Well, here we are.... Casteel time. How excited are we? Very excited. First of all, I'd like to thank Jammi and Reie for all their help on this album!
This time I started with the last book in the series... with Leigh. I felt that it was more appropriate. Although Garden of Shadows gives us a different perspective, puts a different twist on the events in Flowers in the Attic, it is something we could have lived without. (Feel free to flame me for that one!) Web of Dreams is an important and necessary part of what happens in Heaven and the rest of the Casteel series. It wouldn't be right if we didn't have it!
So, here we go. The Casteel series, beginning with Web of Dreams....
Natalie Cole
This is the only proper way to begin this series.... With Tony and Jillian's wedding. This song is a classic and has some great lyrics that definitely seem as though they belong at Farthy....
I never feel a thing is real
When I'm away from you
Out of your embrace
The world's a temporary parking place
Mmmm mmm mmm
A bubble for a minute
Mmmm mmm mmm
You smile, the bubble's got a rainbow in it
Say it's only a paper moon, sailing over a cardboard sea
But it wouldn't be make believe, if you believed in me.
Yes, it's only a canvas sky, hanging over a muslin tree
But it wouldn't be make believe, if you believed in me.
Without your love it's a honky tonk parade -
Without your love it's a melody played in a penny arcade
It's a Barnum and Bailey world, just as phony as it can be
But it wouldn't be make believe, if you believed in me.
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Natalie Merchant
Yes, the second Natalie on this album. This is a beautiful, sad song that does a wonderful job of expressing Leigh's feelings just before she leaves Farthy. I like to think that she's looking at Angel when this song is playing and thinking of Jillian.... This song could also be reprised later for Heaven....
Take a look at my body
Look at my hands
There's so much here that I don't understand
Your face-saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
'Cause I've been treated so wrong,
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable
Well, contempt loves the silence, it thrives in the dark
With fine winding tendrils that strangle the heart
They say that promises sweeten the blow
But I don't need them, no I don't need them
I've been treated so wrong,
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable
I'm a slow-dying flower
In the frost-killing hour
Sweet turning sour and untouchable
I need the darkness, the sweetness, the sadness, the weakness
Oh I need this
I need a lullaby, a kiss goodnight, angel, sweet love of my life
Oh I need this
I'm a slow-dying flower
Frost-killing hour
The sweet turning sour and untouchable
Do you remember the way that you touched me before
All the trembling sweetness I loved and adored
Your face-saving promises
Whispered liked prayers
I don't need them
I need the darkness, the sweetness, the sadness, the weakness
Oh, I need this
I need a lullaby, a kiss goodnight, angel, sweet love of my life
Oh, I need this
Well is it dark enough?
Can you see me?
Do you want me?
Can you reach me?
Oh, I'm leaving
Better shut your mouth, and hold your breath
You kiss me now, you catch your death
Oh, I mean this
Oh, I mean this
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Lenny Kravitz
You guessed it! Enter Luke Casteel.... It's a bitter sort of song that speaks for itself.
One day when I was searching
For what I'll never find
She walked into my story
Said she could change my mind
This is the final offer
She said to make it quick
Don't lose out on this wonder
So I had to place my bet
Welcome to the picture show
Watching your life
Never know which way to go
It might not be right
So you better be strong
What kind of circus is this?
What kind of fools are we?
When is the final curtain?
What can I do to set me free?
Welcome to the real world
Never know which way to go
It might end up wrong
So you better be strong
Too many games we have to play
They always change the rules
You and me just trying to get along
What can I do?
Got to be strong
She walked into my daydream
She told me how it had to be
Welcome to the picture show
Watching your life
Never know which way to go
It might not be right
Yeah, yeah
Welcome to the real world
You got to be strong
Never know which way to go
It might end up wrong
Yeah, yeah
Welcome to the picture show
It might end up wrong
So you better be strong
You got to be strong
You better be strong
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Ben Harper
I'm calling this the first of the Heaven songs. So, here we go: Heaven's life in the Willies.... What ever would Leigh have thought?
