This time it was me


Friday, the 19th of March I got a phonecall from my friend. Nervously
she told me: Michael is going to be in Saarbrucken, tomorrow! He is
going to the Wetten Dass show.
My mouth felt open, I really couldn't believe it. Finally I was going
to see him again. (the last time was the concert in Oostende, on the
3rd of September 1997).
Saturday morning we (me, Linda and Saskia) were at 6 a.m. in Utrecht to
meet Linda, she was going to drive. This was the one of the few times
that I was happy that my alarm of my clock radio went on at 5 a.m.
We had a long way to go, but knowing that would see Michael today,
the distance didn't matter at all.

The first thing we did when we arrived in Saarbrucken was buying the
newspaper. In an article we read that Michael wasn't going to perform
but that he would be in Wetten Dass to talk. We were a little
disappointed, but also curious, where was Michael going to talk
about????
Arriving at the Saarlanhalle it was already 3 p.m. It was great to see
many friends again and many people I know from the tour. There were
lots of fans, lots of banners, and that really surprised me a bit,
cause after all, the news that Michael would be in Saarbrucken was
announced only yesterday. I got the tour feeling back again.
As I was standing to one of the fences suddenly a woman came and asked
me if somebody needed tickets. I first thought that she was joking, but
realized soon that it was for real. She had about 15 tickets and they
costed 60DM. Everybody got paniced and me as well, cause I hadn't
any German money, only Dutch. Suddenly Murielle gave me 120DM and said
try to buy two. I was soo lucky cause I got 2 tickets. (Thanx
Murielle). Now we were more excited than ever, cause we were gonna see
him in the show, but what I didn't know yet was that I would be Really
lucky today........
On the other hand I was also a bit sad, cause Linda and Saskia hadn't
any.
Then we heard that the plan was that MJJ would arrive at about 5.p.m.
We had about one hour to go. Suddenly I saw Karoline, a good friend of
mine. She had also managed to get tickets so I stayed with her.
As the clock was ticking the tension grew more and more. Suddenly
Karoline pulled me and dragged me with her. We are going to the beginning
of the street, she said. She was right, cause MJJ would come from that
side, so he might be able to see us from his car. I had taken
two posters with me, with childrenprints on and as Michael's cars came
I held them up, hoping Michael would see them. And that's what
happened, Michael saw them, so Wayne opened the window (I think to take
the poster), but it didn't work out cause it got really hectic as
more and more fans came.
As Michael's cars drove into the area of the studio, they drove to the
back. Michael hadn't stepped out.....................
Fans started screaming: Michael Michael, 5 minutes past, 10 minutes,
but still no sign of Michael.
Karoline dragged me again to the left side. Overthere there weren't any
fans, only many bushes, 2 securities and one red-white ribbon(tape),
so no fences and we were standing on a stair. We doubted for a
second if we would stay there, but eventually did it, cause we had
nothing to lose. Personally I thought that Michael would come outside
from the official entrance, so that meant we would see him from the
side, not from the front. But it didn't make any sence to go to the
front, cause there we couldn't see anything as well. We noticed that if
Michael would come walking from the back to the front, he would see us
as first and he would see us perfectly.
As I was watching the fans, Karoline suddenly began to scream, she
delivered me almost a heartattack, and as I turned my head I
understood why. There he was, the man, walking from the backside to
the front. O God, we were standing at the right place, I couldn't
believe it. He was surrounded by many people, managers, press,
sponsers.etc. I started screaming: Michael Michael. Michael noticed me
cause he started smiling, pointing at us and I saw him giving orders
to Wayne to come and get the posters. As Wayne was coming to us,
Michael continued his walk. I screamed: Michael I wanna hug, Michael I
wanna hug. I really thought that he wouldn't hear me, cause the fans
were screaming loud, lots of people around him, but I was totally
wrong. At one moment, MJ turned his head to me and made a sign with
his hand saying: come over then. As he did that he turned back and
continued his walk to the front. O my God, I really didn't know what
to do. As Wayne was walking to us he was with his back to Michael so
Wayne didn't see that Michael said that I could come. Wayne took the
poster and I said: Wayne, Michael said I was also allowed to come. He
doubted for a few seconds and then said: ok common over then. Me and
Karoline stepped over the ribbon and walked down the stairs. Wayne
hurried back to Michael, so there we were, walking about 10 steps from
