Self-centered to begin.....I'm just the friend you push to the end....Sleeping in the night like you never were able to do.....awake in the day better than you could ever say...but all the time, I was never awake
As the sun goes down, waking up my dreams
And in my mind you're with me once again
Out of my heart, into your head
And inside my heart there's a place for you
And in my mind I'm with you once again
The Cure For The Perfect Pain
I have a pain.
A sharp pain...
It starts in my side.
It opens up wide.
The shore left me standing here;
It left my feet wet.
I'm wishing for the sun to draw near.
The sun can make things clear.
I have the perfect pain to cure.
I have that clever shame.
I am that one that must be cured.
I am the obscured.
Picture it won't you?
It draws a lovely picture.
Think about the cure.
Think about the sun.
Think about the seas shore.
Nevermore...
I have a sharp pain that's beyond repair.
This sharp pain loves to stare.
I've found the cured.
Their substance is something I know not of.
I need to be taught,
But I'm afraid of being caught.
I'm tangled in a web.
The web that you have spun.
Frightened like a little child,
I violently shake.
Quiet like a child,
I silently partake.
I have a pain.
A sharp pain...
It starts in my side.
It opens up wide.
Goodnight My Cure.
I'm alive
i stood on a rock
it was great in size
i could only see it
it made me hide
i cracked this rock open
i peered inside
it was empty
yet so alive
i tried to put it back together
i made it look all new
but there was one crack in it that couldn't mend
so i tossed the rock in the air
it fell so quickly
it asked for a dare
i wrapped myself coldly on its insides
tuck me inside of you ...i said
tuck me inside
make me warm with you
let me feel alive
i took another look
i peered one more time
i saw it was me, myself
and i am so alive
goodbye is very prominent
it is always there
it is valuable
it always stays the same
it's always goodbye
it never changes
that one word will never mean anything else other than goodbye
so goodbye to the ones i need to say it to
goodbye
wonderful friend in the end
keep me forever
i'll make amends
take me home
make me clever
i'll let you see what's shown
beware of the factors
beware of their spiders
they're tactful
they'll hide
they'll keep you from seeing what's there
beware of their kin, they're there to scare
maybe it'll be clear
maybe things won't appear
wonderful friend in the end
keep me forever
i'll make amends
You are the circle within the square...trapped by a parallelogram
Drowning in a million sorrows, I hear your voice again
Cutting like yesterdays storm it rolls upon me
Thankful that I cannot hear you words, feel your life, see your face
Regretful that I shed these tears that to me alone have no place
Honest little bird, which way does the wind blow today?
Which direction shall I travel?
Drowned in a million words I see you face again
Happily I smile as you pull away from me
Bitter I will remain just as you shall see
Take these words and wash them away with your tears
Teach them to stay away , far away from my fear
if the the could have been the be
in circles your dreams fall
they collide in that bright white
then you come back down and your touched
touched by those you never knew were there
touched by someone you loved, but never knew you loved
in circles your world spins
by the very palm of your hand,
your life is about half of what you see
briefly you smell of the air,
but you never take into consideration why you're doing it
free like a bird you go your own way
charming as you can be
solemn like the seas breeze
for once and only it's all building a mystery
I'm perty sure I didnt write this...but I like it.
I'm sitting here all by myself
Just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something, anything
Just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
Cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
To leave the rest of the world behind
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close
And share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love
But I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
But I know you did
I'm sitting here trying to convince myself
That you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
It wasn't meant to be
you'll hear my inner thoughts
but will you see my inner will?
i started off with something small
and now i gradually build.
slow to plummet,
i will not fall.
i'm embraced with these chains...
these chains from above.
winter mary,
here is your prince.
he has taken from the king that which is not his.
shall we save his life or behead him?
you'll hear my inner thoughts,
but will you see my inner will?
it's time to stop this clock
with one simple little pill.
It's not real
lets go to the park
there are lots of trees
i used to come here often
you used to come with me
now it seems to be gone
all is well with your soul
take a book to read with you on your trip
take a look at what surrounds the city
take the time to be independent
enjoy your stay, but don't feel too welcomed
the people aren't what they seem
they are harmful
sure they are nice
but it's what is inside you'll never see that counts
lets take a ride to the park
i'm sure it will be of most delight
lets take a ride to the park
i'm sure things will turn out alright
forever and ever i am a part of you
rip my heart out and make it bleed. i promise i'll stay here as long as you need. take my eyes and cover them with your hands. hold me close as i hold your hand. touch your face...enlighten my soul. swept away amidst the sea. the light will be enough to carry me. laying in the oceans breeze...i feel your spirit touch me. eyes cast down from such depths...my heart is over swept.
lost inside of you
I do believe the wind has blown today
The fairy sits on my shoulder telling me precious things
Things I love to hear
Look, I see my dove fly away
Is this a good thing?
I do believe it to be so
The blank page fills up with numbers and brilliant colors
The quality seems to be the best
A picture perfect scene caught you here with me
The cloud of nature adores the rest
A piece of me is caught inside
Lost inside...deep inside of what appears to be
You
Broken
I can never say what I mean to say
Incoherency always gets in the way
And you don't even listen anymore when I try
Too many times, I've stuttered, stumbled, to cry
I lack too much, too frustrated now
I've spent so long hiding, I can't learn how
I was taught to smile, to say it's all right
To hide my tears, give in without fight
And each time I tried to give voice to my pain
This choke on my heart silenced me once again
My unspoken aching, my unshed tears
Suffering, raging, built up all these years
And you wonder now why I crack at the seams
Why this once smiling face now wails and screams
I'm still bound and collared, I can't speak it true
But I warp and break, and some pieces fall through
So I scare you now? So I break your heart?
