| "I wanted to marry Lucifer," she tells me. "Even though I had a crush on Jesus. Lucifer was the brother holding the space for mankind/womankind to act out their fears and hidden secrets, things they won't acknowledge. That's what the shadow is, the side that's been denied, and once you don't deny your shadow anymore then it's not a perversion of that energy source. I don't consider Lucifer an evil force. We can all tap into that free-running current of distorted energy. "Some of my girlfriends--liberal London girls--had a problem with the idea that I was writing a song called "Father Lucifer." One of them heard it and cried and said, "You made him so beautiful," and I said, "What if he is beautiful?" Shadow defines light. The shadow is where I hang out a lot because I like chasing and diving with those forces." I mention the Greek myth of Persephone, the girl stolen away by Hades, god of the underworld, and how she might have preferred that fate to hanging out with her mother among the flowers and sunshine forever. Amos replies, "Although I think my mom would like to tag along and have a dance with him because she's been a minister's wife for so long! But this is not Hollywood's view of Lucifer." Instead of an evil satanic demon, her Lucifer is |
a dark god who has great respect for life and love. "On some of my darkest days, he's the one that comes and gives me an ice cream. I feel such a sadness from him. I cry and feel his presence with his music. I feel like he comes and sits on my piano. Yet this is a pretty serious being. I'm a little squirt when you think what a very serious force this is." Sounds pretty heavy, but "Father Lucifer" is as much a romantic fantasy as anything else. "I just always wanted to learn flamenco so I could dance with him," Tori teases. "I wanted a great tango in the June summer with somebody really hot. There are a lot of cute boys around. It's that quirk in their personality that makes my toes curl, and Lucifer's got a very quirky personality." And just as she loves the darkness, she craves the light: "I flirt with the sun god too. I enjoy that immensely." She gives her "yummy" smile, like a little girl with a bowl of pudding, a food that comes up quite often with her. "In fact, I enjoy both of them quite immensely." |
