ONLINE JOURNAL
(another bloody fool's thoughts)
|8-09-99|
So, you have happened upon one of my sites. I hope you have enjoyed looking as much as I have enjoyed creating them. This is of course what you have probubly seen on a million other pages across the net.
(especially since there are few truly new ideas left in the world.)
An online journal. You know one of those delightful little pages that allows you to read ones diary of semi private thoughts, without feeling guilty or getting caught. (Grin)
I can't promise you will find anything new here, only the thoughts of a 23 year old female in a stagnant world, slowly passing my days till oblivion. Oh yea this sounds good. To let you know right off I am not usually this morbid in person. I am actually more the class clown type. You will see that side off and on aswell of course.
Well on to the show.
What does one put into a journal,left out for everyone to see? Do I rant about how shitty life is? Or put on a happy face and say WhooHoo ring a ding ding and all that jazz? (Grin) Hell with it. If you took the time to look at this page and are still reading all this, I have for some reason caught a moment of time in your life. So I shall honor the favor with the truth as I see it in all matters.
I will try not to dispense little tedious facts life How Janeane Garofolo is my favorite actress and how I went to see Mystery Men today. I doubt you are here for the myriad of details that make up ones existance but more for how I look at them and other things.
I could be wrong, I could be long winded (wink), I could be a polititian aswell.
Ever find life to be just a confusing mess? I usually feel as though I have to many beans on my 2nd grade bingo card and can no longer see the numbers/letters. I definetly didn't win the prize though. Then again whom of us has? It's ironic really, There you are 10 years old looking at the teenagers thinking when I am 16 I will have it together! I will have this, this, and the cutes boy/girl friend ever.
Theeeeeen! Whalla! You either have to much acne, or no money, or something and other than maybe skippin' school once in awhile to go shoot pool, you have no life & certanly no mate. Then of course you think when I am 18 I will be an adult! I will have it all. *snicker Ok I have a joe Job and still haven't decided what I want to be. When I am 21 Life will be good. *grumble Ok whats the joke?!
See I have a life much like everyones. My job sucks and doesn't pay enough. I have no time for a life. I may be pregnant...oooor I may just have something wrong with me. (2 months late but tests were negative last month, this time.) So horrid job and possible health problems. on the other hand. I am married to the sweetest guy, and I might be pregnant. How I look at all this depends purely on my mood that day. Somedays I'm all jokes and reasonably happy, and somedays I wake up and I am freak of nature for the day! (as you sit there thinking.....hmmmm must be a freak day..(grin)). Today was actually a good day short of seeing my arch nemisis at the Renn. Fest today.
Well I Believe it is time to vacate for awhile.
Bright Blessings!
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