Michael. My eyes were full with tears, Karoline was squeezing my hand
as hard as she could and I kept asking her: Karoline what are we going
to do? I don't know what to do.
We stood 2 steps from Michael and were watching him: signing things,
taking presents.......I started to freak out a little, cause fans
where screaming, there was lots of press around me, other people
walking around me, security, flashes everywhere and I didn't know when
to go to Michael. I mean, he was busy with signing things, I didn't
want to interrupt him, I didn't want to push my self to him.
Besides that, Michael was with his back to us, so I didn't know if he
had seen us. It was quite funny to be for once at the other side than
I normally am. Now I saw everything like Michael was seeing it and it
was funny.
Suddenly Wayne came and he made a sign to me that I could go to Michael.
Ok, I said to myself: this is the moment you have waited your entire
life for, don't blow it for yourself, stay calm and just simply stay
clear!!!(how do you do that?)
I walked around Michael and then I was in front of him. I gave him
the two posters, but I don't remember if he took them or somebody
else.
The next thing I remeber was a huge scream from the fans as I was in
the arms of the most wonderful man in the world.
You know, it's like at the concerts, when a yana-girl climbs on
stage. I always wondered how that feels, and now I was the Lucky one.
It was like I was in heaven, like I was in the arms of an Angel. He
held me really tight, and that really surprised me. He is stronger
than most people think and I always thought he just gives you
a hug, nothing more. But he hugs you like you are his child, you could
feel his love and that he cares about you.
The next thing I remember was that Karoline hugged him and as she came
to me, she hugged me and we holded each others hands, watching Michael
amusing himself with the fans. He walked along the fans and he gave
us a wink before going inside. We walked inside with Michael as well
and he danced for a minute with a doll. That was really funny. Then he
went to a room, where we were not allowed to go, but who cares????
We had just met the most wonderful man in the world!!!!!!
We went to the toilets and after checking that there was nobody, we
started screaming and jumping of joy. I called my mom and told her,
she couldn't believe it!
Then we played some football (you could play football inside) and
talked to the press. We wanted to go to our friends just for a few
minutes, but we were scared that once we walk out of the studio, we
wouldn't be let in anymore. We had tickets, but the public wasn't allowed
to enter yet. So we asked a man from the press/security if he wanted
to come with us just for a few minutes. If we were with him, the
security at the front wouldn't make any trouble. He was kind and
did that for us, thanx.
Once outside everybody started asking how it was, how Michael
was...etc.etc. Walking in again, it was waiting till the beginning of
the show.
The show was great, even without a performance!!!! One of the things I also
enjoyed was seeing the audience. The most of them were between 40-60
years and as Michael made his entrance, they really didn't understand
what happened. That was funny to see, they watched all these screaming
fans...and were just astonished that that was happening. They had
never seen such an event before........It was also kinda hectic, I have
to admit, but it was great and I think Michael loved it. Especially
when it was finally quiet, after hearing Michael's voice, everyone
went crazy again. O, that scene with the flower, was great!!!!
There is a moment on the tape that you could hear somebody screaming:
thank you Michael, we hope he heard it, cause that were Karoline and
me.
After Michael left the show, everybody ran outside to see Michael
leaving. He showed himself two times out of the car, and then left.
After that there was a lot of joy and happiness among the fans. We
stayed for a while and then went looking for a hotel.The next morning
we left Saarbrucken. It was going back to real life again....o I hate
that so much. Sunday evening I was back home and I was just trying to
realize what had happened the past 48 hours.

It was great and I have memories that I will never forget.

To all the fans I want to say: Keep believing in your dreams, one day
it will happen to you as well.......probably the moment you less
expect.

THANK YOU WAYNE, thank you for believing in me and give me that
chance.

THANK YOU MICHAEL, thank you for that moment, thank you for giving me
such valuable memories. Remember you are not alone, I will always
believe in you and don't forget that you have something special that
nobody has, you have magic!!!!!

Love ya, see you all in Modena and Munich

Iliyana, 17 years old (also known as Lucky Girl from the MJIFC chat)
Holland