Chronology

(Continued)


An email to Kaipaka...

Subj: Re: Tribute to EzeeTwo - Another Update
Date: 10/23/00 6:10:37 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
To: Kaipaka
BCC: LadyZinnia

Dear Kai:

Not for me, life has been a wonderful experience. Having money was not something that impressed me that much. Jim's familly always had money, and they worried so much about how to save it that they missed out on enjoying what they had. I always had what I needed, and spent foolishly on what material things I thought I wanted. Now, in my process of dying, I find I am giving things away that I won't have time to use or enjoy. What a turn-about that is!! And how liberating an experience.

Luvya,

~Judy


An e-mail from Broomhilda

Subj: Fwd: Adversity
Date: 10/24/00 2:16:50 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

-----------------Forwarded Message:
Subj: Adversity
Date: 10/23/00 9:29:52 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: BroomHlda3
To: EZee Two

Dear Judy: I am so sorry about your debilitating illness. I know I have been very angry with you in the past but I certainly would never have wished for this to happen to you. You are an extremely brave lady in the face of such adversity. I hope when my time comes I will be able to follow your example. No need for you to answer if it is too difficult for you.

Ruth


Subject: Re: speaking of cancer and prayers needed
Date: 10/23/00 6:01 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two

Dear Kai:

So sorry about your cousin's child. I would be happy to put her on my prayer list. I also believe as you do in regards to the eastern tradition that you only leave our earthly home when you have completed the things you were sent here to accomplish. I guess that's why I'm still here Still some unfinished business. I have to keep believing this will all be made known to me down the road.

Love to you and your family.

~Judy


Subject: Hot off the presses
Date: 10/24/00 2:45 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two

Dear friends:

This morning the Hospice nurse decided that I should have oxygen available for those days I am short of breath. They delivered an oxygen machine and a portable tank to take with me if I should go out.

DARNIT...I can't smoke while I have the oxygen turned on. Now ain't that the pits????

~Judy


Email to Zinny...

Subj: Re: Hot off the presses
Date: 10/25/00 10:04:26 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: [email protected] (EZee Two)
To: [email protected]

Zinny:

I also light candles for prayer. I have a corner in my "den" where I have some Icons. I love to light candles there, ane when I see he candle burning in there I feel very comforted.

It never ceases to amaze me how much we have in common. BTW, both doctors and Hospice tell me to go ahead and smoke. We are working for quality time, and not quantity

Luvya,

~Judy


Subject: Re: speaking of cancer and prayers needed
Date: 10/25/00 10:23 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two

Kai, Darlin':

Your assessment of my level of consciousness is a surprise. I'm very pleased with your posting. I'm just putting my concentration on being an example to others as a person who can surrender ALL. That material things are not the sum and substances of who we are....there is much, much more to the meaning of life. The mind and one's consciousness are more than lip service. Life is more, much much more. And the more time we spend meditating and

praying, the more we open ourselves to receiving the message of our very existance. Surrender is the escence (sp?)of attaining the Truth. My new found church has shown me many things I had never seen before.

As for the cigarettes, as I posted previously, I have permission of the Dr. and Hospice.

Judy


Subject: Re: music
Date: 10/25/00 10:27 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
Message-id: [email protected]>

Kai:

Sending me tapes or CD's of good Hawaiian music is helping keep my spirits up. I am looking forward very much to receiving them.

And I truly think it is a wonderful gesture, and I thank you.

~Judy


Subj: Re: Where are you?
Date: 10/26/00 10:30:13 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Zinny:

I'm sorry that one family member is moving away but you have much to look forward to with the new baby coming. Thanks be to God that Kato has a loving, caring husband. I rejoice daily that my Jim is such blessing to me. Some of the daily care routine can be difficult, if not embarrasing. But Jim keeps my sense of humour alive by making a joke about it. Don't be embarrased, but he is my chief "poop inspector." What courage it takes to handle that job.

I'm having lots more trouble with my speaking. Picture this: a woman who can't speak much above a whisper, living with a man who hates to wear his hearing aids.

Yikes! LOL.......just another test for my patience.

