Words from my heart to paper....
Please be kind and do not take my hearts work as your own.I just wanted to share the better of my writings with you so you will get a clearer picture of me than whats on my photo page.
Bitterness
Overhead the sun burns bright in an azure sky, such a study in contradictions to the emotions pumping through my soul
I saw you walking down the street, the new girl on your arm
You saw me, alone with my bags and books, hunched down against the chill winter air
You whispered to her and pointed, the two of you huddled together and laughed, the bitter air sweeping about the courtyard
swirling about the two of you as if you weren't there
I felt it cut through me, through my jacket and sweaters, through my flesh to my heart, stabbing the delicate organ with each
laugh and smile
I bowed my head and attempted to scurry away
You called my name, I heard you, but I kept running, away from you, away from her, away from myself
The Lesson
There's a pain, felt deep inside
Not physical, it's raw, pure emotion that bites you to the soul
There's a man on Second Street, his dark head bowed as he feels the pain slice through
his very being
The voice of his wife echoes in his head, "Goodbye, my Darling. Have a
..Wonderful..life.."
The sound of a frightened, hungry infant shatters his musing, parts the fog of sorrow
His daughter, so tiny, so innocent .. the only thing he holds more dear than the bright
lights, the cheer of a crowd, or the incredible rush of fame
The very things that brought him to this well-appointed prison, this opulent hotel room
The crowd mills about below, every once in a while, someone will scream his name
While a dozen more lead the rest in a verse or three of some old forgotten song from
days gone by
The mob of the press, the crush of girls, no longer held the appeal that once tempted
him
He longed for his simple life in the hills, his life of obscurity where he was happy
He had learned his long, hard life's lesson
Deep Dreamless Sleep
You sing to me as I drift to sleep...My soul drifting away into a land of dark and light combined
No sound can penetrate this underworld I've sunk myself deep down into ... only the sound of your voice as it breaks through
the haze ...
My world shifts and forms, the shades and shadows ever changing, ever growing..Your voice still steady in my mind
My universe and eternity could melt and rebuild themselves around the steady, warm tones of your breath
I watch the landscape slope...and I see the house that we've built together...and I see our love, tangible like a box or a stone..
I close my eyes... and I see your own eyes ... looking through me, clear and pure ...
I sigh softly, and I hear your voice steady and strong...Guiding me sweetly through my deep and dreamless sleep
Even in my deepest dreams, I can still feel your hand ... wrapped secure and immovable ... around my own ... and I allow
myself to let go and feel safe ....
I feel your warmth and it gives me strength to unleash my dreams and run wild through the chambers of my mind..
Never does an instant come that I don't feel you with me ... inside me, protecting me ... even still ...
My soul has wings, and you give it flight...I sore and tumble through the flashing images in my mind's eye...
Slowly I wake...and I find you ever near me, still singing softly, still holding me close, and I know you will be forever with me
The Battle
As midnight falls, and lovers do embrace
The night air is thick with deep and other-wordly grace
A silent stalker roams the streets
A hungry preditor on the prowl
An anxious and worried gentleman hurries along his
way
The street is empty ... the houses along them are full
The thrill of the hunt courses through the preditor's
viens
The stalker is calm and cold...Waiting, watching
The stalker glides softly along the slick dark
streets, unnoticed
Not even the anxious gentleman or the preditor
behind him
The winds howl through the naked tree tops, a thin
drizzle rains from the heavens
The gentleman turns
The preditor smiles
And still none see the stalker
The preditor attacks
The gentleman fights back
Yet the stalker does not move
It's over in a heart-beat
The preditor..Is dead
The stalker bows mockingly and then the real fight
begins
Student against teacher
Friend against friend
The battle is hard fought and hard won
And the winner stands alone...
Now in the deep dark shadows after midnight, the
gentleman bows mockingly to the dead
Untitled
In your arms I would gladly lay, our hearts beating as one
If I could take back every word, and sooth your aching soul, would you love me?...Could you love me?
Would you forgive me for the cruel way I treated you?
Could you forget all that I've done?
Does your heart still sound the same?...Beating strong and steady beneath your chest.
Do you still believe in love...or trust...Or faith?
Can you believe in me?....Can you believe in what could be?
Take me back into your arms, make the cold cruel night disappear
Make the mornings brighter, we can't be happy forever, but let us be happy for now.
Tortured Dreams
As I hold you in my arms and the sunlight slides down your face
My mind wanders back to a different time and place..
We used to be a couple, a single unit you-and-I
As I think about it, it makes me want to cry
I wonder what happened to make you change so much
And I wonder why to seem to freeze a single accidental touch
My heart has been broken, and my soul shattered in two
Why can't you remember all the good things we use to say and do?
A lone tear slips down my pale cheek
And I realize...It is not for myself I weep
I cry for you and your pain,
And I can only begin to comprehend you
And there is nothing I can do to save you from this darkness
From your tortured dreams...
And I Fly
There are good days, there are bad days, Winds bring
change, and maybe some rain.
Today is a good day, and I think it pays, To remember
the words of one
Lois Lane,
Who do you think you are, Clark Kent?
Superman? You can't fly you know."
Yes, and I know just what she meant,
And find once again it is time to go.
The streets are slick from the morning drizzle,
And steaming pancakes await at home.
Maybe my business deals will fizzle,
But then tommorow I'll be in Nome,
Ready to tackle the world again,
Wowing the planet with my expertise,
Famous now for my legerdemain,
Please don't think I'm just a tease.
It's time I think to make a mark,
Indelible as ink upon the brains,
Of all those fools to whom life is a lark.
They give the rest of us such pains!
Cape in hand, Lois not withstanding,
It's time for me to finally take wing.
And so I climb out onto the landing...
Listen to the heavenly choir sing!
And I fly!!!
