A Dedication to my Mother
My mother, poor soul...Had to live with me through my "teenage" years. :) Now that I, myself, am a mother, with children of my own, I have GREAT sympathy with her. And personally, I don't know how she survived my "teenage" years.
So this, My Mother, Is for You.
A THANK YOU, for putting up with me. For "Surviviing" *me*.
I want you to know, now that I am "older" and a "Mother" myself...the "old" adage, of "may your children be as you were"...(or should I say curse :)... Has me "*Afraid*" :)
I was *~HORRIBLE~*! and I apologize for the 'frustration' and 'agony' of my teenage years. When I realize, that at the time of life, that you were, when you had 2 children, a divorce, and you had never worked a day in your life....*I* at that age, was "having fun", "partying", and "wasteing" my life away. Well, Ok, I, Personally, don't think I was ~wasting~ it *G*...but I was having the "Time Of My Life" *G*, and ~*"I"*~ Did NOT have 2 children to worry about, and ~*"I"*~ had been working for Years! (so I guess that means I had a career, *LOL*:)
What I'm trying to say, is, That I am VERY Sorry! You were still a Very Young women! Your life has been Extremely hard! You came from a 'terrible' home. Please, I loved my grandmother...I guess...Let's say, I did always try to show her 'respect' as my elder. But as you know....Grandmother White, was a GREAT influence on, not just my life, but on yours as well. And I think we both can agree, that it was "HER" influence that "shaped" our lives. Yours, and you mine. Your mother, poor soul, not having that much to "contribute"...(or should I say, Thank the Lord)...for she knew nothing but "hardship", did not know how to 'love', and did not know how to "care for others".
At least, not like Grandmother White...(my fathers Mother)...who, when you were just 16, took you in, because her son loved you, and you were having his baby. Mother, I'm so sorry for you. No, not "sorry" but sympathic. When I think of when I was 16! How Horrible! to already be having a baby, and a husband, and a "life", that was not really "yours", but that you had to "share", with "family". Of course, growing up on the streets of Baltimore, with a mother that was...(sorry, but from what I understand and have been led to believe)...was a 'drunk'. A "selfish" women, who thought of no others but herself. Now I may be wrong. I admitt, I don't know the "whole" story. It was a "life send". You were finally with a family that "LOVED" you. That "accepted" you, as you were. Who "taught" you, that love was "unconditional". No matter, What you did, they would always love you.
In Texas, by myself, listening to 'others' talk about their familys.....even Now!...One of my closes friends on the web, talks about her family, and her mother. and it only makes me so GRATEFUL, that I have you, and Your Sisters. My Own Father! makes me grateful that I have you! No matter how "stupid" I have been in my life....No matter, how many "mistakes" I have made. Or the "wrong" turns that I have taken in life......YOU and your sisters, have always Loved Me!
In my 20's, in my 30's, Now, My children have you and your sisters, Your SISTERS! themselves, who look after "us"...(my family, and me:)...who 'help' us, when we are going through 'tough' times. Who 'provide' "toys and clothes" for my children. "Extras" that they normally would not be able to have, because, like most families, now adays, we live "week to week". "We're" Not Their Kids! But because they love YOU, and You in turn love US, and Care about "US"...me and "my" family, they care also.
And Mother....BELIEVE Me, when I say...that I have NOT Meant, in all the years of 'traveling' that I have done, in all the different States, that I have lived in, a Single Person, who has the love of their Mother, like I have the Love and Caring of YOU.
Mother, there is absolutely NO words to express how Thankful I am Of Your Love and your patience, with me, and the Care that you give to My Family. If I could make wishes come true, I would make your fondest wish be real. If I could build a Mountain, for you, I would do so. If I could make the sun shine, and the rainbows be alive, for you, I would. But all those things, I can not do. All I can do is Tell YOU, Thank YOU.
Thank YOU, for being who YOU are. and Surviving, not only Your years of heartbreak and joy, but "surviving" my teenage years, as well.
Thank You Mother
for having patience with me.
for loveing me as I am.
for 'accepting' me, in all my faults.
THANK YOU
for being my mother.
© LFE 2000 Witchy