Run away then, before I fall completely apart.
the world through new eyes
beauty burned a hole through my soul
i was told not to let go
for all the things i'll never see
you promised to hold me
jack in the box
i've captured a fox
he killed the mark of her beauty
hung from a tree
who will rescue thee
do the chains of sorrow attach
horrendous piles of space from the riddle
what will it read today
as soon as she left the store,
she made her purchase
could she afford to pay this amount
can she do it on her own
will help be needed to make her grow
smile my lovely dear
tear by tear i'll say it to your face
silent words
words of grace
insert words here
insert words here
keep it in mind
my little bird
don't you see how precious you are?
your grace of flight has me staring forever
i watch you as you fly
the slightest motion around me
i do not notice
if an eagle breaks a wing
i'll surely help it along
mending is what i tend to do
if you lose your way
don't be afraid to ask for directions
don't be afraid to take my hand
you'll tell me of a place
i'll do my best to make sure you find what you're looking for
my little bird
don't you see how precious you are?
when you plummet for below
remember i'll be here to catch you
With you I have no concept of time
Things drew from above
They said I'm in Love
It's like a deer in the forest
Always free
But never not caught
In some solemn moment
The wind blows her direction
The wolf smells the blood
It is not pure innocence?
No one can say the desire isn't there
The smell lingers near the window
Around the house
In everything that reminds me of you
It's hard not to think
Wonderful
Beautiful
Every way I turn
I feel so lost
But this time,
I know my way
I have a hand that won't lead me away
I have beauty consoled inside
The pain can no longer be refrained
The people like to say I'm in Love
Make you cry
The sparrow no longer flies past your gods plain
Tell me why the color said goodbye and the day died
The sparrow flies past the plain where your god lies
Eyes tell you the things you need to know to find your way
She was left standing here...wishing and begging you to stay
Tell me where the days have gone since your last birth
The girl, she flies into the glass of land of murk
Shake the ground where your father once stood
Bare the lake of pity you will bare in childhood
Blood feels so rare for your child to touch
You try to show her you love her so much
Oh no, the system is fading into the purple
The man is spinning around in his circle
Oh dear, the girl...has she lost her fear?
It seems the end is quite near
Tell me why the color said goodbye and the day had to die
You stare from your topless tree
Falling down where you meet me
Hand over the wishful pipe
Do you know what it is like?
After years of moving away,
There's no one left for her to blame
Film the lines that start to lay
Potray what's in your selfish shame
You stare from your topless tree
Falling down where you meet me
Dark are the survivors that reflect
The Virus found will not connect
Do you know what it is like
For her to live amongst the strife?
Do you see what makes us care
Among those who breathe the air?
What degree will you be able to see?
Would you believe if I said this is me?
Goodbye to a friend
the time seems short but we've had fun
we've played together amongst the sun
you are a gift that was sent
a great friend i must admit
i'm happy we've had this time to share
now it's time for you to leave
we'll take the time to keep in touch
it's the little things that mean so much
you are in my thoughts and will be every day
in my heart you will always stay
a great friend i've had the chance to know
it's always hard to let someone go
I'm lost in this world
reality seems to grasp my hand
freedom was taken by some other
anger is no longer an option
anger is dead
and love wins
i'm alive
and all is well
so they tell me
the drugs cover the never conclusive problem
it only inevitably makes it worse
who ever told them we would make it like the others?
why must we fall
and you prevail?
fairness is not fair
the little girl never meant to tell me that
or was it you that she told that to?
i can't remember
but i know she told me in her cries....
or was that my imagination getting away with me?
the little girl stands in all of her blackness and screams at me
she tells me these little things that drive me crazy but ah yes
down you go my friend and now she's gone
all better or is it?
you tell me my friend
you tell me how it's gonna end
i'd really like to know
i'd like to know ahead of time so i may prepare for the funeral
it will be a glorious day
the day the little girl in the head dies
and the never conclusive problem becomes conclusive
oh glorious day!
I will lock every door
try and make me white,
and I will be black.
try and make me black,
and I will be gray.
try and make me gray,
and I will be nothing.
cover me in black, blue and yellow
cover me with mud whatever you may
I guarantee you, you'll never stop me
you'll never make me stop caring
I guarantee you of that!
Instead of trying to change me,
change with me.
Instead of criticizing me,
help me to see my faults.
Instead of hating me,
Love me.
My promise to you
I will throw away the keys
I will lock every window
So you will stay away from me
I will hide in every corner
In every little crevice
I will attempt to tear down these walls
And they will fall in on me
I will try to get to know you
I will give it my best
I will try to understand you
And not push you to the test
I will give it my all and all
And Love you no matter what
I will be there for you always
When you think you're all alone
Empty
I'm sorry
I'm out daydreaming
You can find me on my plane way up high
You'll find me reaching for the sky
Cast me into the sea
Dirty but free
See what I can be
See what your casting brings me
Tuck me into bed
Be sure to cover my head
It will help keep the monsters out
While your up and about
I'm falling into my wonderland
Bring me a dream?
Cast me to the sky?
I'm falling apart at the seam
The waters draw nigh
The day turns to night
Out comes my fright
May your eyes lead the way,
I can tell what they say
I'm sorry
I'm out daydreaming
Let me be...
Is it worth saving what's already gone?
The box is empty
The candy is gone
But why do you still have it?
Is it to remind you of what was once there?
Why do you keep empty things lying around?
The paper has been torn
Is it worth saving what's already gone?
The trash can is to your right
The closet is to your left
You stand in the middle of death
The box is empty
The candy is gone
The people are silent
New people are born
Everything has been left out
It is inevitable with out a doubt
Is it worth saving what's already gone?
Cuts
The blood drips down
I feel the relief
How tender the skin is
How delicate it can be
With one quick touch
It is all done
The slightest bump
Could mess this up
Penetrating down my spine
I start to hear a rhyme
I've heard it too many times before
I can't seem to close its door
I plead with it
I hope it will stop
It does no good
It's firm as a rock
The blood drips down
I feel the release
The blood drips down
It loves to tease
It cuts at my throat
It consumes my veins
I begin to choke
I feel the pain
I see the colors
I smell its essence
I feel its breath
Its name is death
The intrinsic ghost of myself flows through my pores like tiny needles. I’m outside of the inside of the outside. I'm like a flower that no one took care of. No I was never mowed down. I was graciously fed by whatever fell to my side. The sun was my light; The rain my water. I lived my life through a ghost. I seep through others pores. I feel wrath from the goddess of my soul. It’s questionable whether or not she exists. I said she would show you papers of importance. I’m not sure if she did or if she gave you clues. There’s my dove. She flew away. I see her at times. She sings to me sweetly to remind me of where I once laid. Left down here on my own, I’ll wait for her to leave. There’s a place by you I shall lay my head. Comfort a great until I’m dead! There is a rose that blooms. I believe they take care of her. What difference is there? Is it not a flower too? Maybe it’s because of her appearance. She looks more beautiful than the others do. I wonder if that is it or maybe it’s because she’s preferred over the others. Does this mean she shall be my enemy or my friend? I suppose no matter what it’s up to me. On the inside the rose may not be as healthy. Outwardly her color is pretty...inwardly she is cold and bitter. The flower on the lawn, She’ll cast a warm shadow on your heart. She may not look as pretty, but inside she’s a rose ready to bloom. Her beauty will shine through as light hits the water. She struggled on her own and gained more. The rose was spoon-fed. She’s standing on her last leg. Mow her down.... She’s of no use. The choice has been made. In this case, the strong was the weak. There are no words I could say to justify my ways. I’ll stand here in a craze! Today is no lie; it does exist. We are a memory of someone else's past. And so we shall continue to be...A mere memory of you...of me.