Sweetie, I have converted to the Orthodox Christian Church this past year. Candles are a special thing to me. I have several Icons in my guest, all purpose room, and I

light many a candle. It is something very special to those of us who believe that our prayers are sent through the flame, and as the smoke rises, so does our belief that God hears our prayers. I have something else I use occasionally. I have some church incense, and a hand-held burner. I light a small piece of charcoal, then sprinkle the incense pellets on the hot charcoal, and just smell the incense as it burns. It is to die for!! The Bible tells to let our prayers ascend as incense....my translation. We all do what makes us comfortable, it's just a visible sign of our prayer life.

Glad you honor St Therese, the Little Flower. She is a very wonderful saint, and a wonderful example to us of a life of suffering made holy.

In Orthoxy the favorite prayer of all is: "O, Lord, Jesus Christ have mercy on me a sinner." Very short, easy to say any time of day, silently or aloud. I pray that prayer when I am waiting to fall asleep.

Well, I think it's time to read your next EMail......God Bless you and your family. Your future holds such promise. A new grandbaby! And your restored healtLuvya much, my Friend.

~Judy


Subj: Re: smokers
Date: 10/26/00 10:40:50 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Unfortunately, dear old Jim is an ex smoker, and the only day he is allowed to pick on me is Sundays. If he starts bitching at me in the middle of the week, I have to remind him of what day it is.

But I have more fun with people who wag their finger in my face about smoking. I just tell them my Dr. told me to go ahead and enjoy my life, and that includes smoking. Boy!! Does that stop them in their tracks!! (I don't think I'll be the anti smoking campaign poster girl this year..........LOLOL)

More later,

I love you dearest,

~Judy


Subj: (no subject)
Date: 10/25/00 10:45:35 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Dearest One:

The site is awesome, and you loaded my VERY favorite song to accompany the site.

Zinny, Luv, how can I ever repay you? The only thing I can do is to keep you in my prayers, which I am already doing. You are my dearest friend.

Judy


Subject: Re: Hot off the presses
Date: 10/25/00 2:10 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
Message-id: [email protected]>

Dear Sweet:

You have just made a deal. If I do go into remission, you are invited to come and watch me while I undergo nicotine withdrawal!!

In fact we can have a cigarette withdrawal party! Oh lordy, what a concept....LOLOL

~Judy


A lovely post from Izzi -

Subject: Re: Hot off the presses
Date: 10/26/00 9:14 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: Iz1113
Message-id: [email protected]>

<< I also light candles for prayer. I have a corner in my "den" where I have some Icons. I love to light candles there, ane when I see he candle burning in there I feel very comforted. >>

Judy: tho we've never met, I must tell you how inspired I am by your courage and faith. I, too, find comfort in going to the chapel and lighting a candle and saying a prayer.

Thank you for all your inspiring posts.

God loves you.


Subject: Re: ...a beautiful being leaves his body..gently
Date: 10/26/00 7:13 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
Message-id: [email protected]>

Kai:

I mourn with you the passing of your guru.

A peaceful death is the hope of us all. You did have the time to prepare for his passing. That is a blessing for alll who care deeply for others.

~Judy


Subject: Re: John Paulie
Date: 10/26/00 7:15 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
Message-id: [email protected]>

Dear Nadi:

Your friend's death did not go unnoticed. We here in Hearth embrace you in the hope that we can give you a little bit of ourselves to help you through the grieving process.

We love you.

~Judy


Subject: Re: Hot off the presses
Date: 10/26/00 7:22 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two

Dear Glo:

Told Jim today that my hands are failing rapidly, and he might have his wish for a non-smoking wife purty soon....LOL

Oh, but will I MISS those smelly old cigarettes. In one of my catalogs for the handicapped they sell a gadget that someone can put your cigarette in, an attached ash tray, and a tube they can stick in my mouth so I can smoke "hands free". My goodness I may be ordering one very soon. ROTFL.....boy!! am I stubborn!!

!Judy


A post from Glo...

Subject: Re: Hot off the presses
Date: 10/27/00 3:23 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: Glorious

Judy!!

I am having my first chuckle of the day as I read your post. Not however, without a touch of sadness that you have to resort to such aids!

