Articulate and lost
he was - like the dreams that had drowned one day at the crossing. They
had gasped, spewing green sprinkles that glittered in the light.
He hadn't
known they could die. . .
He had tried to remake
them - rolling himself on tracing paper to make the pattern - but the figures
came out all wrong, skewed somehow and not very nice. Their voices screeched
at him and their stretched faces flew up and tried to choke him . . .
So, except he was
lost, he preferred being alone now.
Then he found the
flowers - piled in a corner of a clearing, swept aside by the large gesture
of a passing breeze - and since no one else wanted them, he did. That was
always his way.
He got some watered
sand dyed purple and, mixing it with the flowers, made a peoplesand - or
was that a sandpeople? he could never remember... and she was very pretty
- prettier even than the dreams he'd
lost.
FlowerFace
he called her.
He built a moat around
her, and a pedestal she could stand upon = and he would look up at her
and think how pretty she was. When he felt like it, he even talked to her
sometimes - though he had to shout the words to be sure she could hear
him and, when she answered, he couldn't
understand her anyway... So he thought her an echo and was very pleased
she had nothing to say for herself.
But she wanted to
play . . .
She wanted to spray
green glitterdust on trees, grow puppy bushes that would scamper and play
hidegoseek and keep berry cows that would drip with magenta milk. . . She
wanted color for the saying and sounds for painting -
and she didn't
want to die...
What she wanted was
to be human and he had made her to be a god.
All she was was a
god.
She couldn't
change because she wasn't
alive. - and because she couldn't
live, she knew she was dead. She became hard and fixed and demanded sacrifices:
sunbeams and raindrop beads and a dress made of starlight. . . and he gave
them to her because he was so delighted with himself for having made a
god.
Eventually, she wanted
blood.
That's
when he put an apple in her hand - and walked away. . . |