Sanity
A Trip Through The Mind Of cHIBInEKO
Every once and a while I begin to wonder what the hell I'm doing in life. It's like hitting a brick wall. I question myself and I question myself. I ask myself If it is right to think and act the way I do. i ask why my mind craves blood and my heart agrees, knowing all the while how wrong it is. For That one moment I wonder if I should try to damm the rivers of chaos that flow through my veins or if I should shut them off completely. I tell myself that this is no longer a game, that the further I go the harder it will be to turn back. But part of me knows it is far too late and wishes to just end it all in one painless swipe of a knife. But as I said, these moments are brief. Several seconds later I once again retern to the endless emptieness that is my life and settle myself in my false secureties. I no longer care what happens, I crave destruction, pain, suffering... With a smile upon my lips and a bloodthirsty glint in my eye I set out once again on my merry little road to hell.
- Jessica Watters aka Bagel-chan