<< In one of my catalogs for the handicapped they sell a gadget that someone can put your cigarette in, an attached ash tray, and a tube they can stick in my mouth so I can smoke "hands free". My goodness I may be ordering one very soon. ROTFL.....boy!! am I stubborn!!

!Judy>>

I am sure that all of you here remember those outrageous Rube Goldberg inventions that used to be in the comic strips..(when comic strips were comical)

Can you picture Judy tootling around on her scooter, with one of those things attached to her mouth?

glo

PS While I am still chuckling. Please send me an 800 # where I can order one of those catalogs for myself!! (I am not jesting..!!)


Subject: Re: Hot off the presses
Date: 10/27/00 11:58 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two

Dear Glo:

I'm trying to get the catalog out of the magazine rack. I have to use those long handled "grabbers" (for those of us who keep dropping stuff. When I am successful I'll be back with the phone # for you and the item # .

Luvya.

~Judy

PS...scooters are too wide to go through the door frame. I have a "Mini" Jazzy wheelchair.


Subject: Re: Hot off the presses
Date: 10/27/00 5:26 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: SStan82366

>so I can smoke "hands free".

LOL. I do understand this one, Judy. I have now been a non-smoker for 19 months and 6 days. And it still smells good to me to walk into an area where someone has just lit up.

Sherry
Podner at Heart


Subj: Fwd: Hot stuff:
Date: 10/28/00 2:25:53 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Just a copy of a letter.

-----------------Forwarded Message:
Subj: Re: Hot stuff:
Date: 10/28/00 2:24:54 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
To: Glorious

Glo:

Yes, my husband and I watched Bill Moyer's series on death and dying. We have all the paperwork done and notarized, and also my DNR form. I want no stomach tubes, and no tracheotomy with a breathing machine. I want a natural death. By deciding these things now, I have taken any decision making away from my kids. Basically it's an act of love on my part so that they won't have to agonize over those decisions. The program was a little hard to watch, but it helped Jim and I to make other decisions that we hadn't had time to make. Our attorney drove 45 miles and came to our house to draw up the paperwork. It was so much easier to do in my own home, and made that process so very much easier on us all. I want to approach all of this in a non-emotional setting. Oh, don't get me wrong.......I do cry sometimes, but they are tears of frustration from being trapped in a body that no longer works the way I want it to. But I keep on fighting, my faith sustains me.

Most of all I need to keep up-beat for Jim's sake. And having Hospice is sooooo helpful. It's hard for him, and he need a break badly. And we work together very well.

Well, it's time to go for today. Please keep in touch.

Luvya!!

Judy


Subject: Re: Hot spots
Date: 10/28/00 4:32 PM Pacific Daylight Time
From: EZee Two
Message-id: [email protected]>

MARY....{{{{{{HUGs}}}}}}

Just went into one of the sites in your posting, and it was awesome!! Thanks so much for giving me another voice for encouraging other sufferers who have ALS.

~Judy


Subj: Re: Hands and arms
Date: 10/31/00 6:51:06 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Dear Zinny:

I think in the next few days I will lose all use of my arms and hands. I am spilling food all over my bib. Jim has taken to putting my food in a coffee cup, and I eat it with a spoon. I cried a little bit over that, but Jim says it's all right. Just try do do what I can, and what I can't he'll help me with. Just another bump in the road, along with the increasing inability to talk. The Hospice nurse said today that the most horrible part of this DD, is that your mind is unaffected, and it sees all that is happening to your failing body. Tonight I ordered the Bible on tape. I can't just sit in the wheelchair and vegetate, I must keep my mind active and learning, learning, learning. And stay in a state of prayer to keep my mind open to the Will of God.

Thank God I have you, encouraging me, and helping me to stay positive.

Luvya,

~Judy


Hi Zinnia,

I wanted this for my family, something to remind them I was happy, and had my chin up.

Latest update: Swallowing meats, and other dry foods is more difficult. But Jim is adapting well, and making very tasty meals. My breathing is getting shallower, and some mornings I feel very ligh-headed from lack of oxygen, I guess. I have now developed arthritis in both knees and my elbows. I now sleep on my back, with a pillow under my knees, and a lambs' wool piece of fabric under my feet, so that the hours I am asleep, I don't get pressure sores on my heels. I can't reach or pick up anything that is further away than a foot. If it's any further away than that I knock things over trying to reach for it. Sometimes things get to be #@%&&*++##@.