There's a picture inside
I am its creator
I took it for you
I took it for two
Words fill this page
I said I would look
I was told to reach
There's a picture inside
It was took for two
Freeze this frame
Allow it for me
Save it for a simple tool.
Frame these three words
The three words I've told you
There's a picture inside
I took it for two
freeze these three words
and save them for two
Separate the mind
Separate the heart
Look inside to see what you might find
Feel the water as it tears you apart
The rails are at an angle
The brick appears to be perfect
It seems to hold the building up
But what happens when you see it crack?
What happens when you fall apart?
What happens when the trees fall and ruin that angle?
There are animals on this rail
Hopefully they will have enough sense to move
They don’t want to be brought down
But I, who am I to say this?
Who says they do not wish to die?
It seems so perfect
What is in the mind?
I cannot say they wouldn’t have wanted it this way
There’s a crack in the wall
It’s ever so slightly small
I bet you crumble before you fall
A woman walks down the alley not knowing her future
If we could actually remember our dreams,
We would know what all we’ve seen
What caused the tree to die?
A cold wind or a spiral seed?
A full frame...was it in need?
Nature knows itself best
I've got a picture in my head.
Is it its place to be dead?
This picture in my room,
Will she allow it to resume?
The greatest feeling shook the wall.
Who knew...
Who thought...
This would be the end of the all?
Death by tears
A life at night
The spirit surrounds
A trifle
A fright
Scared my dear?
Don't even worry
The kingdom here
It's all too blurry
Don't fear
I'll shout your name
And make sure you're safe
And make sure you're sane
A tender heart bares the line
The line that you take up with time
Take the space and fill it with things
Value the heart
Whatever it brings
Scared my dear?
Do not worry
I'll be there when things seem blurry
Years go by
Look at it sitting
Why does it not seem to move?
Inside it turns and turns
Moves about within the night
Stars that are never bright
The moon screams in intervals of three
Rescue Rescue Rescue
Me
White shown through the red
Show me what cannot be but is dead
Fears are the serum of the hair
Smooth wonders are put in the glue
Honey episodes of mutated hearts
Sparks fly around a broken thought
Melody in my head
Go away and take its place instead
Calm wintry night in the summer
Cats seek help while walking the fence
Fires tumble upon the story
Crash down my friend
On all that is for you
All that I helped you get
Look at it sitting
It never seems to go away
The feeling of what you fear
All that could have been
But never became a part of your history
Destiny is what you choose
Don't think it to be something you've never experienced
Wash me away
Make this disappear
It never goes away
So take that which sits next to you for comfort
Drain all of your energy
The bottle sits upright only when you're alive
In death, it no longer stands or lays
It's gone
Like a moment in your head
It's gone
So it stares...breathes...cries...cares...believes
Wish for what you may
In your mind starts the paper
The animal sits in front of you waiting
Waiting for its turn in the circle
A receipt hangs on your wall
Take this back or keep it?
Crucify it
Take your shirt and put it on
This memory will soon be gone
If it were a fortune way too small
Choose a cloud next to my..."insert words here"
May they drift together
Like a picture in a book
Each time you look at it
You notice something different
This little girls nose
That boys hair
Which way the wind blows
How the light shines through the trees
Here you are my friend
I give it to you
Which way does the picture turn?
Which direction does the path lead?
If it's in a picture you make the rules
The same as the mind
You make snow stand still
And time....you....erase
Paper toys and fine boys
There's a feeling that crawls through me
I can't even begin to understand where to see
A sidewalk with no cracks is not heard
These feelings inside...emotions are stirred
Paper toys
Fine boys
A gum wrapper floats through the air
She passes everything with out a care
So free but soon will be in a trash can
Live your life among the sand
Paper toys
Fine boys
Today is mine
Tomorrow is yours
Yesterday is ours
Forever is yours
She calls with the news
I am no longer amused
There's a feeling that crawls through me
I start to hear where I now can see
apparently she didnt stop to notice the people watching her as she walked by the lily on the ground staring past winters door she ran face into the wind like a prized possession jewel a guest was announced at your party who has never felt the land breathe or the wave swell your sweet dear has wrote you a letter that has never made it through the mail your eyes soft and gently spoken are a wonder that brings tears to my soul she's peacefully taken away where no one else can see by the touch of your body by the scenes of a dream
Remain vast depths until I bloom
Winds blew for a season past the sky lit hue
A symbol on my arm...was it meant for two?
They are such simple and pleasant words for a few
Remain vast depths until I bloom
Might I carve a letter on your arm
And you promise it will do no harm?
Why is it that they must assume?
Remain vast depths until I bloom
Wither me away as long as you stay
So close to my heart as we lay
This proves that I am real, I am sure
There are many things that are allure
A rushing moment feels like a nest
Running past each and every test
So what shall I take ahold of to consume?
Remain vast depths until I bloom?
Winds blew for a season past the sky lit hue
A symbol on my arm...was it meant for two?
Why is it that they must assume?
Remain vast depths until I bloom?
