Part 8
"Mark... Mark stop... get off of him" she yelled trying desperately to
pull him off of A.J.
"Shut up!" he said slamming Krystle against the wall. Her eyes spun in
circles as her head thumped against the wall. She fell to the floor
with her eyes widely open.
"Don't touch her," A.J said getting up and running over to Krystle.
Mark brushed his pants and got up,
"Who needs you anyways bitch?" he said walking out of the door.
Krystle was holding her head when she looked up to see A.J in front of
her.
"You're bleeding." She said as she brushed her hand against his lip. He
squinted in pain as she touched the open part of his cup. Krystle
looked at him seriously and then began to cry.
"Why Krys... Why this..." he said looking down on her,
"Cause... Cause I don't know how else to kill myself..."
"Don't you ever, ever say that again.. Okay.. Never." He said almost
shouting at her. She cried harder.
"It's not easy A.J.. Okay," she said wiping her face, "Did you expect me
to be the same old Krystle after all of this... I can't do it anymore.
.. I can't do this by myself... I don't"
He interrupted her,
"I'm here, I can help you." Krystle's eyes widened,
"You don't even know what you want A.J... I don't want to be in the
middle anymore... there's so many things that I want back. I want my
friends.. Who I pushed away," her crying had gotten worse, "I want my
family back... who I never got to say goodbye to... I want you back
A.J... Everything was great when you were here... And then you left
me... that's what I want... I know what I want... how about you huh?
What do you want?" she said still holding her head.
"Krystle... I just want"
"The truth A.J... I want to know the truth." She said looking up at
him. He looked at her,
"You... I want you." He said touching the side of her face,
"So then why do you keep pushing me away... And what about Lisa" she
said in a whisper.
He looked at her and sighed,
"That's the thing I don't know about. I've got feelings for..."
"So why are you here... You don't even know what you want... Stop
coming here and telling me that you love... that you care for me, and
then say you care for Lisa to... I don't want to hear that anymore ok?
I want an answer and if you can't give me one know then I don't want you
around now... You don't know what this does to me okay..." her lipped
trembled and her hands shook... she really wanted to take her pills.
"Krys.. I understand you need your answer, but ask me to walk out of
here and not come back... I can't do that..." A.J said sitting next to
her.
"Then don't let it A.J... Don't walk out on me again." She said looking
at him. There was silence for a long time.
"Don't do it again," she got up from the floor and began to walk up the
stairs.
"Listen," she started as she got to the top of the stairs, "If you can't
love me know... then you won't love me later... so let yourself out
okay?" she said shutting the door to her bedroom. She sat on her bed.
No tears came out, but inside she felt like she was cut so deep, that
nothing could mend it or help her pain.
A.J got up from the floor. He walked over to the door.
'There's another girl out there who loves me... So why am I wasting my
time with Krystle? Why can't I just walk out of this door right now..
And never come back?' he said to himself.. Now was his time to decide.
'Do I stay here, and love her? Or Do I leave... do I walk out on her'
A.J grabbed hold of the door handle and looked back at the stairs,
"I know what I got to do' he said closing the door