But I'm hanging in there. Jim and I were talking this afternoon about "how soon." etc." I think we are both very tired. And sooner rather than later has been on both our minds. I know Jim loves me, as I do him, but it is exhausting for both of us. It isn't morbid for us to think this way. I hurt for Jim when I see him so exhausted that he can't shake off a sinus infection. And he can't bear to see me like this. We feel like the inevitable is not too far down the road, but it's taking a lot of strength for Jim to care for me. And I want him to be able to have some quality of life after I'm gone.

More later, Sweetie..................

~Judy


Subject: Re: Bee Smooth's husband
Date: 10/30/00 2:24 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two

Bee:

I don't expect you to take the time to answer each of us, but I did feel a need to express my thoughts to you. Bee, I wish I were there to give you a comforting hug. That's the sort of person I am. I am praying that the both of you will be all right. I don't want to print a repitition of what others have said, but they have said it better than I could. Just think of me, with my arm around you, comforting you at this difficult time. Of course I

wish I could be there to keep you company. I can't, but be assured that if I could I would. I'll keep track of your husband's progress, and I will rejoice when he is well enough to come home and you can both celebrate together.

I love ya,

Judy


Subj: Re: Updates!
Date: 11/1/00 6:57:22 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

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I wouldn't want anyone else to speak in my behalf but you!

I love you dearly, you are a "once in a lifetime" friend, my Girl.

I'm off to bed with soft, warm, fuzzy thoughts about you, Girl

I posted in the website, I'll let you read it.

Luvya,

~Judy


Subj: Re: EZEE TWO
Date: 11/1/00 8:06:33 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: [email protected] (BKEN123)
To: [email protected]

Zinny..... Can Judy afford to get the voice activated program???? If not, I bet we Seniornetters would pitch in and donate for her...I know I sure would.

Love,
BarbK


Subj: Check out Say IT 2000
Date: 11/1/00 6:58:20 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: Barby Lu7
To: LadyZinnia

Click here: Say IT 2000

I found this parked in my fav places from long ago. Dont know if it would help in Judy's case or not. Thought I would send it on for your thoughts. I send her a card a day if for nothing else than maybe bring her a smile.

I have also mentioned to her the marijuana that my son was on. He started out with Morphine every 6 hours with a Codene and Percodet in between ( in other words, a heavy duty pain relief every 2 hours) and hated being in the foggy stupor that he was in. Friends came to visit, and my house smelled like a dope den one night. The next Monday at his chemo, I asked the MD for the pills, he wrote the script, and that is all he had until the end. I asked him what it really did, and he said "Momma, it still hurts like hell, but I don't give a damn." That was good enough for me!

Of course, it also kept me out of jail, for I would have gone shopping and probably gotten caught as well.

He also asked for Viagra, but go the no for that one <G>

Oh well, can't have everything I guess.

I am so glad to hear you are doing well! Darn if you don't get to Florida one day in the future! Would love to have you here in December! Of course, if wishes were horses, we would all be covered in doo-doo! If the lottery numbers show up at my breakfast table some Sunday morning, I will come there first!

Hugs and love,

Barby


Subj: To many wonderful "unmet" friends!
Date: 11/2/00 7:01:16 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: JoytheClown
To: LadyZinnia

My life has been so enriched with the wonderful, inspiring people I have met through the computer. When I think about the miniscule problems I face every day, I'm ashamed! I've had my share of illnesses and operations, but at 78 to be able to still do what I can is truly a blessing. I am like Zinny, though, wish I could asorb some of your prolems to lessen them for you. It sounds like you have an angel for a husband--and he is lucky to have had you for a wife. Thanks for your part in my cyber life, and I wish you strength for what is still ahead. My prayers will be there for you.

Love, "Joy" the Clown.


