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Lady Bethany's Beliefs
What I Really Believe
Even though I tend to be silly at times and can get easily confused my mind still tends to work a mile a minute I think everything out turning it over and over in my mind and I decided that I needed to write to write things down because to me that is the easiest way for my mind and me to sort things out ..........
This all came about when I started questioning myself I mean everyone questions themselves at times right and well with heather and her different believes I started to question but now I have reached a conclusion because no matter what anyone says this is what I believe with all my heart with all my being you may call me what you will but I do not care for to me these thoughts and believes are something that just are it is as simple as that.
When I first started I was lured to the Wiccan ways I was in awe of the difference of it and the seemingly endless possibilities it was almost like a good book come true it had danger in it and controversy. So I began my path with that thought I picked a name a name that I was told had to be picked because it was how things were so I picked Lady Rhiannon because it sounded neat and it had to do with horses then I meant alot of other Rhiannons so I added Rayne to it and came up with Lady Rhiannon Rayne why Rayne you might ask I do not know maybe cause it looked different and I love the sound of rain no ones knows really why people choose certain things. Well I networked alot meant people heard things read things bought books and such and I became confused I became confused by the different things people told me the contradictions the this is how it is and must be it took me awhile to mutter through that and then I really began to learn and to think for myself I learned that not one person is truly right and the same so I begin to pick pieces and such of what I heard and glued them into a collage of thinking away of being. Then I began to question that once again and now I have searched and asked myself what do I truly believe.............sure I still have questions and not all the answers and I probably never will but I have now come to understand myself a little more and in that I have become one with myself I believe I am now at peace when I first started writing this I was ready to give up ready to stop to just live with nothing but now I am not now I am seeing how my faith is a part of me and always will be and these words are coming from a place inside of me that has never really been tapped before and now I feel alive I feel empowered and I am ready to say what I believe...........here I go.................
In the beginning a great energy was manifested who knows of what but this energy evolved and began to grow much like a person in certain ways it began to think and to live but it was not human for it was made up of life itself and in the energy the seeds of the world as we know it developed the energy not being able to be quite alive wanted to live in a way on its own it wanted to learn and to grow so it took parts of itself and made the world the earth life itself and after a while things happened the seeds began to sprout and to evolve and up came man. Man in itself is a part of this energy and it was put on this earth to learn to learn for the divine energy above I do not know if this is the only plane of existence but my being screams at me no no for in away that would be selfish ...............We are not superior beings we are just tools part of the divine energy that was made to learn about the world and its feelings and such so we learn we learn all kinds of things over many life spans we learn about love and lust and pain we learn about our good sides and our bad sides all aspects that anyone could ever learn and when we die we begin the process again we learn some more until we are really wise as one can be and then we join with the energy that gave us life and it learns in turn from us becoming even greater and closer to being alive itself and then when we join another new being is sprung another who needs to learn ......Why does the energy do this I believe it does this because it is making sure being positive that it has covered all learning experiences and also because learning is never done even for a divine presence for the world itself is always changing and its people with it so lets say a person who has lived eons of times thinks it has learned all there is and join with the energy but then the tides change the world shifts humanity shifts and there is even more to learn I believe that this learning process will never be complete your soul might feel complete but the energy never will..............I also believe that you can change reality by using bits and pieces of the energy around you and yourself as a tool because you are the energy in the flesh and that is how magick is used.............you do not need candles or potions all you need is yourself but candles and such aren't wrong either because we as humans like to have something tangible to use something we can see and feel and focus our energy on............I also believe that other religions are not wrong either for they are all aspects of the divine energy different faces different stories different titles and so on. Mankind I believe does this because it likes again something tangible to believe in something they can see a bit of themselves in for it is hard for them to see that the energy is inside of them that they are all part of the divine.........................so to me when someone says goddess or god or Isis or Epona they all mean aspects of the divine energy............the one being that is sexless and all knowing but yet is still evolving just like us............................so to me I believe in myself and the human race I believe in the earth around me and its energies I believe in the divine presence and its as simple as that. And I say this now with all my heart and being this to me is the truth and nothing anybody says will ever change it for me for it is who I am and what I believe and I hope that I can grow with this and become the person I am met to be no I know I will grow from this..........................it is not something I do or something I practice it is something I live something I love and something that will always love me ...........
so in saying this I feel free I feel like I know my true being sure I have questions but never shall I question my faith again.......................... Lady Bethany