Smiles
Silver fans go around like snow on your face
I'll cover your eyes to protect you from this place
Hush hush my darling it's just one more night
I'll close the door and hold you tight
Hush hush my Love for it's not too late
Open the door and see the bright things
They sit alone in silence on a shelf
These books of his of hers dwell dwell dwell
You're oh so perfect for me to watch
Nothing can take it, nothing will stop
These frames, these walls... they're falling apart
To watch you come down and lay in this heart
Hush hush my Love it's just one more night
Until the day comes when I hold you tight
Shadows around me...they will depart
For soon the night cometh I will feel your heart
How little, how small
When they came down through the forest
Lifting and singing their chorus
Little hands reach out to see
Feelings...thoughts that needs need be
And before you leave
Be sure I see
Children always want to believe
Feelings...thoughts that needs need be
Follow your counter in the line
These feelings and thoughts they are not mine
Selfish it is to say this
What else is there among the midst
If I could make you understand
That I am no longer willing to stand
Alone.
Gracious
Combine the two
I do not want them
Unless there is you
I see the silence
I Love how it fits
The choir is singing
What is the bends
I wait for you to concede
Feelings...thoughts that needs need be
I’m drowning my beliefs in you.
Inside and out I feel you.
Telling me to hold on...
Letting the time pass away...
As you tell me,
It will be okay.
Cry my heart into your hands.
I’m barely breathing.
Help me to stand.
I’m sinking slowly.
Grab on to a strand.
Help me to pass over this barren land.
I’m drowning my beliefs in you.
Tell me when you feel it to.
time fades in your hands
classes turn to make amends
silence over recompence
tell the heart to swell no more
fluid, it's shed across the floor
lemons turn to your face
to watch the way that you behave
market love in a bottle
circumstance will not inhance
the moment that you die
Fear was felt
A frightened child stood in the brook
She was lost from her mother
She stood in front of a cold dark tunnel
At the end was a bright light
Behind her stood a man
Each direction seemed to be harmful
She was scared
She was in her own nightmare
Underline the words in my head.
The childs thoughts are spread
The spirit must be fed
Fall back or walk with fright?
Through the tunnel there is no light
You can’t be sure how long it will last
You see the light, it reminds you of the past
The man behind you…who is he?
He’s there to push you along the way
Maybe he’s here to do you harm
The child puts her trust in her dreams
She can’t put it in someone she hasn’t seen
She walks toward the end of the tunnel
The child begins to stumble
The man cries watch out! watch out!
Too late my friend, the girl was brought to an end
The light…it was so close
There’s a feeling unlike most
The scene will forever replay
Partial life
Almost choked
Spirit free
Friendly ghost
your letter
see her waste away
and reach for the tab
pearls
lace
boxes of paint
never say
i don't know
there's always a reason
that something is never told
seeing how she could pretend
she learned what it's like to depend
soul
free
outspoken
cheap
let's make believe our thoughts
see how far it takes us
we'll be lost in our minds
but time will bring us home
we'll try different kinds
look at how much you've grown
never tell me it's the end
never fear something that's not there
you'll spend your time worrying about your fear
you won't notice what's so grand that's in front of you
instead you'll watch it slip away
only because of your faults you don't want
so blue sits around waiting for white to come around
black never understood why it was us
pink....they never had a clue
red was the death bastard
let 'em burn!
desperate she once lived
tears fell in unwanted places
you see unpleasant faces
they're not really there
but in your mind they're real
tell the barber you don't need a hair cut
i'll do it for free...nope no charge
when your hand falls and is cut
i'll bandage it for you
take care of the wound
i'll be there to make sure you heal
when you start to fall
you better believe i'll kill myself to reach you first
my hope was found when i loved you
my sorrow was gone when i felt you
love has cast my eyes down
only far enough to meet yours
spell bound
still around
linger here
my dear
wipe the tears from your face
i think you're somewhat afraid
of being alone
not being able to make it
for once realizing what's really there
overwhelming
look around
grab a hand
don't think you can't
it will only make you bitter
love those you have
allow them to love you
don't get silly thoughts in your head
don't become so glued
falling out of a tree?
don't worry,
i'll be there to catch thee
love always
when you loved me
Help
Screaming out loud for a soul to save me
Screaming out loud for some one to tame me
Precious peace from your coal burnt eyes
Steel chambers where it's all locked inside
I want you to know which way to go
Through the peace of your valley from your crystal soul
As long as you save me there will be no other way
I ask you if it's possible I ask if I may
Tell you all of my secrets and beg you to stay
Thank-you for your patience my friend
Save me before I bend
Backwards forwards falling through the ocean
Crying, screaming full of emotion
Screaming out loud for someone to save me
Screaming out loud for a soul to tame me
Faster and faster through the unknown she'll spin
Hoping and waiting she will see what has been
My Medicine
I'm filter Happy
Sweet Dreams my Love
With You
I'm filter Happy
Dream upon a Cloud
With You
I'm filter Happy
Going away by Yourself
On a trip
I'm Looking
Waiting
Watching
For Your return
My Medicine
I can't Expose of It
There's no place good enough
It Will Stay in My Heart
You Will Stay in My Heart
My Medicine.
I'm Filter Happy
I'll wait as long as it takes
For the Sky to Fall
The Heavens to Close
The Wind to stop
I'm filter Happy
I'll wait for The All
Your heart touches mine and I wonder how this could be.
Times passes by and are you still there for me?
The day we can be as one will make it all seem better.
That day when I look into your eyes and see mine,
That day will bring me my true happiness.
The day I shall die in your arms will make it all seem right.
Tell me when that day will come,
Tell me for my soul is one.
a flamed fire doth reign over my love
and rot with it my soul
heaven breaketh
and with it taketh some poor dying soul
alas my foe and breathe air,
settle thy mind where it should'est go
take heed to thy words
and stare at thine soul
my eyes are upheld
my spirits are lifted
a boy doth cry wolf
and i run thither to
thou knowest thy true love
does thou remember thy first love?
come thou hither to me?
doth thou think it tis right?
lo, i say, lo
onward ye shall go
onward to never return
onward i plead with you
onward shall ye go!
lost words
i'm lost in this world
reality seems to grasp my hand
freedom was taken by some other
anger is no longer an option
anger is dead
and love wins
i'm alive
and all is well
so they tell me
the drugs cover the never conclusive problem
it only inevitably makes it worse
who ever told them we would make it like the others?
why must we fall
and you prevail?
fairness is not fair
the little girl never meant to tell me that
or was it you that she told that to?
i can't remember
but i know she told me in her cries....
or was that my imagination getting away with me?
the little girl stands in all of her blackness and screams at me
she tells me these little things that drive me crazy but ah yes
down you go my friend and now she's gone
all better or is it?
you tell me my friend
you tell me how it's gonna end
i'd really like to know
i'd like to know ahead of time so i may prepare for the funeral
it will be a glorious day
the day the little girl in the head dies
and the never conclusive problem becomes conclusive
oh glorious day!