Subject: EzeeTwo
Date: 11/1/00 11:16 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: Donut OOOO

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Subj: web page
Date: 11/2/00 4:20:45 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

My eldest grandson posted. Did you read it? The reason we don't see much of each other is that he chose to stay with his dad when Joni and her soon to be ex moved to Iowa. His dad didn't treat him well at all, sad to say. He graduated High School, went into the Army, then got out, and is in the National Guard. The Army is paying for his college, which he starts in January. A kid with a head screwed on right!!

Luvya,

~Judy


Subj: Re: good vibrations
Date: 11/2/00 6:19:32 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Dear Zinny:

Thanks for the compliment. Yes, some are good, and some are horrid! *grins*

I ordered a voice activatedd program the other day. I am waiting with baited breath

Watch, just when I have it all set up, the voice will get weaker..LOL

Darlin', I've got to go to bed, my leg is very painful. Just a pinched nerve, but ooohhhh, it reeeaally hurts.

Luvya

~Judy..........................................did you know the symbol next to my name is a wave. I'm waving atcha


Subj: Pleasant surprises
Date: 11/3/00 11:35:24 AM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: Kaipaka
BCC: LadyZinnia

Dear Miki:

When Jim went uptown yesterday I asked him to be on the lookout for another cassette player, because the one I had hummed so loud I could hardly hear the music. When he came home later, he surprised me with a new cassette player with a "super bass" feature on it, and a walkman CD player, and the sound on that was absolutely fantabulous!! Now I can play either tapes and CD's, which I have tons of. Life is good!! I can now listen to the new audio tapes of that book I recently bought, and go to the library to borrow the "talking books" they have.

And Hospice is going to provide me with Ensure, since my swallowing problem is getting worse with some foods. I am aghast at how wonderful Hospice is. I can stay home in my own surroundings, which is what I want, and it's a big help for Jim.

More later

~Judy


Subj: Check out The Old Rugged Cross
Date: 11/5/00 8:41:18 AM Pacific Standard Time
From: Candy0Lane
To: LadyZinnia

Click here: The Old Rugged Cross

A good Sunday morning to you.....I just wanted you to know I pray for you each night, and EZee is also in my prayers.......God bless you both....

I have loved this old hymn since I was a child, and I hope you enjoy this as much as I.......

Candy


Subj: re: picture
Date: 11/4/00 4:25:30 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

My glamour shot is winging it's way to your house as we speak. I hope you like it.

It's the "last" picture of Mom for my kids, and for Jim. I wanted it to look "perky" and full of mischief, I hope it says that. My last big chance to leave something meaningful for my kids, and my friends. And who knows, it might look good in my obituary. The message I wanted to convey is that I've had a good life, and I am enjoying to the fullest the time I have left. I have been there and done that. I appreciate everything. Music, books, TV, kids and grandkids, the changing of the colors as the season turns into autumn. I remember with fondness the winters of ice and snow in New England, the beauty of California and surely, Hawaii. We chose to retire here, as it has just about the most temperate climate. North Carolina beaches, wonderful seafood, the lofty beauty of the mountains in the western part of the state, the seafood, great people, the seafood, boating, fishing, camping, and the seafood. Oh, and lest I forget.......the seafood.

The one thing I have difficulty with is leaving my friends and family. I want to cram as much family time that I can, but in this day and age it's so very hard to do because my kids and grandchildren are so far away.

But it is my hope that I have left a small impression on those whose paths I have crossed, and I hope I have left some pleasant memories behind.

Luvya,

~Judy


Subj: Hello!
Date: 11/6/00 1:37:07 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: Cis4cow
BCC: LadyZinnia

Hello everyone,

I have a favor to ask of you. As many of you know, my Mom is dying of ALS. ;( Well some very special people have gone out of their way to do some special things for her. One of them being a web site about her and the disease ALS. Also an update on how she is doing and a place to leave notes.

If you could find the time, please go visit my page and then follow the lick there to her web site. Please, please leave a note....it means SO much to her!

Thank you for caring, and may God Bless you!

~Joni Please read the entry called

~My Best Friend~

http://www.opendiary.com/entrylist.asp?authorcode=A269637


Subj: A letter for my Daddy....?
Date: 11/10/00 12:16:49 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: Cis4cow
To: LadyZinnia

Dear Zinny,

God Bless you for how your web site has touched my family, Mom, Daddy and myself included!!!!!

