Letters To The Future
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Mariejoy....If I will write a letter to you
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If ever I have the chance to tell you and write to you something about the way I feel today, it would only be a long story of how I discovered that such a wonderful woman as you does not exist only in my dreams. Far from that, you surpass every dream a man has ever had and will ever dare to wish and long for. And if I am going to write to you, I will tell you that the last time I felt like this - I was falling in love. But this time, much estrange than ever before. That the past experiences of shivering and restlessness before, while, and after the feeling of affection was confessed; the past experiences of loving, being loved, and heart being broken are no more than just mere memories which are of no help to cease or alleviate the suffering and ease me now.
I will write to you and tell you that you have a pure and simple heart. The spirit full of passion manifested through the glow of your face that constantly radiates. Your smile is the morning sunshine that lights my heart and makes it warm. Your mild speech wouldn`t break a huge hard rock but would make it the softest of all beds that one might wish to lie down calmly forever. Your gorgeous actions would melt the eyes of every man so lucky to have sometime with you. And indeed, your magnificent beauty, character, and vision of life would smash into regret and unbearable pain every heart of those who dream about you but whose dreams just don`t come true.
I will write to you that I wish I could spend my whole life with your innocent but wise spirit, your complicated but pure conscience. Where I could tell honestly my fears and courage, my sadness and joys. Where my inspiration and vitality will come from. My only home where I will be back to mourn my every defeat or rejoice my every victory. Which I will protect with the best of what I can and gently fill with warmth of my love so that it may never get hurt nor cry so long as I live. Which I will always make happy everyhour of everyday with every little ways I know.
Thus, I can take rest anywhere but in your most loving heart alone can I savor my true peace. Within your bosom full of serenity alone can i be full of ease, at home.
This is my very wish and every dream, and is the only content of every long prayers I recite every time I feel my powerlessness and need the help of Someone Higher.
Once asked by a friend how would you feel if one of your friends fall madly in loved with you, you said that some friends are meant to be friends only and no more.
So if I will write to you, Joy, which I ought to do to at least minimize the hardship I suffer now, but which I decided not to. Instead, I will write for everyone to know. That though not all my prayers are meant to be heard, though not all my wish will surely be mine, not even my very own dreams. I will write for the whole world to know, that for once in my life, I had seen and I had been befriended by such a wonderful woman as you.........I love you....
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Sa aking mga kasangga sa aming baranggay
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alas sais ng hapon, ika-23 ng buwan ng Marso, baranggay komaba
Pagdating namin ("The 12 Disciples") dito sa Japan, I felt I was the luckiest one - the happiest of all(considering all the struggles I did just to make all of these a triumph. But now, at this moment of us parting from each other, I feel the exact opposite. As if the only thing that can help me become less miserable.....is to cry.
Mula nang magkaisip ako, base sa mga nakita at naranasan ko, I had always thought that life is an arena. That living is a competiotion. And everyone around us is our competitors. Marami na akong taong nakasama, naging kaibigan, at ang komaba ay ang ika-dalawampu`t isang bahay na aking tinirhan. But only there have I realized, that everything is not the way I thought it was.
I thank you. Thanks to all of you. For everything. And most especially for the one that makes me feel so sad today.
I deeply regret that I refused to be with you on some occasions, parties, trips, gatherings, watching movies, etc. I regret the days that I could have been more kind and more caring to all of you....more close to each of you....but those opportunity I foolishly let passed....I am so sorry...
Deep inside your hearts you may not have felt or treated me such warmthly, but with all the things you`ve shown and done unto me, and the way you treated each one of you......in each of them I discovered a deeper meaning of friendship. That which justifies..... and makes it worthy.....that I burst into tears right now.
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To you
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you can post your own letter here by sending me an email.
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