me

i'm feeling very sorry for myself right now. oh well. life happens that way, doesn't it? apparently, i'm either way too quiet or i'm a bitch. can't win if i keep my mouth closed or if i talk, so why bother? "it's better to say nothing and have people think you're a fool than open your mouth and remove all doubt." i don't know who said that.

this is me. i live on my own, with a roommate who's never here anyway, except when i'm sleeping, and she's quiet. i haven't really decided what to change my name to yet, maybe ophelia? that's a good name, has a lot of tragedy and insanity linked to it. i'm 19, a hardcore cancer if you've evermet one, and i'm a loner. i don't want to be, but i got kicked out of a band, and that was the only thing i really enjoyed that involved people. i played the bass. i loved it. but i was a bitch, so it always goes, and lost my place, to be replaced by someone who was not me. obviously.

i have a pet rat named sophie. she's cute, she's afraid of everything. maybe because she used to live with three cats who thought she would make a good lunch. she didn't get out much. smart rat.

i listen to music. not rap. i was in a sorority, but sadly i didn't party enough and i got good grades, so i didn't fit in. i didn't enjoy it anyway. it cost too much.

i went to the university of new mexico for a year. it's a terrible place. it was my last choice school but it was cheap. so i'm taking a year off and working and then i'm going to the university of nevada las vegas. that's my first choice school. or maybe i'll become a hairdresser. that'd make my parents mad.

i've foresaken caps today. usually i use them. i wrote small when i feel invaded. i feel invaded. people at work don't like me. i don't like them either, but i've never done anything to them. my life was turned upside-down more than once recently. i can't go into it here. maybe eventually, but not right now.

i love purple, and i've been reading alot about magick. it's very interesting. i'm thinking of dabbling in it, maybe eventually learning to become a witch. i'm already a bitch, what's one letter?

to see a picture of me about two years ago, click here. i really need to get a scanner and camera. maybe i should get a digital one. anyone feel generous?