Running, yet still running even faster.
Limbs slap at my face as I charge through, briars cut into
my legs. I can feel the blood oozing down my ankles.
I have to run, unable to withstand the constant reminder of the pain.
I trip and fall against a tree stump, I feel myself growing dizzy, still yet,
I jouney on.
It starts raining, hitting me here and there all at once. I feel
my tears burn my face and the rain mixes with its acid pain causing a child of its own.
My hair becomes matted against my face , I push it away.
I hear it up ahead, its calling me to join it.
"I am coming," I yell.
I run smack into a small tree, the leaves graze my eyes causing temporary blindness.
The pain I am enduring to travel on to the creek feels monotonous, yet well
worth it.
I just cant stand to be away from it any longer. I must become one.
I cry even harder remembering you, my dear, remembering us.
The loath you feel for me could not be more of a hell of the constant
reminder of the insanity to which I feel even closer to.
Yet, this must be the moment beyond the border of the hand
of insanity.
Its border is cruel, like a child coming from the womb I slip
past its walls.
I was rejected from the moment of my birth and
it continued through life, only now I am wanted by the creek.
It draws me to its slow trickles, and its fast passion over boulders of sediment.
I trust in you I put it all in you�your like Morphine
I catch site of you up ahead, there your beautiful light shines.
I run as fast as I can to your side.
I kneel, closer I come to you.
You whisper, it wont hurt me, and for me not to cry.
You say to count to 10. I start,
1, 2�goodbye, my love, I gave you my all, its gone now
3, 4, 5.. Even closer to your cold fingers, reaching for me.
6, 7�I relax, do it now�its time,
8,9 the blade is sharp almost unnoticed by me..I know its coming fast, I try to ignore it�
10.. there I counted, I lean into you, I breathe your cold life, You kill me softly.
Inhale, I am surrounding by your love, I am�convert me, turn me into a part of you, I want you to control me
You are I feel it, I let go and you take me into you I travel fast, but thats fine because I feel like I am high, I feel nothing now
only bliss and one last thought�.it is of you my love
I did it for you and for the world,
Goodbye!
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