I was born in June '74, so I'm a Cancer.
I don't remember anything from that time. In fact I do not even
have any memories until maybe 4 or 4.5, and I will talk about
them later on. What was the beginning? The beginning was a problem
for me, the problem that might have cost my whole life (and maybe
cost me my whole life), and that had determined in a stange way
the future that hit me today, and would hit me during all the
next years I'm allowed to live. In medical terms this was not
a very big problem - I had a birth trauma, my mother had some
kind of problem with me, I wouldn't come out in a proper way,
so the nurses had to use the pliers to take me out. Even now I
still bear the mark reminding me of that time - my left ear looks
slightly bent.
Thus it was predetermined that I was very susceptible to illnesses
all of my life. I was such a weak boy, I needed an immense protection,
that was what my parents thought and I received this protection,
every single portion of it, for the total of 17 years, and I can
confess - this affected my life greatly and not always as desired.
I do not know, if I really needed it, to be frank, you never know
what would have happened if you were not what you actually were.
I do not want to guess, but the policy of defence and control
chosen by my parents built a huge solid barrier between me and
other boys and girls, a barrier I can't beat even now. Someone
said 'You can't beat the system.' - well, it is true.
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