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
That's what has become of our love and trust
Love has no direction cause love has no aim
Love can leave you as fast as she came
Meeting is such sweet sorrow
Cause someday we may have to part
Hush don't you make a sound
You're gonna let me down
Good things to come to those who wait
But good things are gone from those who are late
All that I am is all I can give
But with or without you my life I must live
Meeting is such sweet sorrow
Cause someday we may have to part
Hush don't you make a sound
You're gonna let me down
Living ain't easy since you've been gone
No one else can please me or make me feel home
Forgetting ain't easy, you stay on my mind
Thoughts of us haunt me, can't leave them behind
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Dayna Manning
Another song for the Willies. Fanny definitely deserves a song of her own, and this is the song that I think of as her theme song throughout the series....
I want a big red car
And I want a fancy new guitar
I want a house with a big back deck
And I want to come home with a big paycheck
But I can't have everything I want
'Cause I can't have you
And I can't have everything I want
'Cause I can't have you
I want to be a star
And I want to be of age to get into the bar
I want to ride a Harley Davidson
And I want to live in a great big mansion
But I can't have everything I want
'Cause I can't have you
And I can't have everything I want
'Cause I can't have you
I want to sleep for hours and hours
I want a garden full of beautiful sunflowers
I want to go to B.C.
And I want to be friends with Tom Petty
But I can't have everything I want
'Cause I can't have you
And I can't have everything I want
'Cause I can't have you
I want someone to grant my wishes
I want a boy who'll blow me kisses
I want a friend that I can care for
And I want to find a love that's not so painful
But I can't have everything I want
'Cause I can't have you
And I can't have anything I want
'Cause I only want you
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Dixie Chicks
This is what Heaven would have called "Kitty's kind of music." Here's the Candlewick song....
There is no good reason I should have to be so alone
I'm smothered by this emptiness
Lord I wish I was made of stone
Like a fool I lent my soul to love
And it paid me back in change
God help me, am I the only one who's ever felt this way?
A heart that's worn and weathered
Would know better than to fight
But I wore mine like a weapon
Played out love like a crime
And it wrung me out and strung me out
And it hung years on my face
God help me, am I the only one who's ever felt this way?
Now my sense of humor needs a break
I see a shoadow in the mirror
And she's laughin' through her tears
One more smile's all I can fake
There is a wound inside me
And it's bleeding like a flood
There's times when I see a light ahead
Hope is not enough
As another night surrounds me
And it pounds me like a wave
God help me, am I the only one who's ever felt this way?
God help me, am I the only one who's ever felt this way?
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Fountains of Wayne
The lyrics to this first song from Dark Angel are a little difficult to hear, but they summarize Heaven's feelings as she goes to Boston and begins her life at Farthy and Winterhaven....
Slow down
There's gonna be trouble
You're gonna forget what you're doing
One false move, baby suddenly everything's ruined
Hold on you're gonna be sorry
You're gonna regret what you're doing
One false move, baby suddenly everything's ruined
And you ought to know
You ought to know
There's only one way this can go
You ought to know
You ought to know
All of the ups and downs,
the highs and lows
Slow down
There's gonna be trouble
You're gonna forget what you're doing
One false move, baby suddenly everything's ruined
One false move, baby suddenly everything's ruined
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Frederic Chopin
The first, and darker, of two Chopin pieces on this soundtrack. This one is my personal favorite. We have Reie to thank for pestering me about the other one! Love ya!
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Bette Midler
This is Troy's and Heaven's song for Dark Angel. I know that everyone has their own ideas of what their song should be, but this is the one we're going with for the soundtrack. Thank you for the suggestion Jammi!!
For all I've been blessed with in this life,
There was an emptiness in me.
I was imprisoned by the power of gold.
With one kind touch you sent me free.