My friends are in awe at your thoughtfulness and your gift to Mom and Dad. I cannot thank you enough. {{{{Hugs}}}}

As you can see, the notes keep pouring in. *smiles*

With today being Veterans Day, I received a poem about a vet...and added to it quite a bit. I do not know if the web site for Mom is the best place for it. But I at least wanted to share it with you.

If you would like to add it there, please do. I know that both Mom and Daddy would understand. With Daddy being a "Lifer in the Marine Corps," it WAS our life as well.

Thank you and may God richly bless and keep you!

~Joni

"What Is A. Vet?"

Some veterans bear visible signs of their service... A missing limb, a jagged scar, a certain look in the eye. Others may carry the evidence inside them: a pin holding a bone together, a piece of shrapnel in the leg -- or perhaps another sort of inner steel: the soul's ally forged in the refinery of adversity.

Except in parades, however, the men and women who have kept America safe wear no badge or emblem. You can't tell a vet just by looking. What is a vet?

He is the cop on the beat who spent six months in Saudi Arabia sweating two gallons a day making sure the armored personnel carriers didn't run out of fuel. He is the barroom loudmouth, dumber than five wooden planks, whose overgrown frat-boy behavior is outweighed a hundred times in the cosmic scales by four hours of exquisite bravery near the 38th parallel.

She - or he -- is the nurse who fought against futility and went to sleep sobbing every night for two solid years in DA Nang.

He is the POW who went away one person and came back another -- or didn't come back AT ALL.

He is the Quantico drill instructor who has never seen combat -- but has saved countless lives by turning slouchy, no-account rednecks and gang members into Marines, and teaching them to watch each other's backs.

He is the parade-riding Legionnaire who pins on his ribbons and medals with a prosthetic hand.

He is the career quartermaster who watches the ribbons and medals pass him by.

He is the three anonymous heroes in The Tomb Of The Unknowns, whose presence at the Arlington National Cemetery must forever preserve the memory of all the anonymous heroes whose valor dies unrecognized with them on the battlefield or in the ocean's sunless deep.

He is the old guy bagging groceries at the supermarket -- palsied now and aggravatingly slow -- who helped liberate a Nazi death camp and who wishes all day long that his wife were still alive to hold him when the nightmares come.

He is an ordinary and yet an extraordinary human being -- a person who offered some of his life's most vital years in the service of his country, and who sacrificed his ambitions so others would not have to sacrifice theirs.

He is a soldier and a savior and a sword against the darkness, and he is nothing more than the finest, greatest testimony on behalf of the finest, greatest nation ever known.

"He is the man hurting with arthritis, helping his dying wife every moment of every day and at the same time fighting the lack of military medical care.....that was PROMISED to him. He does this with love in his heart, with pride for the job he did in the Marines and in spite of the bills that pile up and the pain he feels in his heart that the further he promised his wife, was not at all what he thought it would be! But he's doing the best that he can, because he is "One of the Few, The Proud...the Marines!"

He does this with 90% hearing loss from serving in Vietnam, with terrible back pain from the night crawls, the falls he took. He does this with heart damage from who knows what chemical spray, or terrible experience that caused it. He does this in spite of the tears he shed when his best friend died, trying to give the last rights to his unit. He does this with the haunting memories of the death, the pain and the horror that he saw. And he still helps his country! He Votes, he works for the Veterans organization and he fights for the return of medical care for retired Military. And yet he still loves his country, God and his family.....and believes in the Military.

He is an amazing man and someone that I am DAMN PROUD to call my Daddy! So remember, each time you see someone who has served our country, just lean over and say "Thank You." That's all most people need, and in most cases it will mean more than any medals they could have been awarded or were awarded.

Two little words that mean a lot, "THANK YOU"

Original author unknown, edited and added to by Joni


Subj: Re: Got Your Photo!
Date: 11/12/00 3:40:00 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Hi Zinnia,

You didn't say whether you liked the picture or not. It was only taken a month ago, and meant to show a sparkle in my eye, which was my intent. I know I'm no raving beauty, but I'm hinting around for a mild compliment.hint...hint.....hint...........LOL Jim says he is going to have another negative made. When we start putting it little piles, like: 3 for Brad's family, one for Jimmy, 6 for Joni, one for my brother, etc. I ran out of pictures. I wanted this for my family, something to remind them I was happy, and had my chin up.

