they were going on a vacation. They were equally surprised that the ship had not waited for them.

One of the men said: "Oh, well, I suppose we have to face the music now". And then I heard this voice saying to me: "Pray that ye may be counted worthy...."

I woke up, my heart pounding within me, and I was crying. "Lord, You left me behind! Why? I do not understand!"

The dream was so real that I got up (5 am) and went to look outside, to see if this had really happened and if anything had changed. Then I saw that my husband was still laying in the bed, next to me. I thought about the scripture which said: "Two will be in the bed, one will be taken, one will be left behind." (Luke 17:34), and I sighed a sigh of relief! It was only a dream, there was still time for me to repent.

So I went before the Lord and asked Him to show me my heart. "Please Lord, I do not want to be left behind!" The first thing the Lord showed me was Pride and Self-righteousness and since then, He has been revealing other things in my heart, which I didn't know were there.

I am so thankful that He gives me this opportunity and I will not take things for granted anymore and think that I am alright! I know now what it means to FEAR THE LORD!

Thinking about what He said to me in the dream: "Pray that ye may be found worthy...", I went to the Word and I found two scriptures that would apply to this dream.

Luke 21:35: "Watch ye therefore, and pray always that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass and to stand before the Son of Man."

2 Thess.1:3-10 "Therefore among God's churches we boast about your perseverance and faith in all the persecutions and trials you are enduring. All this is evidence that God's judgment is right and as a result you will be counted worthy of the Kingdom of God for which you are suffering. God is just: He will pay back trouble to those who trouble you and give relief to you who are troubled, and to us as well. This will happen when the Lord Jesus is revealed from Heaven in blazing fire with his powerful angels. He will punish those who do not know God and do not obey the gospel of our Lord Jesus. They will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out from the Presence of the Lord and from the majesty of His power, on the day He comes to be glorified IN His holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have believed".

I pondered: "...that ye may be accounted worthy to escape..." To escape what?

I believe that both scriptures are referring to the same happening. In the Lord's prayer we are taught to pray: "Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil." (Lord, let us not have to go through the fire...)

Have you , with me, also sung with fervor the words: "Send the fire Lord!" This is what this is all about.

I have written about God's refining fire in Mark 13 from verse 41. You can find this article at the Homepage of Teri Earl at www.Harvestnet.org.

In the refining fire of the Lord there are two types of people. Those who are weeping are the overcomers; they will escape being "shut out from the Presence of the Lord and from the Majesty of His power, on the day He comes to be glorified IN His holy people."

This is no pie in the sky, in the sweet bye and bye, folks; we are standing on the threshold of the revelation of the Lord in His people in majesty and power. Pray that ye may be accounted worthy !...

The other type of people are not willing to change in the fire. They gnash their teeth in rebellion. Jesus will say to them: "I never knew you!" (Matthew 7)

I want to close this with a little testimony of my own. A few weeks ago I had to go and see a specialist to get permission for an operation on my eye. I have had diabetes since 1987. The Lord promised right then that He would heal me in His time.

So what did I do? I just lived in denial all those years. I did not discipline myself when it came to the way I ordered my life or my eating habits. I had to take pills and became quite clever at controlling the diabetes, or so I thought.

I must admit that I had not been feeling too well the first month of this year. My GP had suggested that I take it easy and my smug answer to her was: "What do you do, when they tell you to take it easy, while you have a job to do?"

She just smiled and said nothing more. Well the specialist looked at the results of my blood test and said: "I want you into hospital, right now!"

I was shocked! I had to go into hospital, because he was putting me onto insulin. The diabetes was totally out of control and my sugar levels were dangerously high.

"You are too young," the doctor said.

This was two days after I had the dream and had asked the Lord to clean my heart, so I may be found worthy ....

When I came home I went before the Lord and whined. "Lord you promised to heal me ten years ago, why didn't You?"

I got no answer, so I went to get my mail and there was this letter from Teri and she said that as a nurse she has seen many REBELLIOUS people which refused to be disciplined and were now either blind or sitting in a wheelchair.

Please, I am not saying that when you are in that position because of diabetes, that you are rebellious. This word was a word from God to ME.

I had never before seen this. Sure, I was rebellious, I had not submitted to counsel, I always knew better. There was rebellion in my heart!

Thank You Father for revealing this to me, so I can repent!

I did! And He said to me: "My child I love you and right this moment I am working on your character and when I am satisfied, I will heal you."

Of course I am not perfect by any means! But the Lord is working in me, so that I will not be left behind!

Froukje Eibrink Jansen
20th February 1998