key to my life

stephen

(note from Laura: Thanx to Mia for this! Check out Boyzone Funzone for more great fanfics of Mia's!)

...a little note to stephen's gay fans out there: erm... now it isn't fair that stephen always gets paired with a guy in fanfics is it? so i decided that stephen had to be str8 once in a while. and stephen's being paired with moi. muahahaha.... and, no, i'm not homophobic. hehe....

(mia can see all them gay guys frowning at her in disgust...)

Rain on the window covers the trace.

Of all the tears that I've had to waste

And now I'm missing you so

And I won't let you go away

November 2000.

It was raining. Mia loved rain. Another thing Mia had in common with Stephen. One of the things that brought them together. She sat by the fire place alone listening to the songs in the Where we Belong album. Listening to Stephen's singing. Listening to Stephen sing to her.

Tears ran down Mia's cheeks. She was so lonely. She felt as bad as Stephen was probably feeling homesick now. Stephen was always on tour. Leaving Mia home alone. Alone in Ireland. Away from her family.

Mia had thought about continuing their relationship millions of times. Stephen, where is he now? she thought to herself. How far are you from me?

Sure he did call her a lot. He called everyday, every time he could. But that just wasn't enough for Mia. She wanted to be with him. She wanted him to cuddle and touch her. Stephen was promoting his solo album now. Early next year, he'd be touring with Boyzone promoting their 5th album. Including March. March 12th and March 17th 2001.

Stephen wouldn't be there on her 17th birthday and she wouldn't be with him on his 25th birthday. But although she knew she didn't want a long-distance relationship and hardly knew where Stephen was everyday, deep inside she knew she loved him. And she didn't want Stephen to go.

Stain on the desktop where coffee-cup lay

And memories of you forever will say

And the scent of your perfume

And the smile on your face will remain

Stephen's last empty cup of coffee was still on Mia's computer desk. It had been there since Stephen left a week ago. But Mia didn't want to put it in the dishwasher. No. She just left it like that. She liked it that way. It kept the feeling of Stephen's presence alive. Mia printed out all the emails Stephen sent her from all around the world. She kept them in her little drawer next to here bed. She'd take them out and read them before she went to sleep in his shirt. The scent of his perfume and after-shave always created that pleasant feeling deep inside of her. But it never lasted long, she'd end up crying afterwards. Hugging Patrick, the baby blue teddy Stephen sent her from somewhere to keep her warm at night. She'd cry herself to sleep imagining Stephen was there with her, smiling at her making her feel peace.

And I never gave up hope when things got me down

But I just bit on my lip as my face began to frown

Cos that was just my pride and I've nothing left to hide

And now the way is clear and all I want to say is..

Mia was always in a bad mood when Stephen wasn't around. Time at school felt longer, jokes just weren't funny anymore. And ended up being in the headmaster's office for keeping her mobile on in class. She couldn't help it. Just couldn't miss a single call from Stephen. He always reminded her not to, because her teachers would end up ringing Stephen, but she wouldn't listen.

"Don't do that honey. I can always call you after call, you know."; "Oh, I'm sorry honey. I didn't mean to bother. I just can't keep in track with Dublin time."; "Mia, how many times have I told you not to turn the damn thing on in class? Now get back in class. Or Mrs. Kelly will call me for being responsible again."

And Mia would always answer the same: "But Steo..."

"Now get back, sweetie. I'll call you when you get home."

"Promise?"

"I promise, baby."

All of my life the doors have been closed now

And all of my dreams have been locked up inside

But you came along and captured my heart, Stephen

You're the Key to my Life

Yeah

Stephen always managed to cheer Mia up when she was down. And give her warm caring hugs when she needed them. He listened to every single word she said in patience. Mia had never knew anyone who was as good as listening than Stephen. He opened her heart. Mia told Stephen all her thoughts. All her deep thoughts. Good and bad thoughts. Mia would listen to Stephen sing to her before she slept. She loved it.

Year after year was blaming myself

For what I'd done, just thought of my self

I know that you'll understand

This was all my own fault, don't go away

Stephen wished he could be home with Mia all the time. The guilt of leaving Mia all the time like that. Making Mia cry on the phone. Stephen would've left her long ago if she asked him to leave the band or stop touring. But she didn't. She never did anything like that. All she asked for was for him to spend a little more time with her. Nothing more.

Mia sat in front of her computer, and opened her email account. The corners of her lips curved up a happy smile.

Another email from "Your Baby Steo".

She opened it...

Girl you know that I feel for you

There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do

Stop the thunder and the pouring rain

You're the one who's gonna stop the pain

Girl you know that I feel for you

There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do

Stop the thunder and the pouring rain

Listen to me, can't you here what I say..

Hello Mia baby,

Howya. I'm in Bali now. I'm having a great time, though it would be much better if you were here with me. It's really lonely. Hope you're doing fine. Don't turn your phone on in class. You wouldn't want Mrs. Kelly preaching me for being the cause of all the rings in class again, would you now? Some of the fans said hi to you.

Here's some good and bad news. The 5th Boyzone album is postponed. But that'll mean we can spend your 17th birthday and my 25th birthday together.

Lotsa Love,

Your Baby Steo. You're the Key To My Life, Mia.