This is my tribute, my good bye if you will, to a man we all know and love, who made our lives richer by the simplest word, the briefest smile, the softest touch. Although i never saw him face to face, im proud to say he knew me better then most. Andre has the uncanny ability to make these virtual words on a screen seem real, more alive then anyone would think possible. Every precious moment i spent with Dre only served to endear him more to me. Nothing could be wrong with his uncanny sense of humor on the job.
As he lays in the hospital, i know he knows my thoughts and prayers are with him every second. Listening from far away, i hear him still making us feel better, letting us know that he is still Dre, and still fighting. The way his mind works has always amazed me, and his strength through these trials has only served to higher my already High opinion of what a great man he truly is.
He recently got his hands on a copy of the newest Anne Rice novel, The Vampire Armand, and while reading it, took some notes on passages that meant something to him. These do not give away any plot lines (so im told) so i will briefly relay the one that touched me the most here.
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I know nothing
because I know too much, and understand not nearly enough and never will.
But this you taught me as much as any other I've ever known, that love
is necessary, as much as rain to the flowers and the trees, and food to
the hungry child, and blood to the starving thirsting predators and scavengers
that we are. Love we need, and love can make us forgive and forget
all savagery, as perhaps nothing else can.
And so I took them out of their fabulous and promising modern world with
its diseased and desperate masses. I took them out and gave them
the only might I possess, and I did it for you. I gave them time, time
perhaps to find an answer which those mortals living now may never know.
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For the young
ones I put on the bravest of faces and we spoke of beautiful things, and
places we would wander and wonders.
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He closed
his eyes.
Andre, my friend, here, there, or in the air, my love. Be at Peace, and know you always have a special place within me, as you do with so many others. We cannot love anyone the way we love you, our Dre.
Special thanks go to his messenger, who has allowed us this special insight into his past days and weeks. Danni, we know how hard this is for you to share with us, people who you've never met. as hard as it is for me to read each note, i am eternally grateful to you and Andre's family for allowing us to say our good byes.
To his Family, my sincerest sympathies as you go through this with your son, brother, cousin, lover. I know no words that can ease your heartache, but know that my prayers are with you always. As it was for Dre, (though he would never use it *smile*) my number is always open, for any reason.
As Andre has said, he will wait
for us on the other side. Till then my Dre, i count the moments till then.
With all my Love
Beth McDonald
AKA: Lessa,
delilah, Caralina,
and forever
your Angelina.