Right now it is 2:40 in the morning and I just finished having
an interesting conversation that got me thinking. As many of you
know (or at least have suspected) I have not had the best luck
with woman. As a matter of fact, I have only had on girlfriend
in my life, and that came from a blind date. Part of this I attribute
to not being able to "read" woman. I put read in quotes
because I believe it is a make believe ablility that some guys
profess to have, but actually don't. For this and other reasons,
I have never sucessfully found a girl who likes me for more than
a friend. There are many who are in the friend category, but none
(save the one) who have crossed over. As a consequence of this
and my (almost) never give up attitude I have had the blissful
opprotunity to be rejected many many times by girls (the most
recent being tonight). Luckily I have been let down very nicely
by all these girls. Which is what got me thinking. How do the
girls know how to do this? Then I came up with the answer. In
6th grade the girls left to watch a "movie". We were
told in later years that this "movie" was about girls
going through puberty. But I now believe that this was a training
video. The training was in relationships, or more specificly how
to reject guys.
(I am actually suprised I started a new paragraph, I usually just
write in a big glob.) My first rejection that I remember was in
6th grade (it must have been after watching the movie). I atualy
don't remember much about it. What I do remember is the girl's
name (I won't list it here) and that I did the elementary school
think, i.e. I had a friend go ask her if she liked me. The answer
came back no and the friend I sent to ask started dating her soon
afterward. There followed a bevy of girls I liked who didn't reciprocate
my feelings. But they all turned me down nicely. The one I can
find the most humor in (which is hard) happened my junior year
in high school. I won't mention the girl's name or the event,
but it was a big event close to the end of the year. This girl
was very pretty in my eyes and I had been interested in her since
the beginning of the year. It took awhile but I finally got up
the courage to ask her to the event. On the way from dinner to
the actual event she said something to me that I will never forget.
"Leslie I am not attracted to you in anyway whatsoever and
there is no way this will ever turn into a relationship."
At least she was honest. We later became good friends.
As a matter of fact, I have found that many girls I am interested
in have become good friends. I think this was another part of
the "movie". This part was the "let's just be friends"
part. All you guys know that the "movie" was very successful
in training girls in the art of boy "friends". Maybe
I try too hard. I have been told by many people to just let things
happen. However I am impatient, so I don't wait. They say that
if I am not looking, the girls will come. This reminds me of a
saying "A watched pot never boils." Yes it does, and
it takes the same amount of time. It is just the perception of
time that changes.
It is now 4:30 a.m. (I haven't just written straight, I had a
very long break) and I need to go to bed. I know I have left many
large holes and questions unanswered, maybe I will add more later.
In conclusion, I have had bad luck with girls in the past and
to make myself feel better, I am blaming it on the "movie".