Affliction
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I think of love,
  thoughts entwined in my head,
I think of like and life thereof,
  as I lay into bed.
This whirpool of torment and despair indures me,
  I just lay and let it go free....
I just lay, as it tears at me.
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The night moves on,
  as I drift away into deep sleep,
reality soon becomes long gone,
  Land of Nod starts to creep.
Dreaming things of of horror and hopelessness,
  All I want is to regress...
even here, i wish regress.
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Nightmares come to an end,
  while I awake in a cold sweat,
silently, in hopes to mend,
 of everything I felt and fret.
Here I lay crying, dependant and helpless,
  from deep within wistfulness...
desolate, and tristfulness.
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All though the day,
   to the next nocturnal setting,
Imagining if it werent this way,
  things that would change, possibly regretting.
Fearing the worst and hoping the best,
  I prepare to lay for my following rest,
Hoping  to lay, for my eternal rest.
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                                       -Lucifer

Shades Below
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I looked within, face to face with myself,
eyes locked, yet I saw nothing, noone.
gazing harder, I began to notice,
from deeper inside, a shadow,
an image of what once was, who I was,
a mere image.
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Examining this picture, comparing,
I didn’t understand how I could be loved,
how I could love, not like that, not now.
What I was, what I am, a shadow of it,
and only that, and nothing more.
only that.
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Casting light on a shadow, it dissapears,
Was I in the dark, my past, hiding?
Never to be seen, never to be known,
Is this how they saw me, could it be?
A beast, with no love, not to be seen,
just a beast?
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Tears of red, flowing down my cheeks,
realizing the real me, seeing the real me,
understanding then, everything, it all.
Why she didn’t loves me, not as she did,
who could care for this, for me?
noone, no body.
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"To leave here, this life, my pathedic life,
perhaps would be best, for everyone."
Not untill I was sure though, till I knew,
"Is it best, for me." Some did say no,
told me no, to stay, but did they mean it?
or were they really unsure?
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Death, seemingly the only answer,
I went for the nearest blade, the sharpest,
cuts to deep to heal, to deep to feel,
blood poured down, all my "life",
flowed out of this, this...thing..
I was dying then, finally, it was ending.
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As the blood poured, I was thinking,
"Will I be missed? Will anyone care,
or even notice, anyone at all?"
Those were my last thoughts, as I died,
as things grew darker, yet lighter,
There it ended..
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As of now, I roam the earth, not to be
seen, not to be known, purgatory.
I watch as everyone I loved lives there
lives, happily lived without me. Alas, I
was right, noone cared. All I cared for,
for nothing..
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I already knew it would come to this,
from day one I knew this. I always said it
would, yet noone would agree with me.
Everyone would always reassure me,
"Everyone loves you, everyone cares for
you..I care for you, I love you."
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I lived a lie, everything I wanted to
believe was a mere lie. All of it.
Now I don’t even know me, was my
whole life a lie? My whole "life"?
Was it all just a dream, nightmare,
something I imagined up here?
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Wanting an answer, I questioned the
Gods, yes, they would know the truth.
Standing before them, I told my reason
to come, asking  for the answer I seek.
They looked at me, confused,
bewildered, then at one another....
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Sadly, their response wasn’t quite what I
hoped for, now I am truly lost... As I
stood waiting for the reality of it all, they
looked down at me, and ever so rudely
laughed at me and said..
 "Who are you?"
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          -Lucifer
-Dedicated to Grim_Reaper7

The Betrayed Love!
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Is there any love left in this
doomed world?

Everyone cheats!
Everyone lies!
Everyone kills!
Everyone steals!
IN THEIR MINDS!

There's only anger!
Where is LOVE?

Signing: Blood