Black
Blue
Yellow
Red
Green
Purple
Violet
Teal
Pink
Brown
Orange
Maroon
White
Aqua
Silver
Black, Blue and Yellow are the colors that represent your soul.
Purple, Red and Green all show the colors of your favorite season....Fall.
Violet, Teal and Pink all show the colors you've seen in the winter sunsets.
Brown as the Winters grass
Orange as the Fall skies.
Maroon like your best friends soul.
White like the blank stares.
Aqua like the air you breathe.
Silver as the moon shines.
Build yourself a dream
I was down,
Now I'm found.
I was far away,
But I couldn't stay.
Build yourself a dream he said,
Build yourself a dream.
I flew away till it was day.
I took a rest,
Then gave it my best.
I prepared again for flight,
And I went home.
Build yourself a dream he said,
Build yourself a dream.
Mold it, make it,
Hold it, drape it.
Never fold it and tuck it away.
Always keep it in the pathway.
Build yourself a dream he said,
Build yourself a dream.
Build yourself a dream he said,
Build yourself a dream.
Sometime when you're feeling blue,
Try this little scheme----
Instead of sorting through your cares,
Build yourself a dream...
Think it over once or twice,
Why not pick and choose?
The goal you plan should be the kind
That you can really use!
Then think of something positive
That you yourself can do
To put those things in motion
That will make your dream come true!
a deeper love
for you and me
a deeper love
it's all I see
a deeper love
can never unfold
a deeper love
a story being told
a deeper love
that has no end
a deeper love
that cannot bend
a deeper love
that needs no help
a deeper love
that has been felt
a deeper love
for you and me
a deeper love
it's all i see
a deeper love
in my way
a deeper love
may it always stay
a complex mind,
left for all to find.
no one can figure it out:
no one knows what it's about.
it's all a test,
so they've told me.
it's all for the best,
so i've been told.
person in the mirror,
who are you?
where did you come from?
what makes you who you are?
what all do you have?
common ground is hard to come by.
star crossed lovers never made it,
for they were ripped apart.
two friends that have helped each other,
have now been torn apart.
Away is how you stayed.
Tears Fell In Unwanted Places.
They Fell In Every Which Direction.
My Heart Was Saddened,
Then Reduced In Size With Several Large Holes.
Patching Those Holes Was SO Fucking Hard.
Mending My Mind Was Just As Hard.
But Where Were You During It All?
Off, Out In Your Own Little World.
You Are Still Out There Somewhere...Hopefully.
It All Has Something To Do With What Has Made You New.
They've Turned You Cold And You Don't Know What To Do.
They've Made You Weak And Vulnerable.
They've Turned You Completely Around.
Your Leaves Turned Before Fall Was Here.
They Are All On The Ground.
They Turned In Late Mid Summer To The Most Crisp Red.
They Fell To The Ground,
And Now They Are In The Most Tiny Of Shreds!
Trying To Pick Them Up Are Ya?
Well You Can't; They Are Dead.
You Have To Wait Till Spring Comes And All Is New Again.
Wait For The Change To Happen That Will Allow You To Start All Over Again.
Burn The Leaves On The Ground.
Get Rid Of Them, For They Are Brown.
I Know You Know This Is All For The Best.
I Know You Can Pass This Trial And Test.
Good luck My Friend.
Things Will Eventually Come To A Rest.
Yes it is a secret no more
I have a secret,
You might possibly know.
I have a secret,
I've told you so.
It's a secret yes indeed.
It's a secret you won't believe.
I've hid it mighty well,
As you've been able to tell,
It's a secret you won't believe.
I have a secret,
I think you know.
I have a secret,
Will it ever show?
Your job is to plot the story.
Your job is to figure it out!
Have fun playing your part.
Be cautious of what is in my heart.
It's hidden deep within my hole.
I've shared it wiht one other soul.
This secret now overwhelms my mind.
It hones out from the loss of time.
It shatter the glass over my thoughts.
It batters up my brutal heart.
It purifies my unseen ways.
It cleanses all of my elaborate stains.
This is what I say to all,
This is my pleasant call:
I have a secret yes indeed,
I have a secret you won't believe!
I have a secret,
I think you know.
I have a secret,
Will it ever show...
Thank-you
your eyes have seen through me
your soul has felt mine
your blindness has led me
your kindness has overpowered me
your heart has taken mine over
the warmth I can now feel,
I thank-you for it all
you tell me a thousand things.
each and every time I look at you
I desire something new
the only air I take in is that of which you gave me
the only thing I know is that of which you taught me
I desire something new
my desire shouldn't be that of which I consider you to be
I can't seem to change my mind though
you are the whole one that is half full
you are my emptiness that is filled
your eyes have seen through me
your heart has taken mine over
I thank-you for it all
I desire something new
I can only say that I Love you
Spiral
oblivious to the fall,
scolded by all.
left alone to fight it out,
left alone in a battle of doubt.
remember where it is you came from,
remember who you've left behind.
keep your head clear all of the time.
struggle through when all seems gone.
you're spreading yourself thinly.
you're trying to play your cards right,
but there is one thing you haven't noticed,
there are several cards missing from the deck!
you're slowly bringing yourself closer to death.
you're quickly failing at everything you do.
I think it's time you take time to notice
before you draw your last breath.
I think you need to listen
and turn things around.
I think you should take some advice,
you're not who you are!
I thought I knew you fairly well.
I've thought about alot of things.
I can't seem to understand its mystery
or what feeds the fire.
I thought you had changed,
I hoped it wasn't true.
I see now what you are doing,
therefore I now know what to do.
She left
An angel has fallen!
An angel has fallen!
Oh what to do!?!
An angel has fallen!
An angel has fallen!
Maybe it could be you!
My angel left me a long time ago.
They left me all alone.
They said it would be o.k.,
For I didn't need them anymore.