Let the world stop turning.
Let the sun stop burning.
Let them tell me love's not worth going through.
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart
the only dream that mattered had come true:
In this life I was loved by you.
For every mountain I have climbed,
every raging river crossed,
you were the treasure that I longed to find.
Without your love I would be lost.
Let the world stop turning.
Let the sun stop burning.
Let them tell me love's not worth going through.
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart
the only dream that mattered had come true:
In this life I was loved by you.
I know that I won't live forever,
but forever I'll be loving you.
Let the world stop turning.
Let the sun stop burning.
Let them tell me love's not worth going through.
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart
the only dream that mattered had come true:
In this life I was loved by you.
In this life I was loved by you.
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Fastball
Heaven's return to Winnerow. Also known as "all hell breaking loose". Just don't ask me what an "electric boogaloo" is....
It ain't as easy as it looks
To grow flowers in the dirt
All of my friends are living underground
Put away your wedding ring
Out on highway 63
Let all your worries
Take their place in line
They love to tear you down
Living in this sweet soul town
Fall into the sound
A place to hide and room to move
My electric boogaloo
Don't you worry
The circus is in town
They love to tear you down
Living in this sweet soul town
Fall into the sound
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Indigo Girls
Once again, me being morbid. Troy's and Tom's death song: aka. the end of Dark Angel. Thanks for the suggestion Sammi!
Fare thee well my bright star
I watched your taillights blaze into nothingness
But you were long gone before I ever got to you
Before you blazed past this address
And now I think of having loved and having lost
But never knows what it feels like to never love
Who can say what's better when my heart becomes the cost?
A mere token of a brighter jewel sent from above
Fare thee well my bright star
The vanity of youth, the color of your eyes
And maybe if I'd fanned the blazing fire of your day-to-day
Or if I?d been older, I'd been wise
Too thick the heat of those long summer evenings
For a cool evening I began to yearn
But you could only feed upon the things which feed a fire
Waiting to see if I would burn
Fare thee well my bright star
It was a brief, brilliant miracle drive
That which I looked up to and I clung to for dear life
Had to burn itself up just to make itself alive
And I caught you then in your moment of glory
Your last dramatic scene against a night sky stage
With a moment so clear it's as if you're still before me
My once in a lifetime star of an age
So fare thee well my bright star
Last night the tongues of fire circled me around
And this strange season of pain will come to pass
When the healing hands of autumn cool me down
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Counting Crows
Bet you thought I wouldn't have one on here... kidding. This is for Logan and Heaven's reconciliation. The first song in Fallen Hearts.
Get away from me
This isn't gonna be easy
But I don't need you
Believe me
You got a piece of me
But it's just a little piece of me
And I don't need anyone
And these days I feel like I'm fading away
Like sometimes when I hear myself on the radio
Have you seen me lately?
Have you seen me lately?
I was out on the radio starting to change
Somewhere out in America, it's starting to rain
Could you tell me the things you remember about me
And have you seen me lately?
I remember me
And all the little things that make up a memory
Like she said she loved to watch me sleep
Like she said:
"It's the breathing, it's the breathing in and out and in and..."
Have you seen me lately?
I was out on the radio starting to change
Somewhere out in America it's starting to rain
Could you tell me the things you remember about me
And have you seen me lately?
I guess I thought that someone would notice
I guess I thought somebody would say something
If I was missing
Can't you see me?
Come on color me in
Come on color me in
Give me your blue rain
Give me your black sky
Give me your green eyes
Come on give me your white skin
Come on give me your white skin
Come on give me your white skin
I was out on the radio starting to change
Somewhere out in America, it's starting to rain
Could you tell me the things you remember about me
And have you seen me lately?
Have you seen me lately?
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Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong
Another classic song for a Farthy wedding. But, with this song, we have Heaven's memories of Troy during her wedding to Logan.
