Silent Pleas!!
Freedom lurkes behing my eyes,
In the darkest corners I feel it start to die.
I wonder where my life has gone.
Is it my wish to die here or live on.
My life has been tormented by lies and hurts.
so many times has my trust for people burst.
I gaze back into their eyes,
feeling there stares and seeing past their lies.
Why can't these people just let me be.
To cry in shame, and wander free.
From a young age I was used for lust.
Is it any wonder now, that I can trust.
My brothers and sisters have all left me.
Gone away to far away places that only they can see.
They know not my anguish and silent pleas
Nor do they understand the pain inside of me.
I have seen the hurt and anger of the human mind.
But it doesn't compare to the depth of mine inside.
The earth's torments are nothing compared to mine.
I have seen the worst but failed to unwind.
For the Child!
For every child who cries at night
Alone with shame and pain and fright
For every child who wants so much
To only feel a gentle touch
For the beaten child, who cries in pain
Whose tears run silent, like the rain
For the child used to satisfy lust
Who never learns to love or trust
For the child taken from his home
And made to feel so all alone
For the child whose home is just a shell
Where life becomes a living hell
For the child who smiles but cannot feel
Because of scars too deep to heal
For every child who yearns for love
I hope and pray to the Goddess above
To hear your cries and heal your pain
And give you back your life again
My Greatest Fear!
My only fear is to die alone.
With only a priest to bury my bones.
I hate to think of all the songs I will miss from the meadowlark.
Or the wife I won't have when dad replaces Mark.
You know who you are, You know that I care.
You know what was behind all those empty stares.
You know my hurt, You know my pain.
You know how I struggled not to go insane.
You know my love, You know my hate.
You know how I feel that you are my fate.
I wish for you to see life through my eyes.
How I struggled to live, How I struggled to die.
Corridors of the mind!
As I walk through the corridors of my mind.
I gather my thoughts and try to unwind.
I stumble over a body as still as death.
Wondering if that was the wind or a puff of breath.
I kick the leg and caress the face.
Seeing things flit across my eyes at a turtles pace
I try to rip open my heart and feed my life to him.
Falling over him with my blood pouring into his everlasting grin.
Images race through my mind, memories of past hurts.
I breath my last breath,onto the ground, I feel my heart begin to burst.