My angel told me to hold on tight,
They told me to grasp the world with all my might.
They told me it would be a hard journey,
But the never told me I would fall.
The never mentioned falling,
Nor what all it involved.
They never taught me to handle pain,
Or what it could possibly do.
They promised me I would make it,
They said I wouldn't fall.
I really doubt they knew what they were saying,
For they fell right along.
My angel left me feeling cold.
My angel left me all alone.
My angel flew into my window,
And ceased to ever roam.
My angel never showed me the way.
My angel left me alone.
My angel has lost her wings.
Will she ever fly again?
An angel has fallen!
An angel has fallen!
Oh what to do!?!
An angel has fallen!
An angel has fallen!
Maybe it could be you!
Frozen Dove part I
I cannot see,
I've only seen.
I can't touch,
I only feel.
I cannot smell,
For nothing is real anymore.
I cannot hear,
I'm only heard.
I cannot believe
In most of the unseen.
I cannot walk,
I can only run.
I cannot Love,
I'm a frozen dove.
My frozen dove still flys.
She still stops to eat.
The thought of not knowing they way
Almost causes her heart to stop.
She Loves desolate places.
The dove is very quiet, smart and loving.
Peace is not within her,
But it's what she represents.
I'm a frozen dove Who:
Cannot Love,
Runs instead of walks,
Only believes in the seen,
Only hears things from the past,
Can no longer smell because reality is gone,
Can no longer touch, but only feel.
I'm a dove who has seen, but cannot see.
Watch The Frozen Dove As She Learns to Spread Her Wings.
Frozen Dove part II
I'm a frozen dove that wanders the streets.
I'm a frozen dove you must not meet.
Frozen for eternity,
She spreads her wings.
She throws her life away working though the days.
She spends her free time up and about.
At night she wails in so much doubt.
She quickly looses her way,
She has no clue where she was betrayed.
I'm a frozen dove that is in the abyss.
If only she had a map,
She wouldn't have fallen for this trap.
If only she had had some sense,
She wouldn't have thought so dense.
If only there was someone else to follow,
She wouldn't feel so hollow.
I'm a frozen dove who has seen .
I cannot see, for I have lost touch of reality.
How do I not know that I haven't been down this path before...
Maybe more than one time?
The dove uses her past recollections to get her through this land.
Maybe she will trifle through,
Maybe she will make it.
I'm a frozen dove in a far away land.
I'm a frozen dove reaching for a hand.
Frozen Dove part III
I'm a frozen dove in this far away land.
I'm a frozen dove just reaching for a hand.
Do I know whose hand it is?
Do I dare even say?
This frozen dove has been so cold
This frozen dove fits her mold.
This frozen dove is all alone,
She needs something to call her own.
I'm a frozen dove in a barren land.
I'm a frozen dove grasping for this hand.
Will you come to me and hold me tight?
Will you comfort me for just one night?
The dove reaches for a hand that seems not to be there.
She looks deep within herself for her soul.
She wishes she had just one person to care,
Realizing they are the one that can make her whole.
Why can't this dove fly away and let things go?
Why must they strangle her to death and leave her all alone?
I'm a frozen dove that has lost her faith,
For I am no longer in touch with reality.
I'm a frozen dove that tries to stay safe.
In the midst of all that has been.
May her wings be unthawed.
May she be able to fly.
Let her take off her mask,
And prepare for flight!
Frozen Dove Part IV
I'm a frozen dove
I have a hand
I'm a frozen dove
I've lived in a land
My frozen dove
She reappears
She comes to me
With all these tears
My frozen dove she has appeared
She let's me know to have no fear
Taking all my guilt away
I know that she will not stray
I know that she will not leave me alone
For I have left not feeling cold
The lights have melted my heart
I think she's done her part
The snow and ice had her trapped
It all had to melt, and then collapse
Saying a thousand things with each thought
Wishing things could just be forgot
Her feelings are no longer numb
Her body is no longer succumb
They live, but die, then cry and lie
But survive the tides that life provides
I am the frozen dove
I now have a hand
I am the frozen dove
Who was lead through this land.
The land was rugged, brutal, and harmful
I was tacit, tactful and baneful
I must have showed hatred to my foe
For they were burdened with such woe
I'm humbly bowing
I'm asking for forgiveness
You'll stumble no longer upon my traps
I've taken them away
I've thrown them in the past
I Love my soul as if it were my own
But it's not mine to have
It belongs to some other
Some distant unknown other
My heart is warm
My body's no longer cold
My mind is burdened
My soul has been sold
The frozen dove she still does cry
She spreads her wings and begins to fly
Through it all she managed to find peace
Through it all she found her release
You are Robert Frost You've had your fair share of acclaim and criticism. You have the desire to share your thoughts and knowledge with others. You view life as a challenge that you are prepared for! Nature inspires you.
War
Walking alone
Traveling afar off
Dusty roads
Time standing still
Pale faces staring
Noble men running
People crying
Time standing still
Places I've seen
Things I've heard
Places I've been
Things I've done
Times standing still
With no where to go
Bitterness weeping
Into your soul.
They Laugh, You Cry. They Try To Talk To You, You Run Away. They Say They Love You, You Say You Hate Them. They Say They Will Stay, But How Long Will They?
Tell me your deepest secret and I will tell you mine.
Let me know what haunts you and I will let you know what scares me.
Tell me what scares you and I will tell you what haunts me.
Let me know what you are thinking and I will let you know whats on my mind.
Tell me whats on your mind and I will tell you know what I'm thinking
My Friend
My friend! my friend! my dearest friend, How much you mean to me! We've known each other for all of these years, But yet it seems like a dream. We've talked practically about everything. From toys to boys...to school and life. From good times to bad... From sad times to glad, I believe we know each other pretty well. There hasn't been a week gone by that we haven't seen each other, Nor has there been a day gone by that we haven't talked to each other. For that to happen, I believe that would mean we weren't friends. I really, truly believe that will never happen. If that does happen, I want you to know, No matter where I am, I will always remember you. I will always remember the good times we shared. All the times we laughed at all those stupid things we did. All those times we didn't really know what to do, But we figured it out anyways. I will cherish them in my heart! You Are Truly My Best Friend That I Will Ever Have.