The way you wear your hat
The way you sip your tea
The memory of all that
No, no, they can't take that away from me
The way your smile just beams
The way you sing off key
The way you haunt my dreams
No, no, they can't take that away from me
Though we may never ever meet again
On this bumpy road to love
Still I'll always always keep the memory of
The way you hold your knife
The way we danced til three
The way you changed my life
No, no they can't take that away from me
No, they can't take that away from me
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Sarah Mclachlan
In my mind, this is THE song for Heaven and Troy. Here, we've decided to use it for their last meeting in the cottage....
Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide
Voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time
The night is my companion, and solitude my guide
Would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?
And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after, I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes dear
Through this world I've stumbled
So many times betrayed
Trying to find an honest word to find
The truth enslaved
Oh you speak to me in riddles
And you speak to me in rhymes
My body aches to breathe your breath
Your words keep me alive
And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after, I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes dear
Into this night I wander
It's morning that I dread
Another day of knowing of
The path I fear to tread
Oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride
Nothing stands between us here
And I won't be denied
And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after, I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes
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Beth Orton
This is a general song for Fallen Hearts: Heaven and Tony's confrontation... Fanny's pregnancy... the custody trial over Drake....
Took a friend I found 'cross some blood red river
Never did find my way home in time to forgive her
Why must people always want what they can't have?
Why must people always grab what they'd never grasp?
How did we get so far,
how did we move so fast away from the lilac lily glade?
Where I'm sure we used to stay
Is it only a dream away?
Took a raft I found 'cross some blood red river
Never did find my way home in time for my dinner
Why must people always want what they never had?
Why is it a crime to miss a part of you that's bled?
How did we get so far,
how did we move so fast away from the lilac lily glade?
Where I'm sure we used to stay
Is it only a dream away?
Only a dream away
Lost a friend I found down some blood red river
Never did find my way home in time to forget her
Why must people always want what they can't have?
Why must people always take but forget to ask?
How did we get so far,
how did we move so fast away from the lilac lily glade?
Where I'm told we used to play
Was it only a dream away?
* * * * *
Frederic Chopin
The second Chopin piece on the soundtrack. We're using this one as the one that plays in the music box cottage. Call this a song for both the end of Fallen Hearts and the beginning of Gates of Paradise.
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Kate Bush
This is a great song for Annie after her accident. It effectively sums up her struggles at Farthy and learning to walk again, along with her love for Luke Jr. Thanks Reie for finding the lyrics!
"You see, I'm all grown up now."
He said,
"Just put your feet down child,
'Cause you're all grown up now."
Just like a photograph,
I pick you up.
Just like a station on the radio,
I pick you up.
Just like a face in the crowd,
I pick you up.
Just like a feeling that you're sending out,
I pick it up.
But I can't let you go.
If I let you go,
You slip into the fog...
This love was big enough for the both of us.
This love of yours was big enough to be frightened of.
It's deep and dark, like the water was,
The day I learned to swim.
He said,
"Just put your feet down, child."
"Just put your feet down child,
The water is only waist high.
I'll let go of you gently,
Then you can swim to me."
Is this love big enough to watch over me?
Big enough to let go of me
Without hurting me,
Like the day I learned to swim?
"'Cause you're all grown up now.
Just put your feet down, child,
The water is only waist high.
I'll let go of you gently,
Then you can swim to me."
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John Denver
Annie's and Luke's song. 'Nuff said!
You fill up my senses
Like a night in the forest
Like the mountains in springtime
Like a walk in the rain
Like a storm in the desert
Like a sleepy blue ocean
You fill up my senses
Come fill me again
Come let me love you
Let me give my life to you
Let me drown in your laughter
Let me die in your arms
Let me lay down beside you
Let me always be with you
Come let me love you
Come love me again
You fill up my senses
Like a night in the forest
Like the mountains in springtime
Like a walk in the rain
Like a storm in the desert
Like a sleepy blue ocean
You fill up my senses
Come fill me again
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