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  okay, here we are: graphite diamonds version 1.0 -money- cause that's what i want. like this format or not, it's here to stay-ha! you know as well as i do that this could last a month, or two days. when i get a new idea or when i see something i like it'll end up here, rest assured. it's all a part of who i am i guess. i change my attitude all the time-i'm like a rollercoaster with no brakes, i just keep going up and down, up and down- and figuring that this page represents me it changes too. if you don't like it go away, simple as that, no one's forcing you to be here least of all me.

  graphite diamonds -chemically they're the same damn thing- all carbon, but we look at them so differently. diamonds are beautiful, expensive, a symbol of undying love, everyone loves diamonds and i'm no exception. but graphite- it's just there, we hardly even notice it. it's dark and relatively unnatractive, it's cheap, and it writes for our pencils but still we could mostly care less about graphite. isn't that a sad testimony to our society in a way, we worship beauty all too much. diamonds are beautiful they're the same freakin thing as graphite- simply double bonded carbon, but no one sees that and no one much cares cause diamonds are so special and pretty, and graphite's just there.

  isn't it strange how we can do the same thing to people. to people who have fragile emotions, to people who are so much more important that all the diamonds in the world. we find it so easy to pull each other down and rip each other apart but we're really all the same thing- black, yellow, and white, tall, short, fat or thin, ugly or beautiful- we're all human beings. and it makes me sick to know what horrible things we do to each other, even though sometimes i take part in it too, cause i'm not perfect at all. and i think it should stop but i guess we just don't know where to start, so we don't and things go on and on, and sometimes i hate myself for the way i am. but then i remeber that i'm only me- no more and no less- and i move on, cause once in a while i feel ignored like grahite but then i remember that with a little extra pressure and a lot of time, i could someday be a diamond.