HOPE

Hope is something I have alot of. If you don't hope for things, you're likely never to get them. Faith and Hope play hand in hand with fate. It never seems to amaze me at how much people don't believe or don't want to believe things that others can't or don't. It seems to me, these people are so conformed by their peers or what not, that they feel they must believe and hope for and have faith in, only what other people do. They can't seem to question the inquestionable. They just won't do it. I do not believe what most people do, in religon and things. In religion, I believe that you make your own Hell. It isn't a certain place, it's how you make it. I do believe in God, or something superior that created me, but I do not believe in the Christian Bible. I was born as a Christian, but I have never really practiced the religion. I have been exposed by my gracious parents to alot of belifes, but I have chose to believe my own way. I do voice my opinions about my beliefs to my school, and peers. Other then that, I don't really stand up for myself enough. I am the type of person that will give and give (emotionaly, and support wise) without haveing to get it back. I am the person that knows everyone's complaint about everyone else. And they come to me for advise and help and just to talk. I don't think I have ever really had a real friend yet, because a friendship isn't total give and none recieved. It's equal. I did have one best friend. Her name was Mandy. We were alot alike. But I'm going to stop babbling now. I guess the reason I think like this is only because I've live in the small town of Portsmouth Ohio for 7 years. Conformity. I just can't cope! :-) (I'm not some big riotous hippy or a Marylin Manson worshiper. I look just like every other teen, and everything. I don't tell many people I think or feel like this, So when I am around them I am a hypicrite, because I try to act like them *I hate it but it's hard not to.*)