I thought, when i came upon her,
that I was seizing hold of life...
Instead I lost hold of life
completely. I reached out for
something to attach myself to --
and I found nothing. But in
reaching out, in the effort to
grasp, to attach myself, left high
and dry as I was, I nevertheless
found something I had not looked
for -- myself.

~Henry Miller
-Tropic of Capricorn