Second Chance

I apologize
I allowed myself to hurt you
What I said,
What I did,
Who I was.
I wrote letters to form words
words to form sentences
sentences making a story about you.
This story forced your past to surface.
I made you recall unspoken horrors
I forced you to face your inner-self.
I want a second chance...

I'm sorry
I spoke without thinking.
I exposed you to the world
and laughed.
Your misery gave me joy.
I had no heart.
I need a second chance...

Forgive me
for glaring with hate,
hate towards you, the public, and myself.
I struck you down with my own fears.
I never meant to be this way.
I never meant to make you afraid,
Afraid I will turn,
Afraid I would kill.
All I wanted was for you to know the truth about me.
but you twisted my intentions on behalf of my tone.
Will you give me a second chance?

I beseech you,
on my knees,
my nose to the ground.
I let my feelings spread onto you.
I wish to be free of my past mistakes.
I pray for the day I can make you smile.
All I need is a second chance,
a chance to stand in the light of God,
a chance to let you be comfortable with me,
a chance to see the world without hate...

The chance that no one will ever let me have.