Tell me...is it there?
The cold stares that come before me
The wind blowing in my face
The light flashing before me
The sky and its grace
They all represent something of me
But something I know not of
Maybe I know about them, But am too afraid to show I do
Maybe I just can't stand to listen to them
Cause I know what they will do
For whatever the reason,
It's eating a hole inside of me, A large large hole
Like a cloudy day with no rain
And a sunny day with no sun
It's all eating away at me
As if it were not already half gone!
Imagination
Run away to your place run away to your place You seem to be going but getting nowhere You seem to be trying yet wanting to stay You seem to be moving but stopped in your tracks You seem very comfortable yet uneasy Why all the battles in your head? How come your full of questions but you never ask them? How come you seem so sure yet so confused? Why do people act the way the do? Run away to your place run away to your place Far far away... to a place where no one can hurt you Way away from those who make you feel uncomfortable Nowhere near those who confuse you And completely away from those who cause you problems A place to where you can feel sure of yourself And gain something you once lost A place where everyone gets along and no one is sad A place where nothing but happiness comes to you A place you could only make up in your head but never have.
Uncertainty of My Mind
The uncertainties of my mind. They all come back to me.
They all flow into my head just as one big dream.
They flow from the mountain tops, from the openness of the sky.
They stab me in my back, and leave me there to die.
I will not allow them to take me over, though sometimes it is hard to do. They can take over my every emotion and I do not know what to do.
I often hide from these feelings, and I know I shouldn't too.
Everything can seem so hard at times, but then it seems all new.
As I've said once before, I sometimes have my strife,
Like everyone else I know, I know that I am not alone.
Confusion
Do not turn away.
Do not turn away.
Sayeth the voices inside your head.
Sayeth the voices inside your head.
You are slowly turning.
You know the voices inside Your head tell you not too,
But your heart tells you the opposite.
You are slowly turning.
But where do you go?
Is it to a place far away?
Is it to a place of most famaliar surroundings?
Can it been seen by others?
Or is it a place off to yourself?
You are slowly turning away.
Why do you wish to do so?
Do you want to purposely shut yourself up ,
Away from those who mean so much?
The Fragileness Of Ones Soul
The fragility of ones mind, How it can hurt one so. It lets your heart be crushed By so much you don't know. You often sit and wonder As the day passes you by, Why people say some things And sometimes want to lie. You sometimes can't figure it out. You really want to scream, Till every last drop of your energy Is all dried up from its stream. You want to go and cry And tell them how you feel, But something kicks in, Beneath your skin, And you go away from what lies within. You are so afraid of others And the things that they will say. You want to tell someone how you feel But too often you feel like a pill. A pill that can't be swallowed. It's not too big in size. It's the actual thought of taking it And what it holds inside. How could it be so hard, others will say, To express your feelings inside. I guess they've never thought of what hell People go through In the very back of their minds. Some never seem to see What hell others go through. It's hard to say you understand them, When you haven't experienced it yourself. Some try to put theirself in ones place, And sometimes it often helps. At other times, you have No clue what to do And you don't know how you can help. It all takes time I've been told. It will always get better. I say to myself yeah right, If thats true, how come I already don't feel better? So I will say this to everyone: I will always try to put myself in your place no matter what. I will think about what I am going to say/do before I say/do it. I don't want to hurt others nor see them hurt. It hurts me too much to see what all something can do to a person and their soul. I want others to understand me for me so I can understand them for them. I do not want to do anything that will damage anyone as a person or scar them and their soul. For me to know that I have done this, it causes me inner strife. Something so painful its hard for me to describe. I do not wish to hurt others nor put them down. Somethings I have said to some, just have came out all wrong. I cannot take back what I have said. I can only tell these people how I feel about it and express my sorrow. I can only show by my actions what type of person I am. I hope others will see me for who I am and not what is in some dream or illusion they may see in me at first. I hope over time, those I have hurt will forgive me and learn I'm not what they first thought I was, I am so much more. Fragile- easyily broken, damaged, or destroyed; frail. Lacking physical or emotional strength; delicate. Lacking substance; tenuous or flimsy. Fragile applies to objects that are not made of strong or sturdy material and that require great care when handled. The Fragileness Of Ones Soul, It's a serious thing. It has the ability to tear at ones inner being and leave them completely Insane.
You feel like you should be labeled with a sticker that reads: " Fragile Handle With Care. " The frailty of ones mind, How it can hurt one so. It lets your heart be crushed By so much you don't know.
I've been Slipping Into The Inner Parts Of My Mind,
Where I Shall Not Return For A Very Long Time.
That Pit In Which I Once Was,
I Seem To Be Falling Back Into Once More.
I'm sorry for all those times I've ever possibly hurt you. I really didn't mean to hurt you, I would never want to do that. I hope you know that. I wouldn't want to jeopardize our friendship. It means to much to me. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I don't want you to feel hurt from me. If you only knew how bad I felt. I would never say anything that would hurt you if you would just let me know exacly what that is that hurts you so.
There is one thing that I have learned, freinds are one of the greatest things you will ever have. No matter what you have done, a true friend will always be there for you no questions asked. Friends are one of lifes greatest gifts. Don't let stupid little things get between you and a friend, it's just not worth it.
My Box
I climb into a box, a cold pine box
One that has not been used before
A new box, one that I am not familiar with.
Its scent is fresh but its touch is rugged .
It provides no warmth, no comfort.
What good is this box if it cannot help me or
If it cannot protect me from the world?
It cannot shield me from all of those terrible things.
It makes me face my fears...reality...how things really are
I do not wish to look at these things, but I have to.
I have no choice in the matter.
Maybe I can find my old box.
That great box of comfort.
Yes, that is what I will do
I shall find it, lay down...and stay there for awhile.
I am sure I will feel better when I get out of it, or will I?
It has always provided me with such comfort...but now,
Why would I have a new one unless the old one has worn out?
Maybe I should try the new one....see where it takes me
It might not be so bad after all
Not all things are as bad as they seem
And then again, some things are worse than what they seem.
What to do... what to do
Maybe if I close my eyes for awhile, it will all go away
Maybe if I ignore it, it will eventually leave
I know in reality it can never be this way...so why should I think it?
Maybe I think it because it provides me some sort of comfort.
