Revelations

I will not disguise these words
with excessive rhetoric of past experience
or an unwarranted belief that you are capable
of accepting them,
but perhaps with an understanding
that leaving behind what is comfortable and safe
is a work in process,
a revelation.

Walking blindly and coming ever so close to convincing myself,
I wasn't worthy.
Building walls and sheltering myself from life's pain
is all too simple, inevitably keeping love at bay.

Constant observances, countless questions,
and doubting the infinite wisdom of my child,
my spiritual worth, and intuitive nature, "I have reclaimed,"
a revelation.

What others achieve so easily,
I complicate with fierce thought
and uncompromising will of demise.
It is here I see beginnings
and immerse myself in it's pleasure.
"I know patience bid me well."

Never let these words be met with a world's definition
of how one holds or bestows love,
but with a simple understanding,
these are my emotions simply expressed,
a revelation.