To the World

By Lupo

I tried to be nice
To make the world like me
I tried to be nice
Like I thought the world wanted

What did I get?
Ignored, rejected, laughed at.
What did I get?
Despised, hated, teased.

So this is the real me
Hope you like it
So this is the real me
What the world created

I hate the world
The rules, the morals, the beliefs
I hate the world
Makes me want to lash out

I wonder what it's like
To slip into dark oblivion
I wonder what it's like
To send another over the edge

To end a life
To take everything from someone
To end a life
Just to end my own
 

To Jack
by Lupo

Looking at someone
Thinking about someone
Talking to someone
Walking after someone
Stalking after someone
Finding that someone
In the dark
Silently...
Nick, watch bleed.
Slice, watch fade
Slit, watch open
Cut, watch spill
Wait, watch die.
 

To Those who come after
by Lupo

Feel death inside
Death I put there
Sight slowly blurs
Eyelids grow heavy
Mind grows distant
Swimming in poison
"Maybe they'll cry
Maybe they'll wonder
When I'm gone
It'll be revenge."
Light gently fades
Laying me down
Into comforting night
 

To the West
by Lupo

A cold, seeping into the bones
The sensation all around,
An encircling darkness
Sinking deeper in the black
Pressure growing, pressure crushing
Closer, squeezing lungs
To scream, to let in the icy black
Feel it filling the soul,
Cold, dark, enclosing water
Sucking life from the body
 
 

To the South
by Lupo

Feel the light, filling your world
See the heat, enveloping everything
The bright, dancing shards
Leaping around your feet
Climbing higher, sharp pain growing
Feel the body collapse,
Nothing left to raise the flesh
Tortured, above the coals.
Falling, into light, into fire,
Falling into death
 

To the North
by Lupo

The soft patter of dirt on wood
Awakening you from sleep
The darkness all around you
Chilling you to the bone
Cannot move, enclosed, trapped
The thud of soil above you,
Mourners, loved ones wailing
Unable to hear your screams
Trapped, in a box, in the earth
Screaming, clawing, until the end.
 

To the East
by Lupo

To gaze around at the crowd,
Their eyes hard, cold, uncaring,
Or else wild, burning, baying for blood.
To stand tall before them, proud,
Though condemned by their laws.
Looking back at them, the crowd, the masses,
Hungry, seeking retribution and false justice,
To accept the rope, feel it run tight,
Around the neck, choking the air,
To die silent, defiant, alone.
 

To People
by Lupo

See faces, smiling, laughing, unthinking
living lives, without questioning
Joking, concentrating wholly on their worthless,
useless, pathetic, snivelling lives
Accepting lies, believeing falsehoods
Not asking why.
To instruct them, to shed some light
into the voids of their minds?
They are beyond help. To enlighten
is to destroy. To cave in those faces
those ignorant, smiling, unaware, faces.
Or else to cut them, to break
the skin of their throats, their
thick red life blood set free-flowing
To just make them see, let them know...
It's always the quiet ones.
 

To Myself
by Lupo

One face sees light,
One face sees dark.
One face sees love,
One face sees hate.
One face sees life,
One face sees Death.
One face sees pleasure,
One face sees pain.
What would it take
to end this duality?
End this suffering
End this state
To silence the twin voices
to make me whole again
 

To a Bat
by Lupo

Wings of leather, Fur of velvet
Eyes dark pools, seeing nothing
Reviled, hated creature of night sky
Free from pain of people
Uncaring in life's nightly rite
I envy you, bat
I, reviled, hated creature of day
To fly away from tis
this twisted mockery
of meaningful existence

To a Listener
by Lupo

I suppose you wonder why I hate you.
Try not to. It doesn't matter.
Doesn't matter you ignore me
think I'm different, think I'm strange
I know you've got your friends
You like other people more than me.
It only makes sense that I hate you
Why shoudld I like you?
You never liked me.
I'll kill you.
Then maybe you'll like me.
 

To a girl
by Lupo

Maybe when that someone's dead
Maybe then you'll see
You made a very big mistake
That someone should be me.
 

To an Unfortunate
by Lupo

How could I?
You ask that now.
Just laughed at me.
Thought I was so nice
That I wouldn't mind
How you treat me.
That I was harmless, gentle
How could I?
Maybe you deserved it.
You're worthless.

To Conscience
by Lupo

All the time, the voice.
Telling me it's okay,
Telling me it's all right,
Telling me it's fine,
To step into traffic
To slit my wrists
To take poison
To act on impulse
To take the next step
The next step of dark desires
To take a life
To beat to death
To cut, to stab, watch bleed
To strangle, watch face blacken
And I can see it
In my mind's eye
See death
And it's fine.
 

To the System
by Lupo

It's not like society owes me
Not like I can hold it to account
For all it's put me through
It's just the way things are.
A casualty of the system
Rejected and rejecting
All I'm told is right.
Life doesn't owe me.
Just another freak.

To Thoughts
by Lupo

Strange thoughts
Vision blurs
head spins
mind swims
hands shake
dark thoughts creep
twisted, strange
through my brain
thoughts of death
thoughts of pain
Is this what madness feels like?

To Silence
by Lupo

Did I choose lonliness?
The silence of my mind
Broken only by thoughts
the light of twisted reason
shattering the blackness of void
thoughts made light by silence.
Contrast, justifying deviance.

To the Rules
by Lupo

Why should I belive what you tell me to believe?
Why should I think what you want me to think?
Why should I do what you tell me?
Who gave you the right?
Why should I respect you?
Because the world tells me to?
Because I'm trapped in this stinking social web?
That binds us tighter in each day?
Maybe I want out.

To Questioners
by Lupo

I say I long to end lives.
You think this is so wrong?
So strange that I say it,
in front of the world?
I'm just not afraid.
Not afraid of how they'll judge me.
Are you afraid of how they'd judge you?
I've already been judged.
Life sentance, no appeal.
To be shunned, seen as different.
I take my sentance.
I'm proud of the crime.
At least I'm honest.