Yes that is it.....it takes me to my comfort zone.
That place where I am not afraid.
Few people or maybe no one knows about it. If they did, then
I might not be comfortable
I do not wish to be this way, but sometimes it is hard to do
My emotions and my head gets caught up in all that is going on
I’m not always this way, just every once n’ awhile
I shall take myself out of this rut
And try to help myself as well as help any one else that
I can Yes that is what I shall do...get rid of it...burn that box
Burn it.............burn it............burn it
Can you come and comfort me
And hold me just one more time
To show me that you still care
And tell me everthing will be alright?
Take hold of me now and never let go.
I want to feel your security.
I want to feel your warmth.
I want to feel what isn't there.
I want what I can never have.
Ripping up my heart
Screwing up my mind
Cutting at my throat
Crawling down my spine
Thoughts that aren't so clear,
Actions that can't be right.
Tearing off my limbs.
I'm feeling numb.
My body's completely drear.
The mystery of things is wide-awake.
The haunting fowls around me break.
The wind soars high above the sky
It reaches that place where no one lies.
It takes hold of something big.
It lets you know why it wants in.
It promises to be a fulfilling ride
It picks you up and takes you high.
You have no clue where you are going.
It seemed like it would be fun.
You now look down to the ground in fear,
And wonder why you feel these tears.
You wonder why your wide-awake.
You wonder why you made such a mistake.
your eyes have seen through me
your soul has felt mine
your blindness has led me
your kindness has overpowered me
your heart has taken mine over
the warmth I can now feel,
I thank-you for it all
you tell me a thousand things.
each and every time I look at you
I desire something new
the only air I take in is that of which you gave me
the only thing I know is that of which you taught me
I desire something new
my desire shouldn't be that of which I consider you to be
I can't seem to change my mind though
you are the whole one that is half full
you are my emptiness that is filled
your eyes have seen through me
your heart has taken mine over
I thank-you for it all
I desire something new
I can only say that I Love you
everything seems so fake and yet it is all real
how can one understand it
one cant
that's the whole deal to it all
we are not made to know it all
we are not made to withstand everything
we break
we stand
we fall
we live
we die
we are happy
we are sad
we cry
we live as we wish
and die like they tell us to
i only wish it werent like this
it tis my only wish
i wish i could love everyone equally
i wish i could truly care
i'm slowly dying limb by limb
i want to love but i can't
cough
despite it all,
the rain fell
the needles ran through,
the air became stale,
but i continued to breathe
taken abruptly
and kissed in secret
falling down it again
this little hole
such a never ending story
how come i must lie between this line?
why can't i choose what i want?
why must i be held back by a person?
why must the confusion confuse us?
tell me what it is
i see
i feel
i know
shall i say it?
or shall i just see what happens?
frosty on the outside,
but clear on the inside
wiping away the tears i've cried for you
tearing up papers i've been given
curious looks in the air
the eyes of satan have stared through me time and time again
your eyes have stared through mine time and time again
coincidence?
it's all been fogged over with one of your blankets
allow me to cover up with it, won't you?
or is it dangerous?
does it take life away?
is that why you seem so lifeless?
i suppose only you can tell me that
i can only guess what's being thought
tears of grief
shattering the pieces
recumbent soul
folding the line
piercing my side
bruising my brain
this folly of life
it's driving me insane!
my shepherd has left me
i grieve part time
the other, i run happily
through fields and twine
i live in the garden
i slide on the ice
i tread on the folly,
oh isn't this nice!
master, master
i calleth thee twice
take me with you
make all things right
seemingly happy
it's all an illusion
it's all part of reality
*wishes for normality*
the candy at the store
if i had some money,
i'd go buy some things.
i'd buy certain things and give them all away.
if i had the guts,
i'd spew it all.
if i had a brain,
i'd actually think with it.
if i weren't afraid,
i'd be able to walk.
if i were capable of doing these things,
i'd want them.
if i was hungry,
would you donate food?
something from the candy store please.
it's much sweeter than ordinary things.
something from the candy store, if you please.
i must have candy!
if i had the money,
i'd give it all away.
if i had a penny for every time i've been unhappy,
i'd be a rich motha fucka right about now.
too bad life isn't that way eh?
if a hand was there to keep me away from the " junk"
i'd be a healthier person.
if i weren't so numb,
i'd take you to the candy store.
you could buy all you want.
i'd pay for it
well that is assuming i had money for every time i've been unhappy.
a trip to the candy store,
when shall it be?
the answer lies within this writing.
wanting you more and more each day
i think about the things in my head that are spread around like:
salt on the floor,
sand on the beach,
salt in the ocean,
and it's all sort of like oil and water,
they don't mix, but they do
i experience the pain... the agony each day
being selfish is your game you play
time is the challenge you face
caring is what it is
so you say
the rose swallowed love
the rose wilted
love died
the thorns were still sharp
the thorns continued to cut my fingers
plenty of blood has been shed
tears come over and over
the rain floods the inside but leaves the outside dry
dried up into a bottle
released by this devil
relying on a false substance
but it gives such pleasure
why you say?
it's the comfort found in it
once again i say it's a false substance
a false feeling of being loved?
time is the challenge you face
you think about yourself before you think about me
but how i love it so
kind, caring and forgiving is my game
it's how i am
why you say?
it's just how i am
i have too much love in my heart to not forgive, care, or love
i hate trouble
but how it loves to follow me
how it loves to cause me problems
how it nags at me so
but i lie to it
it goes away
like always i'm left, ok
just ok
beautiful bumble bee,
come and rescue me
cut off my hands
see what i can be
handle me with care
for i am fragile
love me if you dare
cut off my wings
sour person
little girl
run for you are scared
there lies a door
open it
salvations awaits
screams are heard
what happened?
where did she go?
person in the black
who are you?
what have you done to the girl?
die................
the bumble bee is gone
the sour girl never existed
death awaits you
you are only part of the never ending story
help is on it's way
you hope
you feel alone
comfort lies within this other person
in one soul
long for it ruminatively?
but i won't be denied?
all and all
take me and tie me up
let me be that dangling masquerade
hold me like that letter
throw me away like the sundays newspaper
beat me down forever
crumble my mind like never before
salvation awaits me
i need to be saved
save me?