Part 6: "Sometimes I Think That You'll Never Understand Me"
48 hours have gone by and he sits in his apartment with 3 new cards:
"I
don't know exactly when I first knew I loved you.
Maybe I always have..."
"Take away the sun. Take away the stars in the sky. Take away the air that I breathe and the food on my plate. I swear I wouldn't notice with you by my side."
"If
you are the desert, I'll be the sea.
If you ever hunger, hunger for me.
Whatever you ask for, that's what I'll be."
He walks
out to his car and drives towards Tania's flat with the cards. He
has to know what she really means by this. He drives fast, too
fast indeed, and knows that if a cop sees him he will lose his
license for sure. But no cops are in sight, and he arrives at her
place in no time. He runs up the 150 stairs to her penthouse, and
walks straight in.
- Tania, when did you come up with this?
he asks and puts the cards on the table in front of her. She
looks at them, reads and replies:
- I have never seen them before.
He looks at her and sees something he doesn't want to see. It
looks as if she couldn't care less whether he was there or
someplace else. Until she gets this strange look on her face.
- You are having an affair behind my back!
she screams.
- What on earth are you talking about? Are you out of
your mind?
- You're desperately trying to cover yourself, but I have had my
suspicions! And now you just confirmed them, get out I don't ever
want to see you again EVER!
He can't
believe his own ears. Did she just accuse him of having an AFFAIR
with another woman? And who would that be?
- Don't you have more faith in me than that?
- Get out! GET OUT! she screams hysterically, and
before he knows it he is outside her door again.
- Damn it, he mumbles and runs down the
stairs again. How could she even think that? For the last six
months he hasn't even looked at anyone but her.
He gets into his cab and drives to a hidden place behind a big forest. He parks by the edge of a cliff and sits down on a rock. Even though he doesn.t want to cry, he can't hold the tears back. They just keep running and running. Before he is fully aware of it himself he cries like a baby at the edge of a cliff behind a big forest many miles outside New York City. He had her, and now he has lost her. Just because of som e cards and a secret admirer. That takes him back to the small cute cards and the thought of someone out there that truly cares about him. The question is who?
He stares at the cards and tries to analyse
the handwriting, which is very nice indeed. All the sudden all
the tears are gone, and he tries to focus on the secret messages
and the person behind them. But after half an hour he gives up on
that too, and the tears are back. He loves someone who obviously
doesn't love him, he has a secret admirer who loves him with all
her heart but he doesn't even know if he has feelings for her. Or
if he ever will find out who she is. Maybe he can develop
feelings for her, maybe they are meant to be? But even though he
tries to look on the bright side of the case he can't stop
thinking about Tania. He gets up and decides not to give up that
easy. "We shared some good times!" he thinks
to himself. She can't just forget about that, can she? Everything
seemed so perfect - if only for a short, short time. She even
told her friends and colleagues that he was perfect for her, and
what was that supposed to mean anyway?
- I love her, damn it! he says out
loud, and scares the living shit out of a crow behind him. -
And I won't let her go that easy, he concludes and
gets back in his cab ready to fight for the woman he loves...