Latest update: Swallowing meats, and other dry foods is more difficult. But Jim is adapting well, and making very tasty meals. My breathing is getting shallower, and some mornings I feel very ligh-headed from lack of oxygen, I guess. I have now developed arthritis in both knees and my elbows. I now sleep on my back, with a pillow under my knees, and a lambs' wool piece of fabric under my feet, so that the hours I am asleep, I don't get pressure sores on my heels. I can't reach or pick up anything that is further away than a foot. If it's any further away than that I knock things over trying to reach for it. Sometimes things get to be #@%&&*++##@.

But I'm hanging in there. Jim and I were talking this afternoon about "how soon." etc." I think we are both very tired. And sooner rather than later has been on both our minds. I know Jim loves me, as I do him, but it is exhausting for both of us. It isn't morbid for us to think this way. I hurt for Jim when I see him so exhausted that he can't shake off a sinus infection. And he can't bear to see me like this. We feel like the inevitable is not too far down the road, but it's taking alot of strength for Jim to care for me. And I want him to be able to have some quality of life after I'm gone.

More later, Sweetie..................

~Judy


Subject: I'm baaaaaakk
Date: 12/2/00 3:35 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two

Howdy all, I've been let out of bedrest, seems like I got a sore tushie ,. ya know, like a bedsore!! But I'm recovering, and can get on for short peeriods of time, so kkkeep in toucch. Luvya,

~Judy


Subj: Re: Hello and Hugs
Date: 2/3/01 10:54:19 AM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Hey,,, Judy has lost the use of her hands pretty much and does not type much at all anymore......So this is being typed by Jim *(her other half).....Judy and I dont mind if you want to share our phone # with her friends.....she cant stay on the phone too long as the phone gets heavy and her voice gets weak..thank you for staying in touch. I dont always read the mail everyday but I get around to it eventually..... Hope that folks will understand... this damn disease isnt the easiest to mess around with or to be around..... We just play it day by day..... Keeping the pain under control right now is the MOST important.... The Hospice folks are most understanding and really do a fine job of helping out.... Thanks again for the Mail etc and keep in touch

Love and Stuff Judy and Jim


Subj: Re: Hello and Hugs
Date: 2/5/01 6:48:39 AM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Zinny, Judy had been pestering me to get on line and find out if you got our last mail.....and now I have. We are doing as well as can be expected... Judy has lost some more of her strength and now is at the point where she can just barely eat a meal by herself. Her head is "getting heavy" and her left side is getting weaker by the day. The pain in her "butt" is driving us up the wall as we can not figure on how to ease it. We have tried to use just about every type of cushion--pad--buffer--pillow--and position possible, and are not having any luck......seems that it is a matter of circulation of blood combined with the fact that she 'don't have no butt'. We keep on trying to do what we can and take it a day at a time. Her faith and the prayers of all are what really keep us going. Some days are worse than others but we DO remember the good days. We have an "in house" joke that we have been there and done that. When the TV script shows a place that we have seen or been to we come out with the usual bit like OH we've been there, and its fun to re-live the time that we did spend there.......Hawaii and things Hawaiian are one of our most fond memories. We seem to feel that our best years were spent out there.....Zinnia plse keep the Mail comming.....Judy really takes pride in what you have done for her. and as a P.S. so do I.................................Love and Stuff JUDY and Jim


Subj: Judy and her status.....
Date: 3/2/01 7:12:41 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: EZee Two
To: LadyZinnia

Hi, Zinnia, Judy has me writting this mail so bear with me plse.....Judy is still going down hill at a rather fast pace....should be bed-ridden in another 2-3 wks.... we are in good spirits most of the time and the Hospice people are now comming 5 days a wk. Spring has hit us with a big bang and reallly early this year.....flowers up, and blooms all over the place... Its just about time for me to put her to bed for the nite so wil close for now with thanks for all the mail you have sent ..... I read all her mail to her as she cannot get on the puter herself anymore.....Many thanks and keep the prayers comming..... Jim


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