My life for a song

By Erika Shadow

My advent upon this earth

No joy or pleasure had this event

For my poor, unhappy mother

But painful disbelief that birth

Could bring forth deep wounds of shame

Confusion, anguish, distress,

Appalled by this monstrosity

Whom she could not, would not, name
 
 

My childhood, lonely and unreal

Passed in a world of fantasy

Blighted by her revulsion

Her torment that would not heal

Love she could not give to me

My dreams were to know her smile

To have her kiss upon my brow

But there are dreams that cannot be
 
 

And I ran from her, a headlong flight

Into a world unknown to me

To find that men were beasts from hell

Who caged me through the day and night

Revenge became my burning goal

Despair destroyed the child I was

Freedom gained by death at my hand

With hatred ravaging my soul
 
 

I grew to be a man whose restless quest

Began long years of odyssey, to seek

The truth, the answers - why, Lord, why?

Until I know I cannot ever rest.

At last my troubled spirit brought me home

Where I found a quiet peace in my domain

A haven underneath the Paris streets

My kingdom far beneath a mighty dome
 
 

I lived in solitude and was content

In this vast place where music reigned supreme

Then came the day I heard an angel's voice

The answer to my questions had been sent

From Heaven, and my heart is filled with song

The reason for my being now defined

Can dreams of love became reality?

Can her voice tell me at last where I belong?
 
 

Christine, can you hear me inside your head?

My child, I will make your song take wing

If you trust in me the world lays at your feet

And we two will find the joy that lies ahead.

My Christine, from the moment I was born

I have had a mask around my face

Covering the grief that was my life

Now, with you, I do not need to mourn
 
 

For those lost years of tragedy and pain

Are past, and I can let them fade and die

Now you are here with me and I know

That the life I had been given was not in vain

You sing only for me with such delight

You set my heart on fire with pride and joy

You come to me with shining, smiling eyes

You touch me and all the stars shine bright
 
 

you looked so long and deep into my eyes

You saw the loving man beneath the mask

You are my love, my life, my very soul

You loved the man within my lonely guise

And so, my Angel of music and song

Your Phantom calls you to be by his side

Takes your hand and lays it on his heart

For it